Autism Fraud

DSM-5, I Told You So, You Should Have Listened

2012-01-27T07:01:00.000-08:00

I spent years exposing the fraud of Neurodiversity and advising parents of autistic children that these liars needed to be opposed. In turn, I was berated by a large segment of the autism community. Hardly anyone listened as I showed that these liars were part of a planned propaganda effort to destroy our children to further the interests of the Medical Industry.

I always wrote how people like Ari Ne'eman, Amanda Baggs, Frank Klein, Alex Plank and a host of other liars were deliberately presenting a false image of what autism is so that the general public would think that autism was no big deal. With these changes to the DSM, Neurodiversity has succeeded. The liars on our side, like Age of Autism, thought these liars should be treated like people instead of treating them like the scum that they are. They accomodated the deception by refusing to vehemently oppose them. The standard bogus philosophy adhered to by the liars on our side was to ignore them. That gave these Neurodiverse liars free rein to say whatever they wanted and continue painting a false image of what autism is to influence public opinion.

Now, children who are severely disabled with PDD/NOS, a step above the really horrible autism where kids are just "vegetables", will not be included and might not be able to find any help. Kids with Asperger's who have real problems will be left out because scumbags like Ari Ne'eman who don't have any real problems has convinced people that his false presentation of what autism is has prevailed in the minds of the public. This allows the psychiatrists who write the DSM to justify their defense of the Medical Industry by excluding all of those kids whose mercury poisoned brains work just well enough to be labelled with Asperger's. Real Asperger's is a lot different than the brand of Asperger's that was presented by the liars from Neurodiversity. Now those kids are screwed, thanks to all of the parents who refused to oppose the Neurodiverse deception.

I told you all many times what was going on but you were all too politically correct to listen. I can tell you how to beat this deception now. The question is, do you still want to listen to the liars from our side like Age of Autism and the Canary Party leaders or do you want to discuss it with someone who knows the solution and knows how to win this battle? If you understand that most of your alleged leaders have been lying to you and you'd like to fight, let me know.

Canary Party Fools Support Enemy of Autistic Children

2011-12-23T06:30:00.001-08:00

I noticed that some of the mentally challenged parents who belong to the Canary Party are in love with a scumbag politician who fully supports causing autism with mercury in vaccines. Since one has to be naive, new to the world of autism or just plain stupid to trust the Canary Party, I'm not surprised that I find such stupidity on a Canary Party site. I hope these moronic parents of autistic children will watch this video to learn exactly how idiotic they are for supporting a lying asshole like Ron Paul.

Nomination for IACC

2011-11-28T18:47:00.000-08:00

I sent this nomination letter to Dr Daniels of the IACC. Does anyone think these dishonest bastards will view my application favorably?

Dr Daniels,
I'm nominating myself, John Best, to serve on the IACC. You have some degenerate liars on your committee right now and I'd like the opportunity to expose them and drive them out.

We already know all we need to know about how autism is caused and how to cure it. I can make this statement because I've been teaching people how to cure autism since 2003. Many have succeeded in curing their children. Meanwhile, the liars on the IACC are stifling the truth while tens of thousands of children suffer with autism needlessly.

You have an obligation to present the whole truth. You can't allow yourselves to be misled by propaganda experts who will do or say anything to serve their agenda of
covering up the truth to benefit the vaccine industry. Autism is caused by shooting mercury into babies before they develop a blood brain barrier. This should be obvious to anyone who does any research on the subject. To try to deny this is simply dishonest. Your function is to tell the citizens of this country
the truth.

All that has ever come out of the IACC is a pack of lies and a lot of
stalling to avoid that truth. Put me on your committee so I can expose all of the liars. Children are suffering horribly and this deception needs to end right now. You have to demand that all mercury be removed from all vaccines immediately. You have to inform everyone that autism can be cured using Alpha Lipoic Acid chelation per Andrew Cutler's protocol. That's the truth.

My experience with autism relates to making my severely autistic son better with chelation. He is not yet cured but is now a happy teenager who no longer bashes his head through walls, bites himself nor screams in pain all day long from "gut" problems which were the first side effect of mercury poisoning that was cured completely by chelation.
Thank you,
John Best

Pure Evil, The Canary Party

2011-10-07T18:56:00.000-07:00

Mark Blaxill's Canary Party makes the Nazi Party look like Mary Poppins. The evil of Blaxill and his followers is so much worse than anything the Nazi's did, it's tough to put into words.

The Nazi's set great standards of inhumanity that will live in infamy for a long time. Starving and beating men, women and children before they gassed them to death for no reason besides the fact that they were Jewish will live on as one of the most heinous crimes in history.

We have to look at the specifics of autism to see how much more cruel to children the Canary Party is. Blaxill and the mothers who make up the bulk of the membership of this deranged political party pawn themselves off as parents of autistic children. Maybe this is true but I'm starting to find it difficult to believe that any of them actually have autistic kids.

Autistic kids are pathetic. They can't speak and they endure some incredible physical pain. Sometimes they cry for hours at a time. They can't speak to describe their pain. They can't even point to a part of their body that hurts. They just cry, and cry and cry, so loudly and so intensely that your heart breaks for them. There is nothing you can do to help them. They bash their heads through walls to try to make their pain stop. They bite themselves into bloody messes, sometimes for hours at a time. I think they're trying to kill themselves to end the pain they suffer. When you bring them to Emergency Wards, the doctors throw you out and tell you they won't treat autism. They might give you a powerful drug to quiet them for a little while but they do absolutely nothing to try to address the source of the autistic kids' distress.

Autism is a horror that lasts a lifetime. These children grow up and endure the same pain. No doctor ever tries to help. It is a lifetime of painful torture. They spend their adult years in asylums, unloved, forgotten by all to suffer daily while their caretakers drug them senseless so they don't have to listen to them scream in pain.

The Canary Party knows how to stop this horror. They know that autism is caused by mercury and that most of that mercury comes from vaccines. But these degenerates are playing a game of psychological warfare. They refuse to make any statements about the role mercury plays in causing this condition. Instead, they have gone off on another obtuse tangent to try to make it look like they are organizing their party for the good of all people who may have been harmed by the medical profession. In the process, they have buried the truth about mercury beneath their rhetoric espousing everything else that might be wrong with our society.

When I asked the Canary Party for help to spread the information about how the flu shot to pregnent women gives fetuses up to 200 times the safe dose of mercury, Ginger Taylor deleted my request and threw me out of the Canary party. Ginger made no comment at all, simply deleted this information that she knows is true. Ginger Taylor knows that millions of children could be saved from becoming autistic if we could warn people about the danger in this flu shot. She won't do it. Neither will Mark Blaxill. Neither will any other mother who belongs to this perverse group of deviant parents.

No parent of an autistic child could possibly be this cruel as to wish autism on any child but that's exactly what these people are doing. Anyone who really does have an autistic child has been through the same horror that I've been through with my son. I doubt anyone who has lived through this Hell on Earth wants to see more children go through it.

The fact that the Canary Party refuses to say one word about how to prevent autism tells us there is something seriously wrong with these people. How anyone who has been through autism can be stupid enough to join this pack of sadists is beyond me. At least Hitler eventually killed his victims and ended their suffering. The Canary Party takes no such altruistic action to end the suffering of autistic children. They just let them writhe and scream in pain while they pretend to be working on the kids' behalf. I can only hope that the people who are followers of these psychopathic leaders wake up to the truth soon.

Confirming Age of Autism's Corruption

2011-10-04T20:28:00.000-07:00

Most of the stupid mothers who follow the Age of Autism blog are also members of the corrupt Canary Party which is just more controlled opposition to lead these idiots to waste their time. No matter how many times I've tried to explain to these dopes about how they're being deceived, none of them seem to be able to grasp what I'm talking about.

There are several possible explanations for this. They could all really be that stupid, a highly unlikely outcome. There could be a lot more Pharma shills among them than I had thought. Or, there could be a lot more Pharma shiils among them than I had thought and the rest could have a lot more truly stupid parents than I thought possible. It doesn't matter which of those possibilities is true.

The thing that's interesting about all that I have written over the years about this corruption from Age of Autism and the Canary Party is that nobody from the apparent enemy has ever said one word about it. One would think they'd be laughing about having David Kirby and JB Handley exposed as Pharma shills. Nope, silence. If the alleged people with Asperger's from Neurodiversity were genuine people themselves, they'd be gloating at Age of Autism and the dopes who follow them for being exposed. Not a whisper.

As much as these two opponents claim to despise each other, they never miss an opportunity to rip the other apart. Yet, in several years worth of my writing to note the deception, not one word of gloating. Not one jibe that I have ever witnessed. That tells us that the two sides have been working together all along. They work just like the Democrats and Republicans work to fool all of the people so they can serve their masters who bribe them for their service.

Since I'm certain that there are a lot of parents who have been fooled by this whole charade, perhaps some of them will ask themselves the same question and it will help them see the truth.

Canary Party Protest Announced

2011-09-30T04:34:00.000-07:00

When it's money that's the issue, people will protest.

When it's babies brains being damaged, only one person will protest.

When the Canary Party protests, it's much different.

Typical Canary Party Activist (Did Ginger lose weight?)

The Canary Party is a sham organization that is trying to prevent the truth about autism from being known. They exist to help the drug companies who cause autism intentionally by shooting mercury into babies. The psychological warfare agents who run this group have conned a lot of parents into joining them so they won't have effective leadership to help them end the practice of damaging babies brains with mercury in vaccines. Mercury is being used in vaccines to "dumb down" the population. The public needs to be aware of how these liars are acting as controlled opposition to stifle the efforts of parents who want to prevent brain damage to babies.

Useless Parents of Autistic Children

2011-09-29T06:32:00.001-07:00

I asked parents of autistic children from the Autism Mercury Yahoo Group to help me protest the poisoning of babies at drugstores that give flu shots. One would think they might find a decent human being here. That would be a poor assumption. Here are some replies from the lazy, stupid and selfish mothers there who refuse to help prevent children from becoming autistic.

Mary Cotter: "How very rude of you .i really hope you have more luck convincing people than i
have had.the problem is people dont believe me, but rest assured it does not
stop me or other parents trying to warn people"

FiveBucks823: "Um, I'm not keeping my mouth shut. On the contrary, I'll tell it to anyone who
wants to listen. But that is the key: most folks, especially parents, don't
want to hear the message, and certainly won't believe just little old me, when
BIg Pharma has for years been selling its load of goods and has them all snowed
into believing that they are helping their children by injecting them with
toxins. I think you should remember that people on this list are your allies,
not your enemies."

Helen

Helen wasn't done. She also added this gem: "Who are you and what is your problem? Are you a mole? If I didn't know any
better, I would think you are a shill for the pharmaceutical industry, planted
to stir the pot. Find other people to annoy, not the good people on this list."

Tim Mosher: "Do you have autism in your family?
I feel your urgency but you need to think things through before you just go find
somebody to slap along side the head. It is not us that needs the slap! Chances
are all on this group tell whom ever we can. I know many-many young couples I
warned about this and did it anyways in fear of the schools and the authorities
and now hate themselves as they look at their now sick children. So- slow down
and think alittle bit before you shoot yourself in the foot again.
We are ALL freinds here and like your fight attitude-just don't shoot us in the
process."
Tim

Michelle psm18665: "Wow, what a gift you have for alienating people!! Not surprised you're having
trouble gaining support."

Rebecca Lady Shrink: "He was already booted once, this is his first reincarnation. Ignore."

Elizabeth Curran: "What is wrong with you? Insulting the parents on this group? You are not doing a
very good job of convincing people to join you. maybe it would have helped to
explain what your site is instead of blasting people. Im willing to do whatever
I can to warn parents but not if it means joining someone who sounds crazy."

Aleruchi Oleru: "Why do you think
that being rude and offensive is the way to get people to support you?? Has that
worked for you in the past? Is your motive really to help these kids? I ask
because never does this this type of tactics work so if really this is your
motive, then you may want to consider how you are going about it."

Blessings
Aly

greenkirsty1: "I have had my disagreements with Rebecca in the past, but she keeps the forums
safe and gets rid of anger nutters like you.
We all do what we do for our kids, and spread the word in the ways we can and
are able to.
Go be angry elsewhere. Everyone here is too busy getting their child healthy"

Kirsty

Dana: "Anyone who replies to this thread after this point is subject to being banned."

Dana
[moderator]

This was my original post: "Anyone interested in protesting Pharmacies who give flu shots filled with
mercury? Protesting is fun and can save children from becoming autistic."

Of the 9,478 people on this group, not one responded. Only a couple bothered to click on the link to this blog to see what I was talking about. So, I tried to provoke a response with this: "Those of you who know the truth about mercury in vaccines have an obligation to
warn other parents about this crime that is being committed against children.
It seems that none of the 9,000 people in this group have ever given a damn
about this responsibility that you have as human beings. You all know the
truth. Would it hurt you to take a litle of your time to prevent other children
from having their brains mangled by mercury?"

That couldn't provoke any of these selfish, obnoxious women to care about any other children so I tried this: "You people absolutely disgust me. All you selfish parents are concerned about
is yourselves. Babies are being murdered with flu shots to pregnant women and
none of you have one word to say about it. Unborn babies are having their
brains turned to mush every day with these shots and all any of you care about
is how to help your own kid.

Don't any of you have any morals? Won't any of you do anything to try to stop
babies from having their brains mangled? When you know how mercury mangled your
kids' brains and you keep your mouths shut about it, you're just as much to
blame as the doctors who keep shooting mercury into babies. By refusing to
speak out in public about this crime against our children, you help the drug
companies cause more autism.

What is wrong with all of you!"

Finally, that provoked a few of these selfish parents to say something. It couldn't provoke any of them to offer to help save other babies from death or autism though. People who wonder what's wrong with the USA need to look no further than this group of parents who had their childrens' brains mangled by mercury in vaccines. We have become so damn selfish as a nation that people who watched their own babies suffer the unspeakable horror of being intentionally poisoned by their doctors just don't care if this crime keeps happening. They are oblivious to to the worst crime that has ever been committed against chidren.

Am I the only sane person left who thinks that there's something wrong with intentionally poisoning babies with mercury? The people in the USA just plain suck when they won't do anything to stop this horror. Fuck all of you,lazy, stupid, selfish, pathetic excuses for human beings. I'll keep trying to stop it. Are there any decent people left who will join me?

*Note, One parent did offer to help but I don't know if that parent came from this group or from somewhere else.

Vaccine Protesters Needed, Southern New Hampshire

2011-09-27T11:13:00.000-07:00

I could use some help from people who know the truth about how mercury in the flu shot causes brain damage to babies. Today, I found the perfect place to protest Rite Aid. There was a parking place directly across the street from a Rite Aid in Derry, NH and there just happened to be a Walgreen's there with their signs out offering flu shots. So, I was able to protest two pharmacies at the same time who shoot mercury into pregnant women and kill brain cells in their fetuses.

If you have an extra hour or two and would like to help inform the public about the dangers of the flu shot, send me an email at bettwice33@juno.com and we'll pick a convenient pharmacy to protest at. You always run into a few uninformed people who tell you you're nuts but you find more people who thank you for showing them the dangers that our corrupt government tries to hide from the public. You just might save a baby from becoming autistic or a senior citizen from getting Alzheimer's.

I pass out a brief flyer to any interested people who ask to learn more which says:

Flu shots contain thimerosal, a mercury compound. The CDC claims that one microgram of thimerosal is safe for a newborn baby. Most flu shots given to pregnant women contain 25 micrograms of thimerosal. Rite Aid will not give flu shots to babies younger than six months because they say it isn’t safe. BUT, they will give flu shots with mercury to pregnant women which logic tells us is unsafe for their fetuses. Simple arithmetic shows that these flu shots to pregnant women give the fetus up to 200 times the alleged safe amount of mercury. No studies have ever been done on thimerosal to prove that any amount of it is, in fact, safe for anyone. Babies do not have Blood Brain Barriers which means the mercury can go directly into their brains. It only takes seconds for mercury to kill brain cells. Mercury thus causes lower IQ’s and results in autism and other severe brain damage for some children who are incapable of excreting mercury. Mercury is also the cause of Alzheimer’s disease.
Learn more: johnbestjr.blogspot.com

Autism Intervention Specialists, Pure Bullshit

2011-09-17T06:53:00.000-07:00

I found this page advertised on Facebook that describes the bogus services provided by Autism Intervention Specialists. This company is just a bunch of thieves who are preying on parents of autistic children and have no clue how to actually help any autistic kids.

These profiteering liars make the idiotic claim that behavioral intervention is the best way to treat autism and they use dishonest come-ons like being board certified and the medical industry buzzwords "evidence based" as important sounding words to sell you their garbage.

Any fool who has read a little bit about how autism is caused knows that it is caused by mercury, primarily from vaccines. If you search a little bit more, you learn that the only way to cure autism is to remove that mercury from the brain, common sense. You can search medical literature on mercury poisoning and find that chelation is the method that has been used for 70 years to treat the condition.

Nowhere will you find any medical studies that suggest hiring a teacher or behavioral therapist to teach the mercury to exit the brain and make the patient better. But, that's what these con artists are tacitly trying to make parents believe with their magical claims about improving mercury poisoning misnamed "autism" by using ABA. ABA is something that can be useful for higher functioning kids on the autism spectrum. Many people with Asperger's who write about their experiences with ABA liken it to torture. It's therapy that might be good for training monkeys but it does nothing to repair brain damage caused by mercury.

Junk like ABA was standard practice before 2000 when we began treating autism as the medical condition that it is. Once we started removing mercury from the brain, we actually saw improvement in autistic kids' conditions without torturing them to provoke more acceptable behavior. Scumbag profiteers like Autism Intervention Specialists can't help but be aware of these facts. Yet, they insist on foisting this obsolete behavioral junk on unaware parents so they can pick their pockets and profit. Promoting this approach also helps the vaccine industry cover up their crime of poisoning our babies with mercury because these psychopaths continually lie to parents and make them think that autism is a genetic condition. It isn't.

Any parent who is considering paying these liars to treat their autistic kids should check out this Yahoo group and learn how honest people who actually know what they're doing cure autism. Don't waste your time and money with liars who promote ABA for autism.

How Pharma Defeated the Truth About Autism

2011-08-25T15:57:00.000-07:00

Autism is severe brain damage caused by shooting mercury into babies.

Naturally, the criminals who decided to inflict this horror on children did not want to go to prison. They had to have a plan to cover up their crime.

Back in 2003, there were lots of angry parents who knew the truth about this horror. They used to write about the facts and used their anger to promote the truth to warn other parents. These were good people who did not want to see this horror befall any other children.

By 2005, the numbers of these parents began to dwindle. They had been lured by a psychopath who wrote books and stole their voices. He presented a strange variation of the truth and the parents rejoiced, not seeing the deception that would end their chances of finding justice for their children. Undercover operatives had infested the parents groups in preparation for the arrival of the author. They rallied and cheered their new hero. The bedraggled parents cheered along too, too beaten by the demands of autism to question. They welcomed the deceiver, rejoiced in his fame, blinded by the light of publicity.

The author was just beginning. Other agents emerged, posing as parents, upped the ante to further destruction of dissent and truth. The parents followed blindly. The stage was set. The con was played. The truth did die. The standard procedure of causing autism intentionally was now the status quo. The last person who knew the truth was silenced.

Generation Rescue, Liars

2011-08-04T06:18:00.000-07:00

Another dishonest entity has banned me from commenting on their Facebook page. Yesterday, I happened to stumble on a link to GR's Wikipedia page. So, after reading the lies that Wikipedia had printed denigrating GR, I edited the page to correct their propaganda. I wrote about my experience with the liars who own Wikipedia and pasted the link to my story on GR's Facebook page. I had hoped that other parents would see how Wikipedia made all of them look like fools and that these fellow parents would use the information I provided to oppose Wikipedia's deception.

Since I realized a few years ago that GR was itself a devious propaganda operation, unbeknownst to the parents who support it, I have been writing about their subversion of the truth. For all the good that the volunteer Rescue Angels do to help autistic children, Generation Rescue's management is hamstringing all of them by allowing libel from Wikipedia agents and other lowlifes to discredit them.

Jenny McCarthy, who I believe was given millions of dollars by Jim Carey when the two split, could certainly afford a lawyer to rein in Wikipedia and their thoroughly dishonest presentation about GR. But, instead of taking that action, GR throws me out of their Facebook page after I reported the problem and bans me from commenting. (I was still allowed to rejoin the group but can no longer comment.)

This tells us that GR is happy with the libel that Wikipedia presents if they delete a suggestion for parents to take issue with it. If you're a Rescue Angel, as I used to be, you have to ask yourself what GR really wants the public to think about you. From the presentation in Wikipedia, one must conclude that Generation Rescue's management wants the public to believe that you're a lunatic.

Edits to Wikipedia About Autism

2011-08-03T09:07:00.000-07:00

Anyone can edit Wikipedia, at least until these phoney bastards ban your IP address from doing so. I just edited the Generation Rescue site. MY addition is bolded below. I'm certain that the liars who control Wikipdeia will delete my additions very quickly and they'll probably ban my IP address so I can't add the truth to this page again. So, anyone who is opposed to Wikipedia lying about vaccines and autism should take it upon themselves to visit this page and the truth back in themselves.

Causes of autism

This Wikipedia page is pure bullshit. It is obvious that these lies about vaccines were written by liars associated with the medical industry. Anyone who studies this issue knows beyond any doubt that mercury in vaccines kills brain cells, causes spontaneous miscarriages and is the primamry cause of autism and Alzheimer's Disease. Generation Rescue believes that autism and other developmental issues are caused by environmental factors. Its members primarily blame vaccines, the increase in the number of vaccines administered,[2] and thiomersal, a mercury-based vaccine preservative.[6] Generation Rescue claims that biomedical intervention can help children recover.[7] The hypotheses that vaccines, such as MMR, or thiomersal cause autism are not supported by scientific evidence,[3] nor are claims that diets or drugs can cure autism.[8] Because of Generation Rescue's public profile through national advertising and because its point of view is not shared by the mainstream medical community, its message has been controversial[9][10] and the organization has been described as anti-vaccine.[11][12]

Claims that the MMR vaccine causes autism, promoted by Andrew Wakefield, were declared in January 2011 to be based.....

ADDENDUM: As predicted, Wikipedia deleted the truth in short order. Here is their disingenuous adminition to me and my reply.
[[File:Information.svg|25px|alt=|link=]] Please refrain from making unconstructive edits to Wikipedia. Your edits appear to constitute [[Wikipedia:Vandalism|vandalism]] and have been [[Help:Reverting|reverted]] or removed. If you would like to experiment, please use the [[Wikipedia:Sandbox|sandbox]]. Thank you. — [[User:Scientizzle|Scien]]''[[User talk:Scientizzle|tizzle]]'' 16:35, 3 August 2011 (UTC)
:''If this is a [[closed proxy|shared IP address]], and you didn't make the edit, consider [[Wikipedia:Why create an account?|creating an account]] for yourself so you can avoid further irrelevant notices.''

Fuck You. I know you're a bunch of corrupt assholes who use this site to spew propaganda. My edits constitute truth, not vandalism. You should report to the head of the CIA that THE PEOPLE don't like them being involved in this dishonest behavior that results in harm to children. Again, Fuck You.

Canary Party, The Propaganda of Omission

2011-06-26T04:07:00.000-07:00

In reading the Canary Party's position paper and platform, some blatant omissions stand out. They do not use the words "thimerosal", "aluminum", "squalene", "mercury", "chelation" or "cure". They misuse the word "autism" by attaching it to the term "high-functioning", a concession to the deranged cult of psychopaths known as Neurodiversity in a supposed effort to include these jackasses as part of their team. As any parent of an autistic child knows, the words "autism" and "high-functioning" are mutually exclusive. The high-functioning end of the autism spectrum has a specific term and that term is "Asperger's". People who use the word "autism" when they know they should be using the word "Asperger's" are engaging in deliberate deception. This deception is good for the vaccine industry and not so good for autistic people. Obfuscating the meaning of the word "autism" allows high-functioning people with Asperger's to present a false image of autism to the general public and effectively brainwash the public through repetition into thinking that autism is no big deal, that it consists of geeks and social misfits who are a little bit screwy but otherwise quite able to care for themselves. This deception denies the existence of autistic people who never learn to speak, read, write or use a toilet and spend their lives requiring constant supervision and custodial care. Most die in asylums.

The Canary Party would have you believe that thousands of different chemicals are responsible for autism as well as the general term "vaccines". This generalization thus misdirects you from focusing on the mercury in thimerosal as the primary problem with vaccines. Ginger Taylor told me that they want to include everyone who might be affected so they avoid being too specific. She must think I was born yesterday. If you know that a certain Toyota model has faulty brakes and has killed thousands of drivers, you don't try to solve the problem by claiming that cars made in Asia might not be safe. You detail the exact reason that the brakes don't work right and you provide the solution. In the case of autism, you would explain that mercury kills brain cells and prevents methylation and you would tell the victims that removing the mercury through chelation cures the victims. The Canary Party does not do this. They take the dishonest approach of using politically correct language to sidestep the issue of mercury and thus dilute their own message.

They laughingly suggest that sending questionaires to political candidates is going to help promote the issue of brain damage from vaccines. Some autism parents have tried this tactic during the last three presidential elections and you can guess the results. Some politicians simply lie as usual while others refuse to respond. Autism never becomes an issue and is never mentioned in any debates or in any media coverage. The only voters who are even aware the questions were asked are a few parents of autistic kids.

I could go on at length, questioning every word that the Canary party used in their platform and pointing out how their generalized choice of words denies the specifics. I could also point out more omissions of facts and lack of positive tactics to force their alleged agenda down the throats of the corrupt politicians. You can read their page critically yourself and look for those deceptions if you want.

Ginger Taylor showed me either her blatant dishonesty or her rank stupidity when I exchanged emails with her; I can't make the call as to which is true without more discussion. She chastised me for my treatment of an Ari Ne'eman supporter. For those who might not know Ne'eman, he is the dishonest young twerp who is so well connected politically that he has met with Tony Blair, George W Bush and been appointed to misrepresent autistic children on two national organizations by Obama so he can lie about autism and prevent autistic children from being cured. Ginger Taylor chooses to side with Ari Ne'eman rather than recognizing the positive approach to educating the public about the horror of autism that I do every day with my car pictured above. Ginger Taylor wants me to shut up while she gives Ari Ne'eman a pulpit. That's really all you need to know about the Canary Party. They are working against the best interests of autistic children.

Kicked Out of Canary Party by Autism Child Abuser Ginger Taylor

2011-06-21T06:05:00.001-07:00

I posted the above picture on the Canary Party's Facebook page with the advice that this was what activism is. Now I've been thrown out of the group and banned from commenting.

I also questioned the Canary Party's lack of any leadership and their refusal to take any positive action to force the agenda of autism down the throats of our corrupt politicians. Of course, nobody had anything to say in response.

As I've been pointing out for years now, parents of autistic children have to question everything that is put forth from the corrupt Age of Autism blog. They are the psychopaths who started this Canary Party.

In their position paper, these alleged activists call for unity in the autism community. I wrote to the Canary Party before I joined and asked why they do not mention "thimerosal" in their platform and why they do not call for banning it from all vaccines. It's a pretty simple question but I received no reply. It's a question I've asked of JB Handley and David Kirby many times. They don't answer.

Those of us who cure autistic children by removing mercury from their brains know beyond any doubt that mercury was the cause of our childrens' brain damage. Yet, here we have these alleged activists, Mark Blaxill, Jennifer Larson and Ginger Taylor who won't even mention the word "thimerosal" while they purport to lead victims of thimerosal poisoning.

I'd like to challenge Blaxill, Larson and Taylor to answer me in public and explain why they refuse to tell the truth about mercury while they bop all over the place alluding to a slew of extraneous nonsense as possible causes for autism and other vaccine induced horrors.

It seems that Ginger Taylor runs the Canary Party Facebook page so I'd like to hear from Ginger and have her explain why she deleted the picture of my car from the page. Is Ginger opposed to telling the truth about how the mercury in the flu shot to pregnant women mangles the brains of fetuses? Is Ginger trying to squelch any true activism so that the general public will remain ignorant and more babies will have their brains mangled? Petrhaps Ginger, in the interest of unifying the autism community, will tell me what brilliant idea she has to warn the public.

Come on Ginger, you're playing for the propaganda wizards now and true autism advocates are calling you out.

CDC Propaganda Meeting in Concord, NH

2011-06-15T20:55:00.000-07:00

I went to this meeting yesterday that was run by the Keystone Center out of Colorado. This is the same group who the CDC hired a couple of years ago to run meetings around the country to tout the H1N1 vaccine. They actually paid us a $75 stipend for attending.

The purpose of the meeting was to plan for the introduction of another vaccine, one to combat meningitis. They did an excellent job showing how dangerous meningitis is and I certainly can't disagree with them on the horror of the deaths and loss of limbs to young children. They made asurances that this vaccine is different from the current meningitis vaccine that contains 25 micrograms of thimerosal and assured us that the new version would be thimerosal free.

The Keystone Center did some polling and I can only guess how they will use these results. The new vaccine will add three or four more shots to the vaccine schedule for babies. The key question in the polling was predeterminately skewed to favor adding this vaccine to the schedule. You see, the targeted advertising that was done to attract people to attend this meeting was aimed at health care professionals and public employees with their heads up their asses who blindly support whatever they are told to think by the idiots who supervise them. One loud-mouthed public employee was even stupid enough to try to lie to me about the fact that thimerosal is still in the flu shot that is given to pregnant women. Hew boss has been lying to the people of New Hampshire about this for years so the lower level nitwits who infest our Health and Human Services office probably just believe whatever they're told and never bother checking the facts. Anyhow, I set this one straight, not that it will do any good.

I tried to make the point to the CDC drones who were presenting the propaganda that this meningitis vaccine sounded like a good idea given the seriousness of the disease. But, I thought they should consider removing other vaccines from the schedule. The HepB is completely useless and stupid for newborns since none of them engage in behaviors that could see them fall victim to HepB. Chicken Pox is also inane, as well as mumps and rubella. This suggestion for a trade off was lost on these people, the majority of whom were really concerned about their problems with convincing everyone to give their kids every vaccine that is on the schedule.

I stayed for the extra session too, to explain that I couldn't support adding any vaccine to a schedule that included the flu shot with thimerosal to pregnant women which is nothing less than a crime of battery against every fetus. CDC drones like to ignore these remarks. They also like to ignore remarks about the CDC's lack of honesty in refusing to admit that they know mercury is the cause of autism. And, as usual, none of the health care professionals or the CDC people have any comment at all when you point out how we cure autism by removing mercury from the brain.

I stumbled on a Facebook comment that let me know about this meeting but I couldn't find it listed anyplace. The Keystaone Group didn't even have it listed on their website. I asked them about this while I commented to them about their skewing polling results by inviting people who would toe the company line by supporting all vaccines. Later in the session, one of the meeting organizers wondered if she should invite some anti-vaccine groups to the other two meetings they are having in Chicago and, I think, Seattle.

If more "anti-vaccine loons" don't show up at these future meetings, the CDC will be able to say that they held meetings, took public comments and found that the public favors adding more shots to the schedule for babies by a wide margin. The "too many, too soon" group should find this interesting. I found that the CDC and their "neutral" contractor don't much care for the word "thimerosal" so I used it too many times. I think they should hear it too many more times so they know there are lots of people who don't believe their lies.

Allison Singer Makes Bikers Look Like Scum

2011-05-19T05:31:00.000-07:00

Allison Singer, the dishonest slug who runs the disingenuously named Autism Science Foundation(ASF), has conned a bunch of bikers into helping her abuse autistic children. Allison also had help with this from JP Morgan Chase, the criminal bankers who are helping to destroy our economy.

Allison claims that she is raising money to search for a cure for autism. This is not the truth. Her bogus ASF is actually dedicated to preventing anyone from curing autism as they conjure up lie after lie after lie to fool the public into believing that autism is not caused by mercury.

A cure for autism has existed since 2000. That's when Dr Amy Holmes and Dr Andrew Cutler figured out the best way the remove mercury from autistic childrens' brains with chelation and started curing them. Allison Singer is well aware of this, as is virtually everyone in the autism community. However, liars like Singer continually present false information about this fact in an attempt to help the vaccine manufacturers cover up their crime of poisoning our babies.

Singer is partners with Dr Paul Offit in the ASF venture. Offit is the murderer who killed babies with his vaccine against diarrhea which earned him millions in profit. As with the rest of the criminal vaccine industry, he was not prosecuted for this crime. Now, Offit acts as the propaganda spokesmodel for the vaccine industry. He goes on TV and lies to the public to try to make them think it's safe to shoot mercury and aluminum into their fetuses and babies, an act that he knows will cause brain damage.

Singer is a highly skilled liar from Yale who has managed to promote herself as an expert on autism. She used to be one of the head liars for Autism Speaks, the sham charity that also denies the fact that mercury in vaccines is the primary cause of the brain damage known as autism. The owners of Autism Speaks have used chelation on their grandson to try to cure him (don't know their results) but they lie about this treatment to the public. They only promote treatments that are now obsolete and have never helped any autistic child, treatments left over from the days when autism was really a mystery and nobody knew what to do about it.

The good-hearted bikers associated with AML need to be aware how this mangy bitch, Singer is using them. As stated, she's a highly trained, eloquently speaking liar who can fool lots of people who are not experts on the subject as I am. I've been teaching people how to cure autism for about ten years. I don't know how many of the thousands of parents I've talked to have succeeded but I know that some have cured their children by removing mercury from their brains. Singer also knows this but she consistently denies this fact. Singer is participating in a ride with the AML bikers to raise money for her bogus foundation on July 26.

Allison Singer is not going to use the money she raises to help any autistic child. She is going to use it to disseminate her devious propaganda. Her dishonesty prevents parents from learning the truth and from learning how to cure their autistic children.

I hope the bikers who are organizing this event for July 26 will reconsider. Helping Allison Singer or Autism Speaks is the worst thing you can do. These people are enemies of autistic children. They are evil liars who are preying on severely disabled kids and they belong in prison.

Sane parents should contact the AML bikers here amlbikersforcharity@gmail.com and confirm to them how evil Allison Singer is.

Age of Autism, Pay Attention

2011-05-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

This is the message that Age of Autism, JB Handley and David Kirby would be promoting if they were the slightest bit honest. These propaganda agents would not be spouting the foolishness about too many vaccines as a cause of autism. The liars from Age of Autism used to tell the truth and discuss how mercury is the cause of autism. Some of them even discussed how they used chelation to remove mercury from their childrens' brains.

Now, they seem to have morphed into a bunch of mental defectives who tout diets as a way to cure mercury poisoning. Of course, they don't discuss mercury poisoning and why it's just plain stupid to think any diet can remove mercury from someone's brain. Instead, they seem to focus on the diet itself without identifying the cause of the autism.

When some seemingly mentally challenged parents decide that certain foods can reverse autism, they tacitly promote the deranged assumption that it must be those same foods that magically cause the autism. Otherwise, how is it possible that removing a few foods could completely reverse severe brain damage?

Collectively, we see this misdirection from a group who used to know that children had their best chance to ameliorate the symptoms of autism by chelating mercury. But now, they don't even want to discuss mercury as they deceptively switch their focus to vaccines that don't even have any mercury in them. Can all of these writers possibly be so stupid that they can't do some simple arithmetic to figure out how much mercury is being shot into fetuses on a per pound basis? Is there anyone among thee geniuses who can make the comparison between the flu shot to pregnant women and the explosion of autism that correlates to the advent of the HepB shot to newborns?

Didn't these same people once discuss how the blood brain barrier (BBB) isn't formed until babies are about one month old and how the mercury from the HepB shot used to go unabated into their brains which evidenced the clear hazard of HepB shots that used to contain 12.5 micrograms of thimerosal? One of their geniuses figured out that, when California reduced thimerosal, mercury must have been floating across the Pacific from China to keep autism rates up. Couldn't this wizard also figure out what so many others have seen as obvious, that the flu shot to pregnant women was so much more hazardous to fetuses than the HepB shot used to be since it had twice as much mercury and the fetus was so much smaller and less developed?

Yet, AoA and their TV personalities who represent our children in the media never mention this. Some have suggested that these TV stars have been muzzled by the networks and are not allowed to speak the truth. Does that possibility also prevent these stars from speaking the truth when they're not on TV lying to the public through their blatant omissions of these facts?

Couldn't anyone at Age of Autism conjure up the same idea that I had a year a couple of years ago and paint signs to inform the public of this hazard that was being blacked out by Rothschild's TV networks? It seems that people who can provoke thousands of parents to make signs that say "Too Many, Too Soon" could also provoke these same parents to make signs that told the whole truth, that the mercury in the flu shot was now the primary cause of the brain damage known as autism. Since I didn't have to hire an advertsing agency to think this up for me, one would think that the collective genius at AoA could come up with a similar idea to promote the truth. Why didn't they?

Omissions of obvious facts are clear evidence of deception.

JB Handley, Baby Mangling Maggot

2011-05-14T14:26:00.000-07:00

JB Handley has gone on TV four times that I've seen and lied about how mercury mangles babies' brains to cause autism and death. Handley does this by refusing to mention thimerosal or the fact that flu shots to pregnant women can give their fetus up to 200 times the dose of mercury that the CDC claims is safe.

Handley is the founder of Generation Rescue who showed up amongst parents of autistic children in 2005 and firmly stated that all autism was caused by mercury. Now, he lies to the whole world on CNN whenever he has the chance and tells people that too many vaccines cause autism while conveniently forgetting to mention mercury at all.

Handley also founded the blog that is now named Age of Autism. This blog has David Kirby as their star writer, a horse's ass who claims we still need proof that mercury causes autism. We've been curing autism for over ten years by removing the mercury with chelation and here's this liar using his pulpit to tell the world that we still need proof.

Intelligent people don't listen to mealy mouthed imbeciles like Kirby but it's really annoying to watch Kirby use the media to tell unsuspecting parents that nobody knows if mercury in vaccines is a problem or not. Of course it's a problem, as proven by all of the autistic kids who were cured by removing mercury from their brains.

Why any rational parent asociates with this Age of Autism blog is beyond me. They refuse to tell anyone the truth about autism and, in effect, cause autism themselves with their dishonest appraisal of the vaccine situation. Can Handley be an actual parent who cares about doing what's right for autistic kids and unborn babies when he refuses to tell the whole truth? Is it more likely that he's some sort of agent who was sent to gain our trust for a little while before he started his quest to lie to the world about how autism is caused? I think he should explain himself to every mother who had a spontaneous miscarriage after a mercury filled flu shot or who had a severely brain damaged baby thanks to that mercury.

Lots of peole trust this liar while he goes on TV and lies to help the vaccine industry cover up the truth. It's a pretty good lie because he has a bunch of other liars supporting him and touting this too many vaccines nonsense when most of those vaccines have no mercury in them. If he mentioned the flu shot at all, he could justify the other nonsense by saying it was a possibility that hasn't been proven or disproven. But, to ignore that mercury filled flu shot to tiny fetuses and the damage we know it causes tells us beyond any doubt that JB Handley must be a vaccine industry agent.

Sane and honest parents need to squash this Age of Autism dishonesty.

Age of Autism Silent on Dr Mark Geier

2011-05-09T05:30:00.000-07:00

Since Dr Mark Geier was railroaded by the Maryland State Board of Physicians and the thoroughly corrupt Dr Harry Knipp, the Age of Autism(AoA) blog has had nothing to say. Given their history of championing Dr Wakefield's loss of his license, one would expect that AoA would be even more enraged by this bogus attack on Dr Geier. The fact that they have nothing to say for a second time while Dr Geier is libelled all over the internet should lead anyone who reads this dishonest blog to question their motives.

AoA engaged in propaganda with their defense of Dr Wakefield. Defending Dr Wakefield was the right thing to do, but AoA's motivation for doing so seems to be because they were promoting a Red Herring. Dr Wakefield never stated that the MMR vaccine caused autism. He only claimed that it caused bowel disease in autistic children. So, shouting an all out defense of Dr Wakefield as loudly as they could was a misplaced support of a situation that was entirely false on all fronts. AoA promoted the notion that the MMR vaccine was the cause of autism, something we know is simply not true. Mercury is the cause of autism.

Now that the man who proved the facts about thimerosal (mercury) being the cause of autism is under attack, AoA has nothing to say. One would think that these queers and liars who write AoA would be extremely upset that the criminal medical industry who poisoned our children into autism has railroaded Dr Geier who proved that fact. Yet, they have nothing to say. Dr Geier cures autistic children, something one would think would be of interest to AoA. How can they refuse to come a doctor's defense who may have cured the children of many of their readers?

AoA is made up of the same jackasses who go on TV and make inane claims about too many vaccines causing autism while they fail to mention the fact that mercury in the flu shot to pregnant women is up to 200 times the amount that the CDC claims is safe. They also have a queer who writes for them who claims we haven't proven that mercury causes autism yet and that he would never support the treatments we use to cure autism.

AoA does a wonderful job of attacking people like Paul Offit to make themselves appear like they are on the side of parents with autistic children. They also misdirect parents to become concerned over ridiculous government groups like the IACC who obviously exists for one purpose, to waste our time.

Parents of autistic children have to ask themselves what AoA is really doing when this propaganda blog ignores a license being pulled from Dr Geier, a man who is so scary to the pharmaceutical industry that they have had hundreds of their shill bloggers defaming him for years. You have to ask why AoA doesn't support the man who helped give all of us the knowledge by which we learned to cure our children.

Dr Mark Geier Railroaded by Doctors Who Poison Babies

2011-05-06T04:51:00.000-07:00

Here's the dishonest decision from Dr Harry C Knipp, Vice Chair of the Maryland State Board of Physicians in the suspension of Dr Mark Geier's license to practice medicine.

The important fact in this case that Dr Knipp ignored is that Dr Geier has helped hundreds of children recover from the malpractice that the Maryland Board of Physicians endorses, shooting mercury into infants to mangle their brains. Knipp acted on a complaint from a citizen, which sounds suspiciously like the character assassination that was perpetrated by Kathleen Seidel back in 2006. Seidel is a well known liar who claims to have an autistic daughter, even though the kid looks like she has Downs Syndrome. She is associated with a group of liars from the Pharmaceutical industry who have spent years disseminating thoroughly dishonest opinions about autism and vaccines, going so far as to suggest that anyone who tries to cure an autistic child is killing the child within by repairing their brain damaged.

Rather than listening to parents whose children were cured or improved by Dr Geier's treatments, this nutty Dr Knipp decided to go along with a complaint that was most likely filed by an insane person who is opposed to curing anyone of the mercury induced brain damage known as autism. A rational and honest person hearing this case would investigate the background of complaining patients since it is not out of the realm of possibility that some shill from the vaccine industry may have become a patient of Dr Geier to set him up with bogus information leading to questions about his treatments. But, when the object of an investigation is to railroad an honest doctor, these obvious questions that any intelligent person would ask are not presented.

We can see that Dr Knipp is a liar by his references to the 2004 IOM report. We all know that that report was so ordered by the CDC before the evidence was presented. The evidence has been proven true and accurate by virtue of the fact that parents do cure autistic children completely by chelating mercury out of their brains, a treatment that the dishonest Knipp refers to as dangerous. Dr Knipp further exposes himself as a dishonest person by referencing a thoroughly dishonest Chicago Tribune article written by Trine Tsouderos which was nothing more than character assassination against Dr Geier. For any supposedly educated person to use such libel as a reference is ludicrous.

In rendering his decision, Dr Knipp dwelled on specific instances of alleged questionable practices. Since the tacit objective of any MD is to relieve patients of suffering though, we have to ask Dr Knipp why he chose to select nine patients' records to railroad Dr Geier instead of selecting about 500 other patients' records to examine the benefit to the brain damaged children whose condition may have been reversed or improved thanks to Dr Geier.

Dr Knipp did not ask this question in assessing the case. As a parent of a severely autistic child who has done over 100 rounds of chelation and provoked elimination of painful symptoms as well as great mental improvement in my son's condition, I have certainly become much more of an expert on autism than a dishonest Dr Knipp will ever be. I administered chelation and plucked my son out of the abject abyss of autism with no problems whatsoever, yet Dr Knipp lies to the world in his opinion to warn people against using this treatment that reverses the brain damage caused by injecting way too much mercury into newborn babies.

With this dishonesty, Dr Knipp is causing autistic children to suffer for a lifetime.

Dr Geier cures autistic children.

More Lies from the Autism Society of New Hampshire

2011-04-27T09:06:00.000-07:00

Below is a statement from Kirsten Murphy, the thoroughly dishonest slug who is now the interim president for the corrupt Autism Society of New Hampshire. Kirsten the liar decided to refer to this blog as being beyond the bounds of civil discourse because I exposed her dishonesty after I advised a woman how to cure autism and sadistic little Kirsten deleted that information. Following Kirsten's logic here, we see that telling anyone how to cure auitism is, in her warped mind, "slanderous, degrading, offensive, or inappropriate..."

If you are a parent newly victimized by vaccines that mangled your child's brain into autism, please be aware of the rank idiocy that you will find for advice from this moronic autism society that appears to exist to prevent you from learning how to help your child.

04/02/11 at 01:05 PM Reply with quote #1

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Dear Friends,

As President of the Autism Society of New Hampshire, I have again moved to block or remove some recent postings to this discussion board. Regrettably these postings link to an external site that I consider to be beyond the bounds of civil discourse. As stated in our terms of use, "The Autism Society of New Hampshire reserves the right to edit, delete and ban users who post messages that we feel are slanderous, degrading, offensive, or inappropriate, or comments that may be considered damaging to any person or business. By posting on this message board your consent to these terms is implied."

We are fortunate to live in a society with strong protections for the freedom of speech. We at ASNH honor that tradition and recognize that there are many issues related to autism spectrum disorders about which reasonable citizens can disagree. We welcome a broad range of thoughts and opinions when framed in a manner that meets the above standards.

Thanks you for your understanding.

Kirsten Murphy

Interim President, ASNH

April 23, Protest the Autism Society of New Hampshire at Fisher Cats Game

2011-04-07T05:26:00.000-07:00

On Saturday, April 23, the Autism Society of New Hampshire is planning to con the public out of some money so they can continue their crazed mission of preventing autistic children from being cured of the nightmare they endure. These extremely stupid women who run this organization will be receiving $3 from the Manchester Fisher Cats baseball team for each ticket purchased. The game starts at 1:35PM so I expect to show up at noon and pass out flyers to inform the public what kind of sadistic imbeciles the women who run the ASNH really are.

We have been curing autism since 2001 by removing mercury from autistic childrens' brains. The morons who run ASNH are well aware of this but they take efforts to prevent this information from being disseminated to parents of autistic children. One wacked out woman from ASNH, Kristine Caster, who's the Vice-President, even supports the deranged cult of lunatics known as Neurodiversity who organized themselves specifically to prevent anyone from curing an autistic child. This group of psychopaths has been solidly linked to the pharmaceutical industry and acts as propaganda agents to make the inane claim that they are autistic themselves and do not want to be cured. Of course, anyone who knows anything about autism knows that most autistic children can't read, write, speak or even use a toilet and spend their days spinning in circles, bashing their heads through walls, biting themselves bloody, bolting into traffic, screaming in pain and existing in an apparent vegetative state. To suggest that children like this do not want to be cured of their affliction is certifiably insane. Yet, that's what we have representing these horribly brain damaged children on the Autism Society of New Hampshire.

Another psychopath from this group, Kirsten Murphy, President, also sits on the NH Council on ASD where she is the Administrative Director. The NH Council on ASD is one of the most corrupt bodies of scumbags you can imagine and they claim to be looking out for the interests of autistic kids. They now list Dr Jose Montero as a Council member. Dr Montero is the thoroughly dishonest jackass who goes on WMUR TV every year and lies to the public by telling us that all of the mercury has been removed from the vaccines. As a point of fact, I have checked with doctors, asked nurses running flu shot clinics in stores and looked at the package inserts with the flu shots to make certain that thimerosal (mercury) was in the flu shot each of the past three years. The thimerosal IS still in those flu shots in New Hampshire, contrary to Dr Montero's claims. Dr Montero can probably do the math and figure out that shooting mercury into pregnant women can give the fetus up to 200 times as much thimerosal as the CDC claims is safe but I doubt this liar will ever give this information to the unwitting public.

As we all know from doing our research on autism, New Hampshire had zero cases of autism in 1993 among school age children. In 1994, the rate of autism in NH thus increased by infinity, exactly three years after the onset of the HepB vaccine to newborns. These statistics start at age three. Maybe Dr Montero can figure out that babies without blood brain barriers can be negatively affected when one shoots mercury into them as soon as they're born with a HepB shot, maybe not. Maybe, if he can see the logic there, he can also see the logic in what mercury is liable to do to a one pound fetus when that dose of mercury is 200 times what newborns received in 1991 with the HepB shot. I think most would agree that someone who can make it through Medical School is capable of doing this arithmetic. So, I think it's safe to conclude that Dr Montero is lying about everything and is sitting on this NH Autism Council as one more tool in his arsenal to misinform the public about mercury in vaccines, to keep causing autism with vaccines and to prevent parents from learning the truth so they can cure their autistic children.

Curing autistic children by chelating the mercury out of their brains would reflect very badly on the doctors who shot that mercury into the children. I certainly have a very low opinion of all doctors who continue this criminal malpractice since I have rescued my autistic son from existing in the vegetative state by chelating him over the last seven years. If I had listened to morons like Kirsten Murphy and Kristine Caster of the ASNH, my son would still be a vegetable and would assuredly by locked away in an asylum someplace by now.

If anyone would like to help me protest these sorry excuses for human beings at the Fisher Cats game, feel free to call me at (603)434-3928 or email me at
bettwice33@juno.com . Decent parents must unite to stop mentally deranged imbeciles like the ASNH from continuing to misinform the public about autism.

Autism Society of NH is Hazardous to Autistic Children

2011-04-02T08:39:00.001-07:00

Once again, the extreme idiots who run the Autism Society of New Hampshire have banned me from their website. These moronic young mothers insist on lying to parents of autistic children by deleting the facts about how mercury in vaccines causes the brain damage that is named "Autism".

I have been trying to educate these morons for about 12 years now, ever since we first learned from the CDC that mercury was the cause of autism. Over the last few days, I posted on this forum as Betty Weiss since I knew I'd be kicked out immediately if I used my real name. I tried to disseminate information about how to solve the budget crisis that New Hampshire faces by asking for help to compel our legislature to ban mercury from vaccines and stop causing autism. I also advised a distraught mother how to cure her child.

One really has to wonder about the sanity of the people who run this website that allegedly exists to help autistic children. These liars will post all sorts of drivel about using ABA to cure autism, an insane practice that only fills the bank accounts of the trained apes who torture autistic kids with this gestapo style therapy. Think about it. Kids are autistic because they have mercury in their brains and these profiteers have conned people into believing that educational approaches can do something while the mercury remains in the brain causing the kid pain and horror.

It's no wonder that the liars who run ASNH won't even discuss the matter of how we really cure autism. The only conclusion one can draw is that they would be losing money if naive parents who listen to their bullshit cured their kids by removing the mercury from their childrens' brains.

NH Budget Protest Rally

2011-03-31T11:31:00.000-07:00

I went to the protest rally in Concord, NH today and handed out 250 flyers as shown in my previous blogpost. I encountered a handful of allegedly educated people who were quite adept at repeating the propaganda that is disseminated by the corrupt medical industry. These few jackasses were much too "smart" to learn any facts that I was presenting in my flyer. And, to a man, they were all so "smart" that they wouldn't even look at the facts I was presenting.

I also met a few hundred people who were much more reasonable than that handful of simpletons and they thanked me for providing them with information about how our medical industry poisons our babies. Some were parents of autistic kids themselves and were well aware of the crime that causes autism through mercury in vaccines. Others were not aware of this crime against children but had open minds and were receptive to learning new information.

I plan on going back to the State House to pass out similar flyers to our state Rep's and Senators in the hope that they will listen to reason and end the practice of shooting mercury into fetuses and infants. I would welcome assistance from any other people who consider themselves advocates for the disabled so we can end this nightmare for our children.
John Best (603)434-3928 bettwice33@juno.com

Flyer for Idiot Public Employees in New Hampshire

2011-03-30T20:52:00.000-07:00

THE TRUTH ABOUT AUTISM

Autism is caused by mercury, mostly from vaccines.

Autism is cured by removing mercury from the brain.

The flu shot still contains the full dose of mercury. The medical profession has known that mercury in vaccines is the cause since 1999 but they insist on lying about this. Shooting mercury into a pregnant woman gives the fetus up to 200 times the dose of mercury that the CDC claims is safe. This tells us that the medical profession is intentionally causing autism. They can not possibly be so stupid that they do not understand this fact.

One key in causing autism is to shoot it into infants before they develop a blood brain barrier (BBB) which can prevent mercury from entering the brain. The BBB develops by about one month of age.

Aluminum has been increased in many vaccines as mercury has been reduced. Aluminum “eats” holes in the BBB making it easier for mercury to enter. Aluminum combines with mercury to make the mercury more toxic.

People with the APO-E4 protein can not excrete any heavy metals. When mercury enters their brains, it remains there forever, slowly killing brain cells. Over 40% of people with Alzheimer’s disease have the APO-E4 protein.

Males are four times more likely to become autistic than females. Testosterone interacts with mercury to kill brain cells more quickly while estrogen has the opposite effect.

All vaccines can be made safely with no mercury by using single dose vials for a few cents more per shot. Please insist that your State Representative contact Rep Al Baldasaro and co-sponsor a bill to remove all mercury from vaccines in New Hampshire. This will eliminate almost all autism and save NH billions in the long run. It will also save kids from a horrible existence.

John Best (603)434-3928 Londonderry, NH
autismfraud.blogspot.com

NH Buffoons Fight Budget Battle to Prevent Autistic Kids from Being Cured

2011-03-29T07:39:00.000-07:00

I've been trying to educate the buffoons in New Hampshire who allege to represent disabled people for over ten years. Two simple facts have been beyond the grasp of every state employee though. Fact #1, Mercury causes autism. Fact #2, Removing mercury from the brain cures autism.

One would think that alleged professionals who exist for the purpose of helping disabled people would show at least a little bit of interest when you tell them that you know how to cure autism, a nightmarish condition that had always been thought to be incureable. One would also think that these people would have some interest in preventing more children from having their brains mangled by mercury into the condition known as autism. Unfortunately for autistic children though, our state employees have some serious mental deficiencies themselves and refuse to acquire this knowledge that I keep trying to convey to them. Whether these employees are corrupt or just plain stupid is not a question that I have to answer.

As an autism researcher, I learned these facts from the scientists who discovered them. I learned that mercury was the cause of autism in 1999. I later learned exactly what mercury did to cause this horror to children, how it killed brain cells and impaired methylation which is the reason autistic children are incapable of paying attention to anything and can not learn like normal children. By 2001, I had learned how to use Alpha Lipoic Acid (ALA), DMSA and DMPS to safely remove mercury from the brain and cure autism. Yet, here we are in NH, 12 years later, and no state employee has learned this information. Mercury is still injected into babies and pregnant women to cause autism and no NH employee will warn parents about this danger. Autistic children continue to bash their heads through walls, run haphazardly into traffic, bite themselves, punch themselves in the head, smear feces all over the house and exist in a state that can only be precisely identified as "vegetating", and no NH employee who is supposed to represent these children will tell anyone how to solve the problem. Instead, they keep promoting obsolete practices that never cured any autistic child and begging for more taxpayer money to throw down the drain.

A protest rally is being held on Thursday, March 31, 2011 at the State House where these state employees are going to beg for money to support disabled people. The money is needed and the cause is a just one. If these budget cuts aren't stopped, disabled people and their familiess are going to suffer. However, win or lose, autistic children in NH are going to lose. The knowledge that exists to cure and prevent autism is not going to be disseminated. Autistic children cost the state over $100,000 per year for education and in-home supports. This cost vanishes for each autistic child who we cure. This cost never exists for each case of autism we prevent by ending the practice of poisoning babies and fetuses with mercury in vaccines. Nobody associated with this rally will tell the citizens of NH the truth about autism which will save tens of millions of dollars. While they beg for money to extend the status quo, they condemn autistic children to remain brain damaged.

Right now, the NH Autism Council is playing games with two bills that I wrote, one to ban thimerosal from all vaccines and the other to compel NH HHS to tell people the truth about how to cure autism. This NH Autism Council is acting directly to continue causing autism intentionally by shooting mercury into babies. They are also acting intentionally to prevent parents from learning how to cure autistic children. Parents need to know the truth about the scumbags in the state of NH who refuse to do what is right for autistic children. They need to contact their state Rep's and Senators to attack this corrupt Autism Council, disband it, and back these two bills that will save us untold millions and help our children. We can not trust our state employees to do the right thing. Some are probably corrupt. I think most of them are simply too stupid for words.

If you need help for an autistic child, feel free to call me at (603)434-3928 or email me at bettwice33@juno.com and I'll be happy to show you how to cure autism. All it costs is $30 to $40 per month for supplements. The information is free. We can all help our kids in spite of the idiot NH employees who won't get their heads out of their asses.
John Best
Londonderry, NH

JB Handley Sells Out Autistic Children on CNN

2011-01-07T06:37:00.000-08:00

JB Handley did this interview on CNN and sold out every autistic child with some very good lying. Handley's lies of omission here are exactly what the vaccine makers want so they can cause more brain damage to babies.

Handley claims that the only vaccine that has ever been studied is the MMR shot. He knows this is false so it's an outright and blatant lie. Verstraeten did the study in 1999 that showed us thimerosal (mercury) was the cause of autism based on his study of the DTP shot which contained 25 micrograms of thimerosal. It was because of this knowledge that we began to cure autism by removing mercury from our childrens' brains. Many of us have succeeded in curing our children to differing degrees by removing that mercury. That confirms mercury as the cause so one has to ask why Mr Handley now decides to ignore this fact.

If Handley was honest, he would be mentioning facts concerning mercury. He would mention the fact that no vaccine ever caused autism for 133 years until mercury was added as a preservative in 1931. In fact, nothing ever caused autism before 1931 because autism did not exist until then. He should be mentioning the fact that there was zero cases of autism in New Hampshire and Mississippi in 1993 and that those states, all of a sudden had hundreds of cases in 1994, exactly three years after the HepB shot was added to the vaccine schedule in 1991. He may be aware that newborns do not have a blood brain barrier and that shooting mercury into them as soon as they were born was an excellent way to place mercury in their brains and cause permanent damage. The key here, and Handley must be aware of this, is that the mercury in the flu shot to pregnant women is incredibly hazardous to fetuses. If mercury from the HepB shot could cause the largest increase in autism that was ever seen in 1994 by shooting newborns with mercury, can't he fathom that shooting twice as much mercury into fetuses through the mothers' flu shots would have much more damaging results? One would think a Stanford graduate could make this connection.

Instead of making these arguments that seem to be common sense to me, Handley is now off on this crazy tangent of making comparisons between numbers of vaccines that contain no mercury, or very little mercury and are mostly given to babies after they have developed a blood brain barrier. At no point in this interview or other TV interviews that he has done lately for CNN and a show that I think is called "The Doctors" did Handley mention the flu shot and the full dose of mercury that those shots still contain.

If you were a CEO of vaccine manufacturing company, a vaccinated versus unvaccinated study is exactly what you would want to prove that vaccines do not cause autism. Of course, you would want that study done on children who were born since most of the thimerosal was reduced to trace levels in most vaccines. The results would show some autism in unvaccinated children since some would have had mothers who had the flu shot while pregnant. Lots of mothers are now full of mercury themselves since they were babies when the number of vaccines began increasing and they would pass some of that to their fetuses and to their newborns through breastfeeding. Pharma could easily cherry pick subjects for this study and be sure to include autistic kids whose mothers had flu shots but did not vaccinate their babies. Voila, they find unvaccinated kids with autism and they have a perfect study to declare that vaccines do not cause autism. And, they have JB Handley who stated in this video that he would admit vaccines do not cause autism if this study produced those results.

If JB Handley had any guts or honesty in his character, he would have stated the facts about mercury and he would have mentioned the flu shot and drilled that point home in no uncertain terms. The fact that he didn't do that tells you he's a liar.

Chairman Jonathan Young of the National Council on Disability

2010-12-16T13:34:00.000-08:00

It was one year ago that I wrote to chairman Vaughn of the NCD to advise him of the sadistic psychopath he was adding to his staff named Ari Ne'eman. I never received an answer from this scumbag bureaucrat and now I've learned that he doesn't work there any more.
He was replaced by Jonathan Young. So, I called Mr Young who was not in his office and was advised by an extremely ignorant government employee that his email at the NCD is personal information and this idiot would not give it to me. If Mr Young's government email address is personal information, then he is guilty of using taxpayer resources for personal use. Perhaps Mr Young should explain this to the nitwits who work for him.

Anyhow, I still want an answer from the NCD so I resent my concerns to him that his predecessor had ignored. Anyone else who does not like the idea of a dishonest scumbag like Ari Ne'eman representing their autistic kids should also write to Mr Young and voice their concerns.

Autism Speaks, Liars and Thieves

2010-12-11T06:47:00.001-08:00

Combating Autism Act Coalition of Nonsense

2010-10-20T08:32:00.001-07:00

Here is the home page of a bunch of groups who are asking Congress to waste more time and do the wrong studies concerning autism. At the top of this list is the corrupt blog, Age of Autism and the corrupt group, Generation Rescue is included in the mix.

This coalition is asking for studies to confirm what we've known since 1999 but nowhere in their demands do they call for anyone to tell the truth about what we already know. Instead they ask for a vaccinated versus unvaccinated study with no call to account for fetuses poisoned in the womb by their mothers' flu shots. I don't believe this entire group of people can be collectively that stupid. Without that clarifier even being mentioned, their call for this study is akin to asking Congress to do a bogus study that will show much less correlation between thimerosal and autism than it should. In essence, it calls for a study that will show vaccines do not cause autism and whioever wrote this crap knows that.

Nowhere in this petition does it ask Congress to state the truth about how we have been curing autism for years by removing mercury from the brain. This coalition should be demanding that every parent of an autistic child be handed that knowledge upon diagnosis.

Parents need to question the honesty of this coalition.

Brainwashing by Internet

2010-10-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

I have to laugh at the millions of people who have switched from television to the internet to willingly accept being brainwashed and controlled by the Rothschild crime syndicate. There are "truthers" everywhere and all sorts of brainwashed citizens who firmly believe they are now awake because they understand some of the horror that has been foisted upon us by the Rothschild family and their associates. The Rothschilds, otherwise known as the Illuminati, control the whole planet which includes the internet.

It should dawn on some of these "awake" citizens who can see the brainwashing powers of TV to look for the brainwashing all over the internet too. I think I'm the only one who sees it.

"Awake" people are now stuck in the illusion that, because they know some truth, the evil will somehow magically end. People sit at their computers and join groups who claim to expose the evil all around us. These "awake" folks share information with each other and believe they are doing something useful. They bitch and moan all over Facebook, Alex Jones' site and countless other forums where the Rothschilds laugh at their complaints. These "awake" sheep are no problem for the Rothschilds though because that's all they ever do, bitch and moan.

"Awake" sheep are looking for leadership and, as conditioned by TV, they only find it in shiny places with typical trappings. Some shiny sites use good looking women to promote part of the truth. Others use men who can present themselves well on Youtube. All of these Rothschild controlled actors do a great job at making you believe they're on your side by alerting you to some of the horror that the Rothschild family has created to steal more of your money. And, they do steal more money from you while they're at it by selling you DVD's and memberships to watch their "truth-telling" junk.

What none of these sites ever tell the "awake" sheep though is how to beat the Rothschild banking criminals. I can talk until I'm blue in the face about how to stop the Federal Reserve from robbing us, how to end the poisoning of our children with vaccines and how to stop all of our jobs from being outsourced to China and nobody ever wants to discuss it. The "awake" sheep are still arguing Republican versus Democrat. They believe the Tea Party junk is not just another Rothschild ploy to fool them. Has the Tea party called for a ban on Chinese imports? Have they called for seizing the Federal Reserve? Have they called for an end to mercury in vaccines? No? Then, why doesn't anyone think it's not just a Rothschild front group of controlled opposition? That's what the Tea Party is. That's what Alex Jones is. That's what Autism Speaks and Age of Autism are. That's what every site is who doesn't tell you this one simple fact: Don't ever vote for a Republican or Democrat for any national office because they are all controlled by Rothschild and the Federal Reserve.

In case this brief synopsis of internet brainwashing has illuminated anyone, I hope you will support me for President in 2012 so I can take the United States back from the Rothschild criminals and restore the freedom that was won for us by our forefathers. All it takes is your vote and I can end the Fed's theft, China's theft of our jobs and the poisoning of our babies and I can do it in one hour. We can have our country back and all it takes is to elect a member of We The People instead of a Rothschild owned Democrat or Republican.

Sarah Palin is an illusion. So is Ron Paul. They say a lot of things that awake sheep like to hear but they don't go nearly far enough. As President, I can make Evelyn de Rothschild number one on the FBI's most wanted list and put a price on his head for all of his crimes against humanity that he has orchestrated through his banking practices. Some people will laugh at that thought because it sounds so preposterous. That's only because of the conditioning we have all endured since childhood that makes us believe government is an authority that we have to fear. We don't have to fear our government. They need to fear us. All of the corrupt corporations who bribe our national politicians should have their CEO's added to the most wanted list. We the People don't have to sit still for their criminal actions against us.

Once we eliminate the Federal Reserve, we can return to the days before the Revolution when we created our own money and it was interest free. We have the power to destroy the banks and corporations that rule our lives. We don't have to be subservient to them and we don't have to fear them. In this once great country of ours, we have the power to end homelessness, unemployment and poverty. If we can do that, we'll see crimes decrease to almost nothing aside from those crimes of passion that are largely fueled by drugs and alcohol. And, while we're at it, we can break the drug cartels who cause the drug addicts to commit crimes to fund their habits. We can arrest the bankers who jack credit card interest rates up to 25% if you're one day late with your monthly payment. We can have free homes for everyone in this country and the only people who will suffer from that are the criminal bankers who enslave us. Let them suffer, we don't need them. We can declare that all housing is part of the common wealth and everyone gets one, no cost, thus no need to slave away at a job for thirty years to make those mortgage payments and no inflation that's tied to the ever increasing price of real estate that only benefits bankers. Imagine the reduction in stress that will provide for all of us who have to work to make those monthly payments. Let's end this form of slavery to bankers. Sounds crazy, doesn't it? That's only because it goes against the way we've been taught to think.

When you beat the brainwashing and start thinking for yourself, it's easy to see the big picture and the ruse that we all endure. The ruse makes our homes our greatest asset. We work to get the best paying jobs so we can work to pay for the best home we can afford. These homes get traded dozens of times and, each time they are bought and sold, bankers profit. The only people who earn anything besides paper profits are the speculators who flip distressed properties. Let's end all of this. We have about 18 million vacant properties based on 2009 census data that could be used to end homelessness. We could probably shut down the projects that breed crime and give the people who live in those hellholes their own houses too. We all win and only the bankers lose. We can do this. We can use the internet to network amongst We The People and blow away the TV advertising of the Rothschild owned politicians. We can organize ourselves to stop voting for corruption and elect ourselves to take back our country from the criminals.

John Best (I) for President in 2012

A Rothschild Controlled Forum, The Tree of Liberty

2010-10-16T13:24:00.000-07:00

Here's the link to a controlled opposition forum named The Tree of Liberty. On the surface, this seems like a place where decent people can enjoy a free exchange of ideas that detail the problems plaguing the country and the world.

As with all controlled opposition, a lot of truth can be learned here. However, when one steps in and presents the solution to our problems, these moderators will throw you out very quickly. Since the solution to all evil in the world of politics is to beat the evil swine in elections, the moderators here acted quickly and decisively when I posted that solution on their forum. They do not want any of the decent people who read that forum to know the whole truth. So, we can put The Tree of Liberty in the same controlled opposition boat with Alex Jones, David Icke, Rima Laibow, Oath Keepers and other assorted swine who e4ncourage people to keep complaining but to avoid taking any action to solve the problems created by the Rothschild banking criminals.

Stop Seeking Truth, Win the War Instead

2010-10-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

All over the internet, I see well-intentioned people spreading information that exposes deception. 9/11 truth is everywhere you look. Complaints about the Federal Reserve are always in your face. Corexit spraying along the gulf coast keeps popping up and the hazards of vaccines are becoming common knowledge. Mortgage fraud by banks is covered in the same places that blast The Fed while some people show us that Osama Bin Laden was created by the CIA. Then we have all sorts of disclosure regarding UFO's and how that whole thing is just more deception.

It's good that we can find all of this information on the internet that the mainstream media won't cover. But, what do we do with this knowledge? The consensus among those who enlighten us seems to be we that we should bombard Congress and the President with letters and petitions asking them to do the right thing for the good of us all. So, the followers amongst us write those letters and believe in the old maxim that enough public complaints will force the politicians to listen.

I believe that swaying public opinion is now a waste of time since the majority of our national politicians are simply too corrupt to ever listen. There's just no point in bothering them when they have been handsomely paid to ignore us. This was abundantly clear last spring when the Senate voted 62 to 37 against auditing the Federal Reserve. What harm could it do to find out the status of The Fed yet those elected to represent our interests voted to keep this information hidden. With that vote, each of those senators told us that they were working for the Rothschild family and would never represent us. So, why would any person ever vote for them again?

Here is the evidence that almost all of the good people who demand truth still have to overcome the Rothschild brainwashing. The brainwashing concerning our votes is immense. This is the key to Rothschild ruling the world yet virtually everyone refuses to even try to free their minds from it.

To stop the banks, drug companies and corporations from enslaving all of us, all we have to do is stop voting for them. It's just that simple. Yet, any time anyone tries to run a campaign to beat these people in an election, the response of the masses is always the same. Everyone repeats the brainwashing mantra that they have been taught since childhood...that you are wasting your vote and you must choose between the lesser of two evils presented to you by the Rothschild Democrats and the Rothschild Republicans.

Where are the truth-seekers to counter this propaganda? The truth is that you are not only wasting your vote by voting for any Democrat or Republican in a nationl election, you are always voting against your own interests. So, stop doing it. Reject that propaganda and only vote for people who you know will represent you. That's the message truth-seekers have to spread. It doesn't matter if mainstream media keeps saying that your candidate has no chance. Vote for them anyhow. There is no difference between Democrats and Republicans. They both work for the Rothschilds so, if either one of them wins an election, you lose. Keep repeating that to yourself until you are free of the brainwashing. Then tell your friends.

Please vote for me in 2012. John Best for President. I'm Independent. Write me in whether you are Democrat or Republican in the primaries and tell the Rothschilds where to go.

Gov John Lynch's Stormtroopers

2010-10-07T20:49:00.000-07:00

This happened in Concord, NH. This is typical behavior for Gov Lynch who's running for re-election. I called his office many times to try to register a complaint against a healthcare worker who performed an illegal act on my disabled son last spring and they refused to do anything to the perpetrator. They did, however, allow that agency to smear my name with DCYF, the same agency who hijacked this couples' baby. Lynch's wife is a pediatrician who routinely poisons children with mercury in vaccines and Lynch won't stop that crime either. This is what citizens of New Hampshire can expect with Lynch as Governor.

Here is Oath Keepers statement on the matter. Part of the complaint to justify snatching this baby was the fact that the father was a member of Oath Keepers, a group of military, police, ex-military and others who try to uphold the Constitution by refusing to obey unlawful orders. I had also joined Oath Keepers so, perhaps we have a pattern of Gov Lynch acting out against patriotic citizens who, unlike Gov Lynch, keep our oaths to the Constitution.

Fighting Autism Propaganda with Free Advertising

2010-08-30T17:59:00.000-07:00

This is a rock in my front yard, seen by thousands of cars every day, cost, $5 for spray paint.

Why Kelly Ayotte Likes to Poison Babies

2010-08-22T06:17:00.000-07:00

I used to think Kelly Ayotte was just plain stupid but there's always more to it than that when an Attorney General refuses to prosecute blatant crimes against children. Recently, I found the reason for Kelly's willful stupidity when it comes to the crime of allowing babies to be poisoned with thimerosal, the mercury based preservative used in vaccines. This article shows Kelly's association with the Pharmaceutical industry and explains why it has been expedient for her to ignore the facts I have tried to give her to prosecute the criminals on New Hampshire's corrupt Autism Council.

Voting for Kelly Ayotte for Senator is akin to condemning every developmentally disabled child to life in prison. And, a vote for her will insure that countless normal children will assuredly be poisoned by thimerosal in their vaccines to intentionally cause them brain damage.

John Best for NH Senator (Write me in)

I have informed Ayotte many times how to cure the brain damage caused by thimerosal. That was the gist of my complaint when I asked her to prosecute the members of New Hampshire's corrupt Autism Council. The Autism Council is composed of profiteers, almost all of whom profit by denying the fact that we can cure autism by removing the mercury that caused the autism from the brain. These council members sell obsolete services to care for people with autism so, if we started curing all of these mercury poisoned autistic people, these purveyors of obsolete practices would all see their income streams dry up. I'll wager that the NH Autism Council is among Ayotte's biggest supporters, hoping she will continue to allow the poisoning of babies to send them more customers.

We've known the truth for eleven years now, that mercury from vaccines is the primary cause of Alzheimer's and every condition on the autism spectrum. Corrupt politicians like Kelly Ayotte are going to perpetuate this poisoning of people and will never tell you the truth.

How to Fix the Economy

2010-08-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

You don't need a PhD in economics to fix the economy. All you need is some common sense. Money is not an essential element to life. So, let's get rid of the banks, stock market, insurance companies, lawyers and television commercials that try to sell us one product over another. All these things do is add stress to our lives so let's be shed of them.

The planet can function quite well with everyone pitching in to do their fair share to produce essential products and this can be done with a lot less than the forty hour work week. The economic model that we all follow is based on employers trying to wheedle as much production as possible out of employees, as cheaply as possible to produce as much profit as possible for themselves. There's no need for this form of slavery just so a few individuals who own large businesses can live better than everyone else.

Why do the majority of us allow this to continue? Why do we play this game of breaking our backs working to gain a few more comforts than the other guy? It just isn't worth the aggravation. Let's change the rules.

Let's do away with money and make everything free. People will still have to work to produce goods and services but we can look at all forms of work as a civic duty and not a necessity for survival. We can get rid of all financial jobs, tax collectors, cashiers, toll booths, parking meters and meter maids, and those people can take up another line of work that's more useful.

Reopen all of the factories in the USA that have been idled by corporations going to China for cheap labor. These are lousy jobs so put two or three times as many people working there, shorter hours, longer vacations. There's no need for anyone to slave away in these jobs for minimal rewards. Have everyone take a turn at this so the same people aren't stuck there for a lifetime.

Instead of unemployment offices, we can change them into functioning as work assignment offices. Figure out how many people are needed to produce everything we need and share the tasks equally among all citizens. We can probably cut the average work week from 40 hours to about eight.

We can give everyone a house and end homelessness, end the practice of having to work for thirty years to pay off a mortgage that winds up costing three or four times the value of the house with all of the interest that we pay to make the Rothschild family wealthier. Let's start using some common sense and look at how we view our world. It simply makes no sense for our lives to be ruled by bankers. Let's make ourselves truly free by everyone pitching in for the good of the whole. Abolish money. Take pride in our work as doing our part for the good of the whole. Let's work for ourselves, collectively, so we all may enjoy our lives without being slaves to the elite criminals.

Let's eliminate crimes associated with money. If everyone has everything they need, there's no reason to rob anyone, no reason to steal cars, no taxes to cheat on, no reason to bribe politicians so they can make laws to make a few people wealthier at the expense of the majority. Just have everyone keep doing the jobs they're doing for now, assign everyone from financial jobs to other tasks and lighten the workload for those performing useful tasks. Create offices to put the unemployed to work and lighten the workload even more so that we all contribute. Greed will disappear since we'll all be able to have whatever we need without worrying about how to pay for it.

Money, the root of all evil. We can live better without it.

John Best for US Senate, New Hampshire

Yard Signs Stolen and Vandalized by Supporter of Poisoning Babies

2010-08-01T08:01:00.000-07:00

I had a hand painted sign that I had nailed to a tree in my front yard pried off the tree and stolen from me on Tuesday afternoon. The words on it were the same as on my car.

So, after the sign was stolen I spray painted the same words on a large rock in my front yard. Last night, some idiot who must want to defend Pharma's lies and the poisoning of our children used black spray paint to block out half of the letters on my orange sign.

We can see by this cowardly action that the medical profession is scared of honest citizens who point out the truth about their sadistic practice of routinely poisoning our children by shooting mercury into them. Two attacks on my property within five days could also be the result of my Youtube videos that show the corruption of Bill Binnie and Kelly Ayotte. I wouldn't be surprised if it was one of their mentally unstable supporters who lauched this attack on me.

John Best (I) for Senator, NH

Kelly Ayotte for Senator

2010-07-28T09:54:00.001-07:00

Here is a complaint that I filed with Ayotte's offfice in 2008 showing neglect of autistic people by public officials in New Hampshire. Kelly Ayotte refused to act on it. Through her abject ignorance and lack of compassion for severely disabled people, we can predict that Ayotte will squander taxpayer's money by providing custodial care for these unfortunate cittizens when she could cure them. All that is required to cure these people is for some public official who can gain access to the media to tell the truth. Ayotte refuses to tell the truth. As a result, citizens who were poisoned by vaccines will continue to suffer.

How Bill Binnie Lies to Voters

2010-07-26T09:41:00.000-07:00

Bill Binnie claims he has a plan to help the economy. Binnie knocks Obama for spending too much and claims the solution is to reduce government. Binnie knows that the only solution to our economic troubles is to seize control of the Federal Reserve back from the Rothschild family but he is not honest enough to tell anyone this.

Binnie calls for fair trade with China to create jobs in the USA which is just plain stupid. Binnie's old company, Carlisle Plastics has/had manufacturing facilities in China, Japan and Mexico. No trade agreement with China is going to create jobs here. We have to ban their imports since we can't compete with the crumby wages they pay in China. That's why Binnie took his business out of the USA, thus doing his part to reduce jobs here. Anyone who trusts this guy to look out for our interests is out of their mind.

Binnie will not tell anyone the truth about why our economy is in trouble. He will not tell anyone the truth about how people are being poisoned with mercury in vaccines. When I ask him questions on these subjects, he deletes my questions and refuses to answer. That tells us Binnie is a liar. Don't vote for him.

John Best for US Senate, New Hampshire

Marsha McClelland, Controlled Opposition to Ending Autism

2010-07-26T06:43:00.000-07:00

Marsha McClelland is a grandmother who runs some Yahoo groups and pawns herself off as an activist for autism. In reality, Marsha is an activist for Pharma who encourages parents of autistic children to run around like chickens with their heads cut off so that they accomplish nothing.

Marsha encourages people to fight Pharma by posting their opposition on Facebook and other places. As we all know, this is pure folly since all it does is waste their time and effort.

The ONLY way to beat Pharma is to elect people to Congress who can not be corrupted by Pharma's bribes (campaign contributions). This is something that Marsha fights vehemently. Marsha is absolutely opposed to anyone who runs for Congress and wants to stop the poisoning of babies with vaccines. She refuses to discuss politics and claims it is divisive. The reality here is that if the autism community would organize to elect representatives to Congress in all fifty states, we would gain control of Congress and we could ban thimerosal from all vaccines. We could also change the laws that prevent Pharma from being sued and every person who has ever had their brain damaged by thimerosal in vaccines would be able to sue the companies who poisoned them. We could eliminate the three year statute of limitations that now prevents this.

Marsha has followed the leads of David Kirby and JB Handley who advocate wasting our time and making us run around like chickens with our heads cut off. Kirby and Handley ask their followers to demand more studies instead of demanding the truth that we have known for eleven long years. They also do not support any one of us running for Congress as they lead people to kiss up to corrupt politicians who will always support their benefactors from Pharma.

Many parents believe it is useful to make lots of noise about the causes of autism. It is. However, asking politicians who have been bribed to ignore us to do the right thing is pretty damn stupid. They will always serve their masters in Pharma.

It's easy to be sucked in by phoney leaders like JB Handley, David Kirby and Marsha McClelland. They say a lot of the right things. They have used the media to present our message which makes it look like they are serving the interests of autistic children. But, all it is is noise. They do not take any action to solve the problem. To solve the problem, we have to win those seats in Congress so the bastards can't ignore us any longer.

Bill Binnie, Scumbag

2010-07-21T21:18:00.000-07:00

New Hampshire voters should know what Bill Binnie is all about.

Bill Binnie owned Carlisle Plastics during the situation described on page 64 here. So, we see how Binnie creates jobs in Mexico when his Mexican workers in California try to organize a union. I expect Binnie will do the same thing if elected to the US Senate to help other ruthless businessmen like himself reap profits while treating employees like slaves.

Here's the Wikipedia entry on Binnie, a true scumbag who will be certain to look out for Wall Street at the expense of the majority of US citizens he wants to misrepresent. People who keep seeing Binnie signs all over the place should wonder if this bastard will look out for their interests. He certainly didn't give a damn about any US citizens when he shipped his business to Mexico.

John Best for Senator in New Hampshire. I won't sell you out to Mexico.

Argentinian Points Out the Stupidity of Americans

2010-07-16T06:52:00.000-07:00

Please watch and wake up your fellow citizens. Stop voting for Democrats and Republicans.

How to Fix America, TV Politicians are All LIARS

2010-07-15T07:00:00.000-07:00

The solution is simple, elect honest politicians. Implementing that solution is the problem but we do have the answer. We have the internet to counter the corrupt media that's controlled by the Rothschild banking empire. So, all we have to do is spread the knowledge amongst the millions of us who are denied access to the mainstream media that all politics on TV is corrupt.

Every politicians who gains their votes through multi-million dollar campaigns on TV is inherently corrupt since they can only obtain that money from wealthy corporations who buy their influence. Nobody should ever vote for those politicians since they are all dishonest and will never look out for the interests of We The People. If We The People can all accept this fact, we can undo the brainwashing that was been used against us through the power of television.

Americans have been brainwashed into believing that their choices between politicians is a matter of choosing between one wealthy liar in a thousand dollar suit and another wealthy liar with perfect hair and shiny white teeth. Of course, none of the wealthy liars have any facial hair since that's also a politically incorrect image to show to voters. I guess that image makes them seem honest to some people.

The key to making this brainwashing effective is to tell the people over and over and over again that they are wasting their vote if they don't choose between the two wealthy liars who are at the top of the polls that are conducted by the corrupt media and don't even include any other candidates to choose from. To beat this brainwashing technique that has been used as long as television has existed, We The People do not have access to television commercials at a million dollars a minute to educate our fellow citizens but we can teach each other the truth through the internet.

The truth about the economy is that the Rothschilds own the central banks of all but five countries on the planet. All of our national debt is paid to the Rothschild banking criminals whether that money is owed to China, England, Paraguay or anyplace. It's just a shell game. It doesn't matter to the Rothschilds if people in China make our clothes, TV sets and computers, and American factories are shut down. The Rothschilds just become wealthier. When more Americans have to use welfare and food stamps, the Rothschilds make more money because our government borrows money from the Rothschild owned Federal Reserve and we pay them more interest on our national debt. The great thing about this from the Rothschild's perspective is that they don't really loan us any money at all. They just print whatever money they want with nothing to back it up and tax us to pay them back. So, the fruits of our labor is transferred to the Rothschild family through our taxes. It's the ultimate con job.

We can fix the economy immediately by the simple act of repealing the Federal Reserve Act of 1913, banning imports from China and reopening all of the factories that have been shut down here. The only reason this isn't happening is that all of the wealthy politicians with their thousand dollar suits, perfect hair and shiny white teeth had their campaigns financed by the Rothschild family and they always vote against the American people so they can make the Rothschilds and the Rockefellers wealthier. That's why Senator John (Jay) Rockefeller of West Virginia wants to shut down the internet.

These liars aren't stupid. Rockefeller knows that we can organize ourselves through the internet so that the whole country knows the truth about this banking scam and we can educate each other to always vote against politicians who run multi-million dollar TV campaigns. Once the whole country accepts the fact that every politician on TV is a liar and will not ever look out for our interests, the whole country will equate TV campaigns with liars and refuse to vote for them.

So, that's the solution. Everyone who reads this should spread the message to all of their contacts that ALL POLITICIANS ON TV ARE LIARS. We've been brainwashed by TV and we can undo that brainwashing. A bell should go off in your head every time you see a smiling politician on TV and the word "LIAR" should leap into your head.
Once everyone equates TV politicians with LIARS, we will have brainwashed ouselves against voting for these corrupt scoundrels. That's how we fix the country.

Please forward this to all of your contacts and we will take our country back from the Rothschilds and the Rockefellers.

John Best (Independent) for US Senator, New Hampshire

The Oil Spill

2010-06-27T06:12:00.000-07:00

A good read.

BP's Coverup

2010-06-21T09:43:00.000-07:00

I copied this piece about oil-spill related illnesses here because I copied another piece on Facebook last night about how whales' carcasses were being blown up to dispose of them that Facebook deleted from eveyone's page who copied it. The gist of that piece was this:

"From clean up worker at Ground Zero: Being watched by military. Cell phones confiscated. Birds falling from sky. Seabirds, fish, dolphins, whales dead in great numbers covering the water as far as the eye can see. Air reeks of benzene. Whales are being blown up. Boats and helicopters scooping up the dead bodies. Worke...rs are sick and getting sicker. They believe some have already died."

Facebook gave no notice of why they chose to censor this information.

http://www.wsws.org/articles/2010/jun2010/bphe-j21.shtml
Two months since the start of the Gulf Coast oil spill, residents, fishermen and experts throughout the Gulf of Mexico are reporting respiratory problems and other illnesses attributable to oil contamination.

“We’re getting sick down here. People are losing their voices; our noses are running and our eyes are crying all the time,” said Dean Blanchard, operator of a Grand Isle, Louisiana-based shrimp distribution company. “I went down to Bourbon Street in New Orleans and the urine on the cement smelled better than the air does down here.”

Dr. Michael Kotler, director of Plaquemines Medical Center near Venice, Louisiana, said his clinic has treated numerous cases of people getting sick from spill-related chemical exposure. The clinic handles those cases that the US Health Service and a private medical contractor employed by BP are not prepared to handle, said Dr. Kotler.

Cleanup workers on the Mississippi RiverIn May, the latest month for which figures were available, the clinic saw 24 oil-spill related exposure cases. Sixteen of these patients were offshore workers employed on a rig contaminated by air-dropped dispersant.

Walter, an offshore oil worker, told the WSWS last month that he had respiratory problems after BP began spraying dispersant near his rig.

“I’ve been working around crude oil every day for six years now. I’ve never gotten a sore throat from it until now,” he said. Of the remaining oil spill-related patients that came to the Plaquemines Medical Center, three were civilians and five were cleanup workers.

Cleanup workers in Grand Isle, LAThe Louisiana Department of Health and Hospitals reported last week that there have been 109 incidents of health complaints related to chemical exposure from the oil spill. Seventy-four of the reports were from workers involved with the cleanup, and 35 were from among the general population, according to the health agency.

Earlier this month, as complaints of spill-related illnesses began to rise, BP downplayed the number, claiming only two cases. It attempted to attribute the others to miscellaneous causes such as food poisoning.

Wilma Subra, an environmental chemist in and advisor for the Louisiana Environmental Action Network, said that the health effects of the oil spill are only beginning to be felt.

“The crude oil on the surface formed an aerosol that blew onto land a long time before the slick even made it to the marshes, covering the entire New Orleans area last month,” she said in a telephone interview. “As the slick goes west, the impact area is shifting all the way over into Pensacola, and even farther.”

“I got reports from fishermen’s wives that their husbands were getting sick. But there’s no other work, and all the fishermen engaged in the cleanup are afraid of losing their jobs if they speak out,” she said.

“An organization that I have been working with purchased additional protective gear for the workers onshore, but BP threatened to fire anyone who showed up to work with a respirator. A lot of the cleanup workers are handling contaminated oil with their hands, leaning over it, breathing the fumes with no protection,” Dr. Subra added.

Although many workers were concerned about the health effects of the oil spill, they are afraid to speak to the press for fear of losing their jobs. “In general, the fishermen here are afraid of speaking out,” said Laura Leckelt, a nurse working at the first aid station. “The workers signed a contract saying that they would not talk to press, and it is a breach of contract if they do.”

Although the cleanup workers were reticent to speak publicly, some agreed to be quoted on a first-name basis. Brian said that many of the cleanup workers were concerned. “The big secret is, everybody is about to get sick. This is the calm before the storm,” he said.

Dean BlanchardDean Blanchard, the shrimp distributor, said he suspects that BP has been using dispersants within the Barataria Bay, far outside the approved radius for its use.

“We have skimmer boats reporting oil in the bay, then being told to move ten miles out and hold position overnight,” Blanchard said. “When they come back, the oil is gone. They do it at night because they’re not cleared to use dispersant so far onshore.”

Some people involved in the cleanup said that workers on the beach were generally not reporting exposure-related illness, but many of them were falling sick from working out in the sun for too long.

Laura Leckelt“At first they didn’t have proper instructions for keeping the workers hydrated and cooled, so a lot of them got overheated,” said Ms. Leckelt, who treated several workers suffering from heat stroke.

“The real problem is the workers who are skimming water off the surface. They’re the ones who are most exposed,” said Dr. Subra. She said that OHSA responded to her claims by investigating the work conditions of beach cleanup workers. “They said that since the onshore workers would not benefit from respirators, neither would the workers operating the skimming boats,” which is simply not the case, she said.

“These fishermen are going to be sick for the rest of their lives because of their exposure to these chemicals,” said Dr. Subra.

Please Help the IACC

2010-06-19T09:26:00.000-07:00

Once again, the dishonest assholes from the Interagency Autism Corordinating Committee (IACC) have asked for help in making their plan to waste our time and harm our children. Please take the time to fill out their form as honestly as possible to let these scumbags know that we are not falling for their lies. Here's the link to their form.

My answers are below. I wrote similar answers last year and they published my words so don't be afraid to tear these jerks to shreds. Feel free to use politically incorrect language so they can not possibly misinterpret how you feel about them.

Thank you for your submission to the IACC. This is your receipt, and your answers are provided below:

Introduction to the Strategic Plan

a. What issues and topics should be added to the introduction?

Scrap everything you have now in favor of telling the truth. Stop trying to baffle us with bullshit, take the mercury and aluminum out of vaccines and advise everyone that autism can be cured with chelation. Throw Ari Ne\'eman out of the IACC. He\'s a lying bastard who does not have autism and is trying to prevent us from curing our kids.
b. What issues and topics that are currently included should be modified or removed from the introduction?

no answer

I. Strategic Plan Question 1: When should I be concerned? (Diagnosis)

a. What has been learned about the issues covered in this chapter in the past year?

You morons haven\'t learned anything. Some of us know that the only test worth doing for autism is a hair test for deranged mineral transport. I think you know that too but you\'re too fucking dishonest to admit it.
b. What are the remaining gaps in the subject area covered by this chapter?

Daignostic tools? What the fuck is wrong with you? You don\'t need any tools to determine that a kid can\'t talk. When they spend their days spinning around in circles and smearing feces all over the place, it\'s obvious that they have brain damage. Stop listening to these pseudo-intellectual liars who call themselves behaviorists. They have no clue what they\'re talking about.

II. Strategic Plan Question 2: How can I understand what is happening? (Biology of ASD)

a. What has been learned about the issues covered in this chapter in the past year?

There is only one cause of ASD, mercury. Take all the rest of your bullshit theories and shove them up your ass. You can\'t fool all of us with this nonsense so you might as well cut the crap and start telling the truth. If you don\'t tell the truth, those of us who know it will continue to expose you for the dishonest bastards that you are. Sooner or later, the majority of the general public will realize that you bastards are lying to them and they will probably start picking you off one by one as you walk down the street.
b. What are the remaining gaps in the subject area covered by this chapter?

You assholes have been lying to us for a long time now. Are you stupid enough to think that you can get away with this forever?

III. Strategic Plan Question 3: What caused this to happen and can this be prevented? (Risk Factors)

a. What has been learned about the issues covered in this chapter in the past year?

The APO-E4 protein is passed from parents to children. That\'s the only genetics you need to be aware of. Of course, you are too dishonest to share this information with the public. You can\'t fool all of us by making up bullshit theories about genetic factors because some of us know the truth so the best thing for you to do would be to stop making up inane studies that we see right through which make you look ridiculous.
b. What are the remaining gaps in the subject area covered by this chapter?

no answer

IV. Strategic Plan Question 4: Which treatments and interventions will help? (Treatments and Interventions)

a. What has been learned about the issues covered in this chapter in the past year?

The only treatment that can cure autism is chelation with Alpha Lipoic Acid (ALA). I hope a brigade of marines with autistic kids learn that you have been lying about this and they blow all of your heads off. That\'s what you assholes deserve.
b. What are the remaining gaps in the subject area covered by this chapter?

no answer

V. Strategic Plan Question 5: Where can I turn for services? (Services)

a. What has been learned about the issues covered in this chapter in the past year?

The only place anyone should go to learn about autism is here: http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/Autism-Mercury/ This is where Andy Cutler teaches people how to cure autism with ALA chelation. If we cure our kids, they don\'t need any services you dishonest pricks.
b. What are the remaining gaps in the subject area covered by this chapter?

no answer

VI. Strategic Plan Question 6: What does the future hold? (Lifespan Issues)

a. What has been learned about the issues covered in this chapter in the past year?

Standard practice is to throw our kids in asylums, drug them imto oblivion and kill them while in restraints, if possible, to save some money on caring for them for 60 or 70 years. You scumbags know that we could cure many of these people but that would reflect poorly on the medical profession who caused all of the autism so you pieces of shit won\'t do that. I suggest that you could improve the image of doctors by telling them to admit that they screwed up and to start helping people correct their malpractice. The ponly way to improve quality of life is to undo the brain damage that you caused by shooting way too much mercury into their brains. All that this requires on your part is honesty, something I think you are too corrupt to agree to.
b. What are the remaining gaps in the subject area covered by this chapter?

no answer

VII. Strategic Plan Question 7: What other infrastructure and surveillance needs must be met? (Surveillance and Infrastructure)

a. What has been learned about the issues covered in this chapter in the past year?

You don\'t need any research. Just call me and I\'ll tell you what to do (603)434-3928. We do need enhanced surveillance to monitor the activities of some real assholes like Allison Tepper Singer and Ari Ne\'eman who constantly spread propaganda to try to convince parents to allow their autistic kids to rot instead of curing them. It would be easier to cut their tongues out but some people might think that was inhumane.
b. What has been learned about the issues covered in this chapter in the past year?

no answer

Other Information

a. What other comments do you have about the IACC Strategic Plan for ASD Research?

The only plan you despicable pricks have is to waste our time talking about this instead of simply telling the truth. So, my advice for you is to stop wasting our time by promoting bullshit that I have to bother refuting. I have better things to do than reading your lies so I can expose your dishonesty.

One Dishonest Bitch

2010-05-20T05:01:00.000-07:00

I found this on Age of Autism where they sometimes present useful information. Here they showed this video of a very good liar named Allison Tepper Singer. This well educated, mangy bitch from Yale presents a plethora of lies to try to convince parents to poison their children with mercury and cause their brains to be fried into autism. These fallacious arguments are standard fare for the Pharmaceutical industry and they sound pretty good to parents who have not studied the issue in detail. The truth of the matter is that flu shots still contain mercury and, when given to pregnant women, they cause miscarriages and severe brain damage that is known as autism. If you don't have time to listen to all of the lies, fast forward to the 34 minute mark.

Jane Dichard, New Hampshire Child Abuser

2010-04-14T20:59:00.000-07:00

Jane Dichard is a fat, old broad who looks like she combed her hair in a blender. She's also the Director of Region 10, a non-profit agency in southern New Hampshire that oversees the care of mentally disabled people. This includes autistic children.

I talked to this stupid woman during the past year and tried to educate her about autism. When I asked her to take steps to inform parents about how the mercury in vaccines caused the autism, her answer that defies belief was: "That's not my job".

Here's this dope who has responsibility to see that mentally disabled people are cared for appropriately telling me that it's none of her business if any of them ever receive proper care and treatment for their injuries. I explained to Ms Dichard how to cure autism but she didn't want to hear it. I further tried to teach this nitwit that the behavioral people who earn their living by making sure nobody is ever cured have a conflict of interest. If parents all learn how to cure autism, these assholes who won't tell anyone the truth will all be out of work.

That didn't bother Jane though. She's the Director and what she says goes. It doesn't matter to her if all of the autistic kids whose parents she advises remain autistic as long as she provides services to these people. That's Jane's job and she's way too busy to worry about anything else. So, if the parents of autistic kids all get a little respite money to give them a break from the autism, then Jane can pat herself on the back and believe she has done a good job.

Ask Jane to intervene when a kid has troubles though and she's right there, ready to cut the throats of parents who don't obey her and her moronic staff. For instance, one parent had her child taken away from her because the parent wasn't doing a great job of managing the kid's diabetes. The kid didn't have diabetes until a year after it had had three HepB shots. When I learned about this, I pointed out to wild-haired Jane that Children's Hospital in Boston was curing diabetes by using ALA chelation to remove the mercury from the pancreas. The fact that ALA chelation is also the way to cure every person on the autism spectrum fits right in with this but Jane wasn't bothered by it a bit.

I haven't heard anymore about this case but Jane never asked any questions to bother learning more that may have helped this kid. That's the way it goes in New Hampshire. Morons who haven't learned anything since their tits started sagging below their waists run the show. They're way too important to read anything to keep pace with new developments to cure autism and the autistic kids keep suffering. Jane has the solution to that too. When the kids grow too difficult for the parents to handle, Jane can award them more money. She can place the kid in a home run by imbeciles who give the kid custodial care but she can't be bothered to learn how to cure autism for $6 for a bottle of ALA.

This is one of the people who parents have to turn to when they have no clue what to do about mercury poisoning misdiagnosed as autism. As usual, with incompetent state employees, the kids lose...every time.

Almost forgot, Jane likes to advise people to take the flu shots. Yup, that's the flu shot that has lots of mercury and is now the primary cause of autism. If Jane wanted to learn why the flu shot is so dangerous to fetuses, as opposed to much larger infants, I would've been happy to teach her. But...Jane is just too important to learn...and that's the way it is for autistic kids in New Hampshire

Petition to Kill Ari Ne'eman

2010-04-03T07:10:00.000-07:00

(This is not a threat or suggestion of bodily harm.)

Here is a link to a petition asking President Obama to kill Ari Ne'eman's nomination to a national council on autism. Please forward this widely and keep this despicable human being from having any influence over the treatment of severely disabled children.

Ari Ne'eman has a goal of preventing anyone from being cured of autism. Let's stop him.

DAN Dr Lynn Durand Condemns My Son To Remain Autistic

2010-03-31T15:30:00.001-07:00

I'm in the midst of a bitter divorce from my wife Karen. Karen has fought me for the last nine years over the treatments I have used to help my son Sam improve tremendously from the nightmarish condition that used to be his existence. She has never bothered reading anything to learn the facts about how chelation cures autism.

I called Dr Lynn Durand of Concord, NH and asked him to confirm his prescription that he gave me to chelate my son. I needed Dr Durand's statement to let a court know that chelation was necessary for Sam to continue to improve from his autism and have a chance to have a normal life. I needed that statement because my wife, if she gains custody of Sam, refuses to continue the chelation. Dr Durand told me he would not get involved and refused to state that chelation is the proper treatment for autism. Without an MD to tell that to a court, my wife will be able to continue refusing to give the treatment and I will not be allowed to chelate Sam and finish the job I started six years ago to cure him.

In 2006, Dr Durand prescribed methyl B-12 for Sam in the hope that it would allow Sam to speak. After only three doses of the nasal Methyl B-12, my wife decided that it was having a bad affect on Sam (it wasn't) and she grabbed the bottle, ran out of the house with it and hid it at her sister's house to prevent me from giving it to Sam. I asked her to call Dr Durand and see what he said about her concerns but she refused. She wouldn't bother calling the doctor and I had no way to force my wife to allow me to give it to Sam so that he could speak. Sam still can't speak four years later and my wife still refuses to give him the medicine that might allow Sam to speak.

I also asked Dr Durand to provide me with a statement to tell the court how methyl B-12 allows a significant number of children to acquire speech. He refused. I called him a "bastard" and hung up.

People need to be aware that Dr Durand is a complete asshole who will not make simple, general statements that he agrees with by virtue of the fact that he prescribed these treatments to help severely autistic children when people really need his help. My son, Sam will now remain non-verbal and will never recover from autism because Dr Lynn Durand will not simply tell the truth.

As an ex-patient of Dr Lynn Durand, I advise anyone who is considering having him treat their autistic child to find someone else.

If anyone reading this knows an MD who will provide a statement to a court that simply states that chelation is the proper treatment for autism and that it is medically necessary for Sam, I would appreciate it.

Lawyer Files Unethical Claims of Ownership, Amanda Baggs

2010-03-14T14:09:00.001-07:00

Anne Bevington: Attorney for Amanda Baggs from Anne on Vimeo.

Amanda Baggs, Autism Fraud

2010-03-07T14:14:00.001-08:00

Anne Bevington has filed a frivolous copyright claim with Youtube to have this video removed. The owner of the picture in question has assured me that he did not authorize this dishonest lawyer to act on his behalf. So, we see that not only is Amanda Baggs a dishonest piece of dung but, once again her lawyer proves to be the same.

If the dishonest lawyer, Bevington, files the same dishomnest claim with Blogger or Googgle to have the picture that remains here removed, I can only hope that they will check with me and I will show them the proof that this lawyer's claim is knowingly dishonest.

This video is no longer available due to a copyright claim by Bevington Law Firm.
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Amanda Baggs Controversy

2009-12-19T18:36:00.001-08:00

I learned that the Amanda Baggs Controversy blog had been taken down so I copied the cache here.
Amanda Baggs Controversy
Update September 2009 *Photo-copies of witness's emails statements published below (click to enlarge) in section (1). Update October 2009 *Below in this report, links are provided to Amanda Baggs's Google-Group activity from 1994 (14 years old) onward. In response to the publication of this report, Amanda has removed some of the quoted calendar-links,and account names. Below is the start of a re-summary of the links and usernames. A new section in this report will be developed shortly. *To see many of the Google webpages, you must be logged-into a Google-mail (gmail) account, or, a Google-group account. *Account: http://groups.google.com/groups/profile?hl=en&show=more&enc_user=601yBhMAAAAE1VY_FX-xV92u0O0LeRIIWMj6vob75xS36mXc24h6ww&group=alt.support.dissociation&pli=1 *Account: http://groups.google.com/groups/profile?enc_user=zlsmERQAAAAuTyeTtEznhsJ1EvX_4Y8kqErCXa-CIiqlccej3woxEQ *Username: Galiganinda Dulin *1998 admittance by Amanda Baggs of username'Galiganinda Dulin' (7th paragraph below); also see discussion in this report, and testimony from 1994-1998 college friend Dr. Ophelia Austin-Small Ph.D. *1994 record of username: Amanda Baggs. Account for username 'Amanda Baggs'
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1995:
Amanda Baggs at 15 years old (photos linked below) with now doctor Daniel Drucker shortly after both finished the 1995 school year at Simon’s Rock College. (Drucker’s testimony is provided in this report below). Drucker was a close friend and classmate of Amanda at this college for pre-college-age gifted students. Dr. Drucker, now a cognitive neuroscientist, testifies Amanda was verbally fluent, attended and actively participated in classes, had a boyfriend and many friendships, took an Arabic language class, played the flute, ate in the cafeteria many times a day, and, did not appear autistic, nor did she report she was autistic.
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2007:
Amanda Baggs from 27 years old onward; photos and video linked below. As CNN senior producer Chris Gajilan stated about her interview with Amanda: "When I walk into her apartment, Amanda Baggs makes no eye contact. She doesn't come to the door or raise her hand to greet visitors. In fact, I'm having a hard time discerning whether she even knows I'm there. I say hello and introduce myself, but she remains silent, sitting at her desk, staring out the window, rocking slightly back and forth." She began publically presenting herself like this on YouTube in 2007 (below link), leading to her first media coverage by CNN in early 2007.
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(A) Introduction
(1) Several former Simon’s Rock College friends and classmates of Amanda Baggs' have come forward to CNN and others in light of Amanda’s 2007-2008 national media coverage to provide their observations of her from 1994-1995 (14-15yrs old), and for some continuing to 1998, at Simon’s Rock College and elsewhere, as fully verbally fluent, attended classes and was an active verbal participant in classes, had many friends and acquaintances and a boyfriend, made normal eye contact, did not “stim” (repetitive physical movements), played the flute, took an Arabic language course, ate in the cafeteria on a many times a day basis, etc.
(2) June 1997, Amanda’s public apology in the Google Dissociation Group about her 1995 DID (multiple personality disorder) diagnosis
(4) UPDATED Verifying Amanda’s Internet posts. Amanda Baggs' websites, blog, and public contact information.
(5) 1997, Amanda’s statement at the Google Depression/Manic Group
(6) 1999, Amanda’s statement about using different usernames in Google Group discussions (Dissociation Group, Schizophrenia Group, Depression/Manic Group, Autism Group).
(7) 1995, Amanda’s written account of her DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder; multiple personality disorder)
(8) 1996, Amanda’s schizophrenia account in her public journal
(9) 1997, further of Amanda’s Schizophrenia Group and Dissociation Group writing
(10) Amanda’s 12/7/1997 written account in the Schizophrenia Group of LSD use and psilocybin use, voices, medicine treatment, etc.
(11) October 2002, Amanda’s comments in the Google Autism Group that Stanford University Hospital diagnosed her with Factitious Disorder.
-Amanda’s rejection of Stanford University
-Indications of Factitious Disorder
-Amanda’s historical group posts from 1994 onward
-Amanda' view on which doctors are good and which bad, and her view on which of her diagnoses are right and which are wrong.
(12) 1/18/2007 Amanda’s self-taken video of herself along with a song recording playing, and written admittance by Amanda it is her voice in the song recording.

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(A) Introduction (top)
*In 1995, at 15 years old, and for considerable time (it’s believed about 1 year), Amanda Baggs publically claimed (to family, friends, acquaintances, doctors, and one (perhaps more) Internet discussion groups), and publically presented herself, as having Dissociative Identity Disorder, (formerly called ‘Multiple Personality Disorder’).
*From about 1996 through 1998, Amanda publically claimed and publically presented herself as having Schizophrenia.
*In June 1997, Amanda publically apologized for deceiving both herself, and others, with her claim of Dissociative Identity Disorder.
*In about 2000, at about 20 years old, she began publically claiming and publically presenting herself as having low functioning autism (profound non-verbal autism), though having the ability to communicate normally through typed-communication).
*In January 2007, she began publicizing her autism, and her typed-communication ability, through YouTube videos which she filmed and edited. In February 2007, the media company CNN became interested in Amanda due to her YouTube video, and did several written and television segments on her.
*In mid-2007, several former 1994-1995 classmates of hers from Simon’s Rock College stepped forward to CNN and on various Internet websites to express their confusion and shock at how Amanda was presenting herself. Each consistently testified to her being a relatively fully functioning student at 14-15 years old at Simon’s Rock College (which is a highly selective college for gifted pre-college-aged students). Each attests that she was a fluent verbal communicator, attended classes and took part in the class discussions at a normal level, ate in the cafeteria on a many times a day basis, was fully functional physically, had a boyfriend, had many friends and acquaintances, etc. Moreover, each attests to how she was not autistic in any sense, and that she never reported being autistic.
*Later in 1995, shortly before her withdrawal from Simon’s Rock College (SRC), several of her former SRC friends (one of which is now a neuroscientist, and another of which is now a Ph.D candidate in Psychology and has been a mental health professional for many years) attest to how she aggressively used LSD (Lysergic Acid Diethylamide) and psilocybin for about three months, and on a near daily basis. The SRC friends attest to how they observed her undergo psychotic behavior during and after this 3 month period, including exclaiming that she was an ‘elf’, digging in the school yard for what she believed to be a listening device implanted in the ground, suicide attempts and self-injurious behavior, aggression toward others, her report of auditory hallucinations and the witnessing of her behaving as if she was listening to and talking with auditory hallucinations, etc.
*Slowly since 2000, and especially after her national media coverage with CNN, she has become considered by many to be an “autism rights activist”.
*At this time, she lives in Burlington, Vermont with her partner Laura Tisonick.
* The following are some links to her various video presentations and media coverage.
CNN’a Chris Gajilan and Dr. Sanjay Gupta: "Gajilan, Chris" Chris.Gajilan@turner.com "Sanjay Gupta"
sanjay.gupta@cnn.com
CNN editors: Rena.Golden@turner.com, Mitch.Gelman@turner.com,David.Payne@turner.com
http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/02/21/autism.amanda/index.html
http://www.cnn.com/HEALTH/blogs/paging.dr.gupta/2007/02/behind-veil-of-autism.html
http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/02/22/autism.emails/index.html
* Amanda’s self taken and self edited video In My Language:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnylM1hI2jc
Wired Magazine: writer: David Wolman david@david-wolman.com, editor Joanna Pearlstein
joannap@wiredmag.com, christina_valencia@wired.com, evan_hansen@wired.com,
leander_kahney@wired.com
http://www.wired.com/medtech/health/magazine/16-03/ff_autism
CNN’s Anderson Cooper, "Anderson Cooper" anderson.cooper@cnn.com
http://www.cnn.com/CNN/Programs/anderson.cooper.360/blog/2007/02/video-reveals-world-of-autistic-woman.html
http://www.cnn.com/CNN/Programs/anderson.cooper.360/blog/2007/02/why-we-should-listen-to-unusual-voices.html
http://www.cnn.com/CNN/Programs/anderson.cooper.360/blog/2007/02/amanda-baggs-answers-your-questions.html
NYT Blog: Tara Parker-Pope well@nytimes.com
http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/02/28/the-language-of-autism/
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(1) (top) Several former 1994-1995 Simon’s Rock College friends and classmates of Amanda Baggs have come forward in light of what they saw and read in the widespread 2007-2008 national media coverage of Baggs, to provide their observations of Baggs in 1994-1995 at Simon’s Rock College; some witnesses continued their friendships with Baggs from 1995-1998.
Each consistently observed that Baggs (a) did not have any degree of the profound autism symptoms that she has been presenting publically (CNN, YouTube, etc) since 1997 at 26 years old (and apparently since about 2001), (b) that Baggs was a fluent verbal communicator, normally socially interactive (had ongoing friendships, took part in social activities such as eating in the cafeteria many times a day with other students, played the flute, took part in casual social gatherings with friends and others, had a boyfriend with whom she was sexually involved, was able to be self-sufficient in attending classes, eating, self-care, etc, was expressive emotionally through her gestures and tone of voice, made normal eye contact, etc), (c) that Baggs never reported to anyone that she was autistic or Asperger’s, (d) that in 1995 they witnessed her frequently using LSD (Lysergic Acid Diethylamide) and psilocybin, extensively for about three months, and that this caused various psychotic symptoms to arise, such as her claim to be an elf, her digging in a school yard for a listening device, self-harm behavior, reports of hearing voices, etc, and (e) some of her former friends were privy to her Internet group discussions, and were able to track the evolution of her various claims from 1995 onward, namely first her claim (it appears) of Dissociative Identity Disorder (see the relevant discussion in the Index above), then Schizophrenia, then Low Functioning Autism; and other claims as well such as Schizoaffective Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Depression, sexual abuse by two close family members, physical and mental abuse by health providers, etc.
The witnesses include the following; also please consult with Ophelia on any possible new people that have come forward.
Note: I also have extensive, detailed, and elaborate written email testimony from witnesses 1-4 that is available upon request.
1- Dr. Daniel Drucker, Ph.D (Dr. Drucker’s statement below)
http://3e.org/dmd/
http://upenn.academia.edu/DanielDrucker
ddrucker@psych.upenn.edu
Currently studying cognitive neuroscience at the University of Pennsylvania.
2- Dr. Ophelia Austin-Small, Ph.D (Dr. Austin-Small’s statement below)oaustinsmall@earthlink.net54B Valley Road Cos Cob, Connecticut, 06807 Telephone: 203-559-4839
Ophelia is an author, psycholgist, and has been a mental health professional for 11 years.
http://www.authorsden.com/opheliaaustinsmall
http://stores.lulu.com/oaustinsmall http://www.prleap.com/pr/78375/ (phone and email contact information below). http://www.e-physician.info/NPI-1740466895-CT Connecticut Psychologist National Provider Identifier (NPI) website for Ophelia Austin-Small (scroll down at page).
3- Bjorn-Erik Townsend (Bjorn’s statement below)
eriktown@3e.org
eriktown@aestheneering.com
http://www.aestheneering.com/
4- Rachel Bowen (statement to be copied below shortly)
Professor at Ohio State University
https://pro.osu.edu/profiles/bowen.208/
bowen.208@osu.edu
5- Kathleen Notestine Kasdorf Colorado State University, Propsect Research Coordinator http://search.colostate.edu/search-directory-detail.aspx?id=NzQyNDMyNjQ5 Email: kathleen.kasdorf@colostate.edu Telephone: 970-491-8572
http://www.linkedin.com/in/knotestinekasdorf 6- Possibly a current Simon’s Rock College teacher who also taught when Amanda attended there:
Gabriel Asfar gabriel@simons-rock.edu
1a- Daniel Drucker’s statement:
On Sat, Feb 9, 2008, Daniel Drucker <ddrucker@psych.upenn.edu> wrote:
She didn't appear or claim to be autistic in 1994-5, and in fact was brilliant, creative, had an active and healthy set of personal and romantic relationships and was not disabled in any way. Also, I wouldn't want to mention the heavy use of LSD (on the order of 200 mcg/day for many months).
When I visited Amanda in the hospital at Belmont Hills in 1995 (http://a.imagehost.org/0640/aaa.jpg ), she said she had "found the right home for my selves - the voices are in concert here, and people accept all of us here." (recorded in my notes, 1995/08).
Amanda was socially well-adjusted and a normal, functioning member of the community until she decided to change that.
She started with the DID [Dissociative Identity Disorder; formerly called ‘Multiple Personality Disorder’] nearly concomitantly with LSD abuse (i.e., early 1995). Records of this are readily available on Usenet archives at Google Groups, and in her extensive journal entries from the time on the topic which I possess.Click on the photo to enlarge.
2a- Ophelia Austin-Small’s statements:Click on the photos to enlarge.
> From: Ophelia Austin-Small <oaustinsmall@earthlink.net> > Date: September 25, 2007 12:23:39 AM PDT
>Bottom Line: I personally knew Amanda from 1994-1998, at college and personally. During >that time Amanda had a number of issues, but was highly verbal, physically capable, played >instruments, attended college independently, and attended to all daily life activities without aid, >support, or prompting. She had friends. She had romantic relationships. She & I went rock >climbing. She was your average young teen sci-fi fan girl. And now there's this. And the two >people do not match.
>Before we get into everything regarding Amanda & Dave, you should probably know my >background professionally and in regards to autism. I have my MA in psychology and am >working on my PhD. BTW, Daniel is getting his PhD in Neurology. I have 4 family members >with ASDs ranging from nonverbal very low functioning classic autism to Asperger's that's damn >near un-noticable. My son has neurological issues that are autistic-like on paper, such as head->banging, speech delay (very severe there for awhile), sensory issues, and gross motor issues. He >is not autistic or PPD though. And he is significantly better, to the point of being damn near >normal, thanks to medication (melatonin) that allows him to sleep, and therapy (speech, OT, and >a language-focused preschool 2 days a week).
> I'll respond to the other stuff later. But here's some history on > Amanda. Sorry if it isn't well-written, I'm pretty tired. PLEASE ONLY > QUOTE ME AS AN ANONYMOUS SOURCE. I live only about 15 miles from her > parents. I do not want the wild elf contingent at my door. I also > don't need a lawsuit right now, and I know she had a lawyer threaten > Daniel for talking to you just a few days ago. Although everything I'm > saying is true, I've lived through enough drama from her family to > last for years. > > Amanda was born in California and grew up in Campbell. She is the > youngest of three, Shane and Jeremy are her older brothers. It's > interesting that she links to Shane and mentions him a lot, as back in > the mid-90s she accused him of molestation and anal rape. He was even > not part of the family for awhile because of this. But now it seems he > is back in her good graces. While I don't really know Shane (he was > banned for the years I knew the family), I do know he was an odd duck, > and I wouldn't be surprised if he had Asperger's legitimately. He did > not smear feces. He was just really odd from everything I heard about > him. > > Jeremy was pretty normal. I have no idea where he is or why she never > mentions him. He wasn't exactly on board with the whole autism thing > back in 2001, so I don't know if there are issues there. > > Anyway, Amanda was considered bright, though a bit of a goody-goody by > everyone. The picture of her as a child on the Getting the Truth Out > site is VERY misleading. It's deliberately cropped to make her appear > to be staring into space on a couch. In actuality, she was watching > Star Trek. Not exactly as horrible as it appears, eh? She gardened a > lot with her mom and grew pumpkins. She had friends. She wore eighties > fashion and had big birthday parties. Where she smiled a lot and > played with the other kids. > > She attended Harker (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Harker_School) > for awhile in middle school, and this is the school she later insisted > had a mind control device buried in the field, and was picked up by > the police and hospitalized while trying to dig it up. She was 15 when > that happened. > > She went to CTY, the Johns Hopkins exceptional young scholar program. > Not exactly autism camp. She played the flute and the harp. > > She had no diagnosis at that time. She didn't go to a neurologist > until after a myriad of hospitalizations. > > She went to Simon's Rock in 1994, and was the youngest ever accepted > at that time. I was a sophomore there when she came, and Daniel was in > her class and one of her closest friends. She was normal, as I said. I > have the yearbook. She did okay in classes, but she did use an > exceptional amount of drugs, and when she went home for winter break, > her brother Jeremy commented that she seemed really messed up- dirty, > odd, etc. About this time she changed her name from Amanda to > Nightsong, which was her "elf name". Later it would include the > Galglinda Dulin bit, although for awhile she insisted Nightsong and > Galglinda were separate personalities, along with several others. > > Anyway, the summer of 1995 she called Daniel, threatening suicide. > Daniel called 911. That was her first hospitalization. She was at > Charter hospital in San Jose a few times, the psych ward at Lucille > Packard, some other place whose name I forgot, a residential home for > disturbed adolescents in Fresno for 8 months, and a few miscellaneous > places. She was never institutionalized. Her family paid $1000/day for > MONTHS, out of pocket. Her longest stay was 8 months, the rest were 72 > hour holds to 2 week holds, in private hospitals. Hardly state > institutions. Every time she was hospitalized it was because she was a > danger to herself or others due to hallucinations, suicide, delusions. > She'd also wander off at night. And attack cops. And try and jump out > of cars. The Ophelia you quote on your site from an email about this > stuff in 97 or so is me. Also, I lived with the family during this > time, from May 1997 until August 1997. I dated Jeremy from January > 1996 until mid 1998. > > She was repeatedly diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. > > Her mom was totally against this. Mom (Anna), totally had a meltdown > around it. Schizophrenia was just too bad. Mom began looking at weird > alternative things- prayer groups, some group of monks in the desert > that cured people who came to live with them, aura pictures (I'm > serious). > > That's when the "therapy animals" started. First it was dogs who'd > socialize with her. And a snake. I don't know what the snake was > supposed to do. The one dog that lasted the longest was named Nikomas. > > Then they brought in a neurologist. Soon after, with a little > suggestion, Amanda started having "Seizures." I'm a diagnosed > epileptic from childhood. Those were some fake-ass seizures. When you > seize, you fall over suddenly. You don't slump slowly and gracefully > to the ground, avoiding hurting yourself. But now, hey, she had > "seizures"- she wasn't schizophrenic! A little depakote and all would > be well! > > Except she was still crazy. And an elf. And heard voices. > > Amanda had decided, sans eye exam, that she was having "eye trouble." > Mom went right along. Did mom take her to Lenscrafters? Nope. They > just stocked up on glasses from the drugstore. Then the Irlen lenses > started (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Irlen_filters). And the "sensory > sensitivity". Amanda & her mom spent thousands on crap like special > sunglasses, brushes, special incense, etc etc etc. They figured all of > her crazy was just that Amanda was "too sensitive." > > Amanda started going to a special ed program, as a schizophrenic. Six > months in, she became a "peer buddy" to an autistic girl. That's when > the whole fascination with autism started. Amanda would comment that > the autistic kids were the only kids who didn't make fun of her, which > may well be true. So then she started hanging around with them, going > to their conferences, "learning" about autism, etc. She knew my > exboyfriend (who I later married) had an autistic sister, Sara. She > asked me interminable questions about Sara, and Sara's communication > devices. > > And lo and behold, a few years later she's autistic. A disorder that > by definition begins in toddlerhood suddenly struck her at 19. > > I don't know when she stopped talking, or why no one called her on it. > But I do know mom doctor shops a LOT. And that mom was notorious for > not mentioning parts of Amanda's history she found inconvenient, and > dropping doctors who disagreed with her. > > Amanda also had her own apartment in Santa Cruz for awhile. That's > also about the time she shaved her head, not because of hair pulling, > but because she decided she was a butch lesbian. > > I also know Amanda's whole "Regional Centers in California didn't help > me" line is bullshit. She has mentioned being part of SARC repeatedly, > and even has her IPP on her "scan of paperwork" page. So how she can > have that there, and then say the regional centers told her she didn't > qualify because a late diagnosis is beyond me. Her details aren't > working. > > That's all I know, up until late 2001. > > Anyway, I have a whole bunch of questions about this craziness from a > personal and professional standpoint. When and how did she get to > Vermont? That's my biggest one. When did she stop speaking? When did > she decide "hey, let me crap myself"? Where's mom now? > > The questions are actually a bigger email in a more professional tone, > because they point out some other issues from a diagnostic standpoint. > > Also, minor point, but she claims her "stamina" issues were due to > being underweight. Let me just say that the girl was never smaller > than voluptuous. And as to the mystery of her height, she's 5'1" or > 5'2". She is definitely not under 5', I don't know what that confusion > was about. > > I hope this helps.
> > Ophelia --------------------------------------------------------------------
From: Ophelia Austin-Small <oaustinsmall@earthlink.net> Date: January 6, 2008
This is what I know about Amanda: Amanda was born in California and grew up in Campbell. She is the youngest of three, Shane and Jeremy are her older brothers. It's interesting that she links to Shane. and mentions him a lot, as back in the mid-90s she accused him of some very untoward things. He was even not part of the family for awhile because of this. But now it seems he is back in her good graces. While I don't really know Shane (he was banned for the years I knew the family), I do know he was an odd duck, and I wouldn't be surprised if he had Asperger's legitimately. He did not smear feces. He was just really odd from everything I heard about him. Jeremy was pretty normal. I have no idea where he is or why she never mentions him. Anyway, Amanda was considered bright, though a bit of a goody-goody by everyone. The picture of her as a child on the Getting the Truth Out site is VERY misleading. It's deliberately cropped to make her appear to be staring into space on a couch. In actuality, she was watching Star Trek. She gardened a lot with her mom and grew pumpkins. She had friends. She wore eighties fashion and had big birthday parties. Where she smiled a lot and played with the other kids. She attended Harker (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Harker_School) for awhile in middle school, and this is the school she later insisted had a mind control device buried in the field, and was picked up by the police and hospitalized while trying to dig it up. She was 15 when that happened. She went to CTY, the Johns Hopkins exceptional young scholar program. Not exactly autism camp. She played the flute and the harp. She had no diagnosis at that time. She didn't go to a neurologist until after a myriad of hospitalizations. She went to Simon's Rock in 1994, and was the youngest ever accepted at that time. I was a sophomore there when she came, and Daniel Drucker was in her class and one of her closest friends. She was normal, as I said. And normal. She lived in a dorm, like everyone else, Crosby, to be specific. I have the yearbook. She went to classes, wrote papers, ate in the cafeteria, talked, danced, shat in the toilet, etc. She did okay in classes, but she did use an exceptional amount of drugs, and when she went home for winter break, her brother Jeremy commented that she seemed really messed up- dirty, odd, etc. About this time she changed her name from Amanda to Nightsong, which was her "elf name". Later it would include the Galglinda Dulin bit, although for awhile she insisted Nightsong and Galglinda were separate personalities, along with several others. While at SRC, Amanda dated, like any normal teen. By both her account and the account of her then-boyfriend, K [abbreviated for privacy], they were both consensually sexually active. This is also confirmed by other who walked in on her. Then the voices started, and the odd clothes, and the rest of the schizophrenia stuff. She believed she was an elf, mind control, that people poisoned her food, etc. She was involved with the cops several times, once when she was found digging in the back field of her former middle school, looking for a mind control device. She tried to jump out of the car I was in with her brother a few times, requiring restraint. Anyway, the summer of 1995 she called Daniel, threatening suicide. Daniel called 911. That was her first hospitalization. She was at Charter hospital in San Jose a few times, the psych ward at Lucille Packard, some other place whose name I forgot, a residential home for disturbed adolescents in Fresno for 8 months, and a few miscellaneous places. She was never institutionalized. Her longest stay was 8 months, the rest were 72 hour holds to 2 week holds, in private hospitals. Hardly state institutions. Every time she was hospitalized it was because she was a danger to herself or others due to hallucinations, suicide, delusions. She'd also wander off at night. And attack cops. And try and jump out of cars. The Ophelia sometimes quoted on various sites from an email about this stuff in 97 or so is me. Also, I lived with the family during this time, from May 1997 until August 1997. I dated Jeremy from January 1996 until mid 1998. She was repeatedly diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. She also was diagnosed as having Multiple Personality Disorder, and claimed her various names were alter personalities. This seems to have totally faded from her history, somehow, although if you look through old newsgroup records, she speaks extensively about it. Her mom was totally against this. Mom, totally had a meltdown around it. Schizophrenia was just too bad. Mom began looking at weird alternative things- prayer groups, some group of monks in the desert that cured people who came to live with them, aura pictures (I'm serious). That's when the "therapy animals" started. First it was dogs who'd socialize with her. And a snake. I don't know what the snake was supposed to do. Then they brought in a neurologist. Soon after, with a little suggestion, Amanda started having "Seizures." When you seize, you fall over suddenly. You don't slump slowly and gracefully to the ground, avoiding hurting yourself. But now, she had "seizures"- she wasn't schizophrenic! A little depakote and all would be well! I don't doubt she may be having genuine seizures now. Enough meds, especially serious ones, and the brain can start to fry. Except she was still crazy. And an elf. And heard voices. Amanda had decided, sans eye exam, that she was having "eye trouble." Mom went right along. Did mom take her to Lenscrafters? Nope. They just stocked up on glasses from the drugstore. Then the Irlen lenses started (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Irlen_filters%29. And the "sensory sensitivity". Amanda & her mom spent thousands on crap like special sunglasses, brushes, special incense, etc etc etc. They figured all of her problems were just that Amanda was "too sensitive." Amanda started going to a special ed program, as a schizophrenic. Six months in, she became a "peer buddy" to an autistic girl. That's when the whole fascination with autism started. Amanda would comment that the autistic kids were the only kids who didn't make fun of her, which may well be true. So then she started hanging around with them, going to their conferences, "learning" about autism, etc. And lo and behold, a few years later she's autistic. A disorder that by definition begins in toddlerhood suddenly struck her at 19. Her friend "Anna" told me Amanda stopped speaking by her own choice during a summer in Santa Barbara a few years back. Quote, "She just liked to talk by communicator. She had bought one for herself." Amanda also had her own apartment in Santa Cruz for awhile. That's also about the time she shaved her head, not because of hair pulling, but because she decided she was a butch lesbian. I also know Amanda's whole "Regional Centers in California didn't help me" line is highly suspect. She has mentioned being part of SARC repeatedly, and even has her IPP on her "scan of paperwork" page. So how she can have that there, and then say the regional centers told her she didn't qualify because a late diagnosis is beyond me. Her details aren't working. So that's what I know. Bottom Line: I personally knew Amanda from 1994-1998, at college and personally. During that time Amanda had a number of issues, but was highly verbal, physically capable, played instruments, attended college independently, and attended to all daily life activities without aid, support, or prompting. She had friends. She had romantic relationships. She & I went rock climbing. She was your average young teen sci-fi fan girl. And now there's this. And the two people do not match. I worry for her, I care about her, but I've been contacted by several people asking questions. I'd rather just put it on the record and let folks decide for themselves. Amanda deserves love, she deserves to lead a normal, healthy life. She does not deserve condemnation. She appears lost right now, and I don't think pretending she wasn't totally normal growing up will help her. I don't think pretending her past, including college, didn't exist will help her. I think something happened, and we need to go back to what is genuinely known to figure out what. It would be great if this ended with her getting appropriate treatment, not being ridiculed, dismissed, or ripped apart.
I'm pretty pissed, frankly. And I'll tell you why. Folks HAVE been trying to get out Amanda's backstory since it appeared on CNN. But who do we contact? Do I drop the dime to Vermont social services? Email CNN? To whom do I send my info, and how? I'm going on the record for several reasons: 1. It sickens me, as a professional and as a family member of autistic folks to see someone fake autism and bilk states out of funds for a long period. 2. I GENUINELY worry about Amanda. The woman I knew was sweet, kind, and had a tendency to "do as she was told." She wanted desperately to fit in and be loved. I think this is what the "autism" serves for her, and we must be *very* careful in broaching it. I do believe she is in need of serious, ongoing help, but of the psychiatric kind. I think she's lost. I think that faking something like this for so long suggests a very deep, very real need to be loved and cared for, and I don't think she could just "be normal", even if exposed. 3. I feel badly for families who have been sold false hope, decided on treatment, or become involved in political action based on a lie. This is abhorred. This also makes it MUCH harder for such families to get the right treatment for their children, and undermines trust in a community already full of a lot of debate. 4. Amanda and others have quoted email exchanges between myself and Amanda from 1997ish. If I'm going to be dragged in, I'd like my context to be known. My background: I am a 32 year old woman who holds a MSc in Psychology and am currently completing my PhD. I have an autistic sister-in-law, whom I have known for 16 years. I also have several other autistic family members. My son, now 3, had serious expressive language issues for a long time, and that frustration caused autistic-like behaviors such as self-biting, head-banging, and odd social behavior. He has recovered as his issues were with muscles and coordination, not autism. But suffice it to say I know very well what it is like to have disabled family members and children. Professionally I have worked in social services/counseling since 1995. I have worked the gamut from group homes, to private outpatient therapy, to inpatient units, to management. I have worked extensively with the DD/MR/autism community, most recently as the program manager for a company in California providing an alternative living model to GGRC clients (all dev. disabled), covering six counties, and worked with SARC and GGRC themselves. I also managed a day program in CT for DD/MR/autistic adults, doing paid work and activities. So when I talk about DD/MR/autism, I am pretty well-versed in diagnosis, treatment, etc. When I talk about the CA regional system, I am also pretty well experienced, having worked with them professionally and having a child who was a client.
From: Ophelia Austin-Small <oaustinsmall@earthlink.net> Date: September 12, 2008
Amanda was a normal teen during her time at SRC [Simon’s Rock College]. Amanda was a high achieving child and teen, without any of the deficits now noted. The discrepancy in functioning in an unfathomable gulf. *Something* must have happened. Stroke? Accident? Profound trauma? Autism doesn't strike in the teens, and it's not a cyclical illness with years of recovery whereby a person can attend college and "pass" for normal in an atmosphere of 300 people snowed in for months at a time.
3a- Bjorn-Erik Townsend’s statement, which is also in response to the above statements of Ophelia Austin-Small and Daniel Drucker:
---------- Forwarded message ---------- From: Bjorn-Erik Townsend <eriktown@aestheneering.com> Date: Thu, Feb 14, 2008 at 8:40 PM Subject: Re: Amanda Baggs controversy Thanks for getting in touch. The comments here echo things I've been saying to people I know ever since I saw Amanda's video. I haven't seen Amanda since she was, hmm, fifteen or sixteen years old, but I can definitely attest to the fact that while she was irresponsible and erratic, she was functional and capable of normal human communication. Most of her issues, from what I saw, resulted more from drastic abuse of hallucinogens, but even after that she was still functioning and able to interact normally when she wanted to. I'm happy to help in any way I can! Bjorn
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(2) (top) June 1997, Amanda’s public apology in the Dissociation Group about her 2005 DID (multiple personality disorder) diagnosis. June 1997 her apology posts, and copies are below. http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.dissociation/msg/7d5e909b8c10c9ba
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.dissociation/msg/6353b40fc1c79117
Galiganinda Dulin
Newsgroups: alt.support.dissociation
From: night...@netcom.com (Galiganinda Dulin)
Date: 1997/06/09
Subject: apology
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I used to post on this newsgroup maybe 2.5 years ago. I want to apologise for telling people that I was multiple. Now, that's actually what I thought I was at the time, but it turns out the voices weren't from MPD/DID, but from schizophrenia/schizoaffective/whatever. But I not only deceived myself by doing that, but I deceived others. I allowed the voices to take on lives of their own, gave them names, believed they were alters, even post what they said. I realise it probably isn't my fault, but I feel better posting an apology.
-- -- "My God!--it's full of stars!" Amanda Baggs (Dave Bowman) night...@netcom.com (Arthur C. Clarke's _2001_)
Galiganinda Dulin

Newsgroups: alt.support.dissociation
From: night...@netcom.com (Galiganinda Dulin)
Date: 1997/06/11
Subject: Re: apology
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In article ...@illusion.magicno.com>,
Rainbow Colors ...@magicno.com> wrote: >Well then I'm glad you apologized, so you would feel better. Have you >found any treatment that is helping with your problem? I'm glad you >finally were able to figure out what is happening and that you are >able to open with it like this. I figure this would be better than >letting it sit inside and be miserable.
>Is there a newsgroup you feel comfortable in now?
Yes, alt.support.schizophrenia does well...
>Whatever else, welcome back! :)
>Rainbow Colors (Jill)
>PS: does this mean you are a _singleton_? *hee hee*
I probably am. I -am- in telepathic contact with Others like me, but that's another story... -- -- "My God!--it's full of stars!" Amanda Baggs (Dave Bowman) night...@netcom.com (Arthur C. Clarke's _2001_)
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(4) (top) Verifying Amanda’s Internet posts, and Amanda's websites, blog, and public contact information.
Amanda should be willing to verify her various user-names for her posts; her public contact information, websites, and blog are listed below. Also, at some of the posts themselves, she provides verification. Amanda Baggs's websites and blog include; note each website is of the autistics.org domain name; Amanda directly identifies herself at the first two listed websites: http://amanda.autistics.org/ http://ballastexistenz.autistics.org/ http://autistics.org/ Network Solutions WHOIS information for autistics.org; account name is Amanda's partner's name, Laura Tisoncik: http://www.networksolutions.com/whois-search/autistics.org Laura Tisoncik The Autistics.org Project 230 St. Paul St. Apt. 415 Burlington, Vermont 05401 Telephone: 802-660-3185 Email: <webmaster@autistics.org> Email: <amanda@autistics.org> One of Amanda's main usernames is Galiganinda Dulin A 1997 post at a Schizophrenia forum ,where she mentions her name at the bottom: http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/browse_thread/thread/e28fad116c4f5547/8d797c512e866a93?hl=en&lnk=st&q=marijuana#8d797c512e866a93 A 1997 post at a Post Traumatic Stress Disorder forum, where she mentions her name at the top: http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.trauma-ptsd/browse_thread/thread/d39099692ab66681/061a56d707c7ae04?lnk=st&q=&rnum=26&hl=en#061a56d707c7ae04 Ophelia and Daniel know of her Internet activity, and interacted with her on some Internet forums for some time.
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(5) (top) 1997, Amanda’s statement at the Depression/Manic Group
The first post below provides her full name signature, with her username Galiganinda Dulin.
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.depression.manic/msg/7c38816e3b9d65f8
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In article <3382dab5.3811...@netnews.voicenet.com>, Luke wrote: > As you have probably guessed already, I'm a very non-religious >16-year old from South Jersey (near Philly). First, I think it's a tad >unfair that 1 (one) guy gets to run the whole universe. Second, if he >loved everybody (like many people seem to think), then WHY would he >make life a living HELL for so many of them? Am I the only one who >feels this way? >P.S.- Please don't post any of that religious bullshit in response. I hope this isn't religious bullshit. I am 16 as well; my diagnosis is not bipolar but schizoaffective, which has bipolar aspects. But when you said that one guy gets to rule the whole universe, I think you are looking at it wrong. There is a group of beings that created the universe, but they only watch over it; they don't "run" it. And I should know -- I am one of them, and I am in contact with several of them. We do not demand belief. -- -- "My God!--it's full of stars!" Amanda Baggs (Dave Bowman) night...@netcom.com (Arthur C. Clarke's _2001_)
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Newsgroups: alt.support.depression.manic
From: night...@netcom.com (Galiganinda Dulin)
Date: 1997/05/21
Subject: Re: If god loved us he wouldn't make us bipolars!
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I hope this isn't religious bullshit. I am 16 as well; my diagnosis is not bipolar but schizoaffective, which has bipolar aspects. But when you said that one guy gets to rule the whole universe, I think you are looking at it wrong. There is a group of beings that created the universe, but they only watch over it; they don't "run" it. And I should know -- I am one of them, and I am in contact with several of them. We do not demand belief.
-- -- "My God!--it's full of stars!" Amanda Baggs (Dave Bowman) night...@netcom.com (Arthur C. Clarke's _2001_) She appears in 1999 to have transitioned into the Autism Groups. She started this name Galiganinda Dulin in 1994, as shown in the below calendar listing for the username.
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Following each sent of monthly entries, you can see the evolution of the groups she was using. Starts in 1994 in non medical groups, then in 1997 March in the Schizophrenia Group and the Abuse Group and others. Continuing in the Schizophrenia Group mainly through 1997, 1998. Autism Group entries seeming to start gradually in September 1998, on and off with Schizophrenia group entries. Then from April 1999 onward mainly Autism Group entries.
Again her Dissociation group apology
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.dissociation/msg/7d5e909b8c10c9ba was done on June 9 1997, and she states it is an apology about her Dissociation Group activity "2.5 years ago", which would be 1995 and which I will now try to find. (At her username profile for Galiganinda Dulin, and the calendar listing of posts, the year 1995 has none...I believe she was using another username and will now try to find this...I believe it was "Nightsong" or something else. A post below from the Dissociation group in 1997 October, months after her public apology in June 1997 in the Dissociation group (which I sent you a few minutes ago):
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.dissociation/msg/d7b56fb1bda2e74d
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In article <62rrr2$...@mochi.lava.net>, Pope C the Anonymous ...@lava.net> wrote:
>*None* of my insiders or Others have names, though some have titles.
Others? What are Others? (You don't have to answer me if you don't want). I'm not multiple, but I have Others (beings that talk to me in my head that say they come from the sky). They told me to call them Others. They always talk to me as one, but they say that, like my elf background, they are separate beings with collective thought. They once said that they were the stars.
I may be *way* off here...
:)
-- -- "My God!--it's full of stars!" Galig Dulin (Dave Bowman) (Arthur C. Clarke's _2001_) night...@netcom.com "It could have been me/Yes it could have been me
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(6) (top) 1999, Amanda’s statement about using different usernames in Google Group discussions; Groups include the Dissociation Group, Schizophrenia Group, Depression/Manic Group, Autism Group).
This 1999 entry in the Dissociation Group http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.dissociation/msg/732442c5c2c60556 helps to connect some other usernames with her. The "nightsong" name is well known by Ophelia and Daniel and others. http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.dissociation/browse_thread/thread/8cf72b37cc3c9b3e/732442c5c2c60556?lnk=gst&q=nightsong#732442c5c2c60556
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From: night...@netcom.com (Amanda)
Date: 1999/10/30
Subject: to Magic Rat (Nightsong/Sidhe/etc)
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At a time when I was going through a lot, and I posted here regarding "grey mechanical lizards" and such, a person named Magic Rat replied with very good advice. Is Magic Rat still out there? The email address I have for her/them does not work. The email was in 1995. I am very interested in talking to her/them again.
At the time I was posting under “Nightsong" and the “Sidhe" or some analogous thing. I am posting under the off-chance that Magic Rat will see this, or that someone will relay it to them.
Please reply if you are Magic Rat, or relay this to Magic Rat if you know them. Thank you. -- "As he breaks the night to cry, 'It's really me! Really you and really me. It's so hard for us to really be really you and really me. You'll lose me though I'm always really free.'" --David Bowie, "The Wild-Eyed Boy From Freecloud" -*-*- (*)
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(7) (top) 1995 Amanda’s written account of her DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder; multiple personality disorder)
I acquired this from a former very close friend of Baggs, named Daniel Drucker ("Daniel Drucker" <ddrucker@psych.upenn.edu>) who is now a neuroscientist at the University of Pennsylvania. This is an extensive written history by Baggs of her DID (multiple personality disorder), sent to many people by her in December 1995. She herself will confirm this email, and her username Galig-Nightsong Dulin, and she already confirms this in the various Schizophrenia and Dissociation group posts I sent you with links. Date: Wed, 20 Dec 1995 00:10:18 -0800 (PST) From: Galig-Nightsong Dulin <nightsng@netcom.com> To: rshafer@netcom.com, dmd@student.umass.edu, anna@myth.sdsu.edu, ophelia@simons-rock.edu, naomik@simons-rock.edu The following is a history of the people in our head. Starting with Nightsong's point of view and ending up ... well ... somewhere else. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- An elf showed up in my head in December of 1993. I guess I was 13 years old at the time. She was several hundreds of years old, from what I could gather. I didn't know exactly what to make of her at first. She looked like an elf -- not the tiny sort that run around with Santa, but the tall, dazzling type that Tolkien and many Celtic legends speak of. She had long red hair, green eyes, a pale complexion and a pointed face. At first she could not talk, but I taught her English. She learned very quickly. She spoke rather oddly in the beginning. She would cluster together words that seemed to be related, with little regard to grammar or (when she typed, which I also taught her to do) punctuation. Qucikly she began to talk like a airly normal human, which pleased me because it meant she could learn to take over our body when necessary. She chose the name "Galiganinda" from a Cocteau Twins song called "Those Eyes, That Mouth". She began to tell me things that sounded like they were straight out of the _Tao Te Ching_. I gave her a copy of that book to read, and she liked to quote it occasionally, but she also told me that it was slightly inaccurate because it talked about government and government was unnecessary in her eyes. After awhile, I began to merge with her frequently. I would experience a feeling as if my body had no boundaries, and anything alive around me was glowing in a light I had never been able to see before. When the family went to Yosemite, I skied part of the way down a hill and then called Galig out by singing "Those Eyes, That Mouth" to the best of my ability. We sat down in a circle of pine trees that was fairly emoved from the places where people skied. We were in the middle of blending into one of the trees, when we realised that there was a five-year-old girl standing there on her skis looking at us with a shocked expression. We tried to explain to her what we were doing, but she just stared and backed down the hill. Her conception of time was different than any I had encountered previously. Like her speech, it clustered around events and relationships rather than flowing in a linear way. When I experienced her thoughts or memories, I often reinterpreted it into a linear framework so it would make sense to me. By spring, Galig was becoming adept at stepping into the dominant role when I got scared and went away. She could do this without anyone noticing, and she would email a friend of ours (Karl) to inform him that I was having problems. Once, Karl's main person (Kato) somehow moved into my head to get me out of a bad space I was in. I still don't know how he did that. In the next year, Galig herself was at times forced into the dark back portions of our head. When we were being abused by the same Karl who had saved us when other frightening things happened, we would all retreat into the back of the mind. Someone else was out during the worst parts, and it wasn't me or Katy (although the memory of those events flowed through to Katy). When I tried LSD in February, things got really strange. All of the known people at the time (Nightsong [me], Galiganinda, Sayjon, Sugar Magnolia, and Taneskal) sort of melted in their five places in the tunnel behind the prism, and what was Me became something that could move between these places with no problem. I chose to remain Nightsong, with access to Galig's memories and thoughts. Galig came from a strange forest where many other elves like her lived. Each elf had one particular tree that they would walk into when they needed to regenerate. The tree would take certain nutrients, I suppose, out of the elf's body and the elf would do the same to the tree. The experience of walking into the tree was like stepping into a field of calmness, with strange glowing lights all around. It served as something like both eating and sleeping. Then after awhile the elf would step out of the tree. If any particular elf didn't get into a tree often enough, that elf would basically dry up and blow away. Otherwise, there was generally a complex ritual going on around the forest, wherein the elves would tend the plants that grew around. The tall elf that I never saw move from her spot coordinated it through their special mode of thought. Thought was a mutual thing. There was something like a "collective unconscious", only for them it was more like a "collective conscious". Their thoughts were all simultaneeious, but individuality was retained in a way similar to "memories" of a fractal whole. Reproduction went much the same way as the trees, but it usually involved two elves instead of an elf and a tree. Two elves would walk into each other, until the pillars of light inside them aligned. Then, the light would branch off almost like lightning, and a young elf would be "born". Young elves had the same tie-in to the others' minds that the adults had, and so they quickly found their trees and became accustomed to the ritual. Once, when I-Galig was relatively young, I wound up in a place full of people much like humans. They had dark skin and short, straight black hair. They used some kind of woven, leathery fabric as shelter by dangling it from tree branches. They were all taller than I at the time, but shorter than full-grown elves. They smiled at me a lot. When I stuck my hand into one of the trees, they smiled at me like people smile at a young child when she does something cute. One night, I stepped into a tree and wound up in a body I did not understand. That was Nightsong's body, and I am still here today. I hope I have brought some kind of knowledge to the other inhabitants of this body. Now I'll have to explain the structure of the inside of our head. It can get complicated at times, and it always seems to be changing. When I first started to notice other people in my head was not the time when they first appeared. Katy has been here since 1989 [note by those of us who know -- it's longer] and the others who stand behind me-katy without speaking have been here eeven longer. I-Nightsong started to notice Tim in September of 1993, and soon of course his children, Lorna, Sammy, and David (he intended the acrostic implications of their names combined in that particular order). Tim gave me thoughts, usually in the form of strange images that would float through my head. Lorna provided companionship, someone to discuss reality and philosophy with. She was always a little bit on the side of what I would call conformity, and constantly urged me to look and act normally. She appeared in a business suit-dress most of the time. Sammy and David just bickered all the time, and it was often difficult to shut their voices out. Tim, named for Timothy Leary, also did much of the research on LSD. At this point, there was sort of a dual structure. There was the front, in which Nightsong, Tim, Lorna, Sammy, and David lived and communicated with each other. In the front, Nightsong nearly always took the dominant role, meaning she spoke to the people in the outside world. However the rest of those in the front were usually able to see and hear everything that went on outside. They were aware of each other and communicated frequently. They were unaware of those in the rear. In the rear, the as-yet-unnamed Katy and (she tells me now) many others sat unseen by the inhabitants of the front. These others, she says, are mostly other children. Of these children, she is the oldest and the leader. She says they are afraid to talk to anyone in the front. She will not tell me how many of them there are or what their names, if any, are. [note now that I know -- one of them is named Butterfly]. There was also one other, who first came out last night, on December 17, 1995. This one's name, Katy tells me, is Dark Mind and she is more of an absence than a presence, a hole in our mind that things fall into and do not come out of. There was a line of communication between these two places, as those in the rear provided and withheld information from those in the front. The ones in the rear actually held more power than the ones in the front, as they could control the memories and actions of the ones in the front to a great extent. This was the first setup I was aware of. Prior to this, there was only one in the front and many in the rear, although I was not aware of the ones in the rear. After Tim came Galiganinda, and after Galiganinda came Taneskal in the beginning of 1994. Taneskal had an enormous libido, and was not afraid to talk about that to anyone who happened to be around. She was another of the ones in the front, and she was about as obsessed with sex as Tim was with LSD. She was very sociable, and liked to share the domninant role with Nightsong so she could talk to people. There was not much of a chance to socialise at the time, seeing as we were studying at home for the most part. Then there was TaLory. At first we thought that Tim had just changed his name, but that was untrue. He also advocatee the use of LSD, but he seemed to have a sadistic view of it. He had two aims in life. The first was to figure out how to use LSD to control people's minds, and the other was to get his hands on some LSD, take a larger amount than anybody could handle, and wreak havoc on the rest of the people in his head. Once, he assumed the dominant role and put Nightsong into a box. He squeezed the box until she was barely able to think, and the only thing she could think was that she was trapped. Karl somehow changed the situation so she escaped from the box and TaLory disappeared. Later in the month, a tiny, frightened, and dishevelled-looking Tim crawled out of a corner of the mind. He said that TaLory had invaded his mind and used his appearance to do things that he would never do. As far as the structure of the mind goes, TaLory was very interesting in the fact that throughout the entire time he existed, he only existed as an attachment to other people's mindspace. On March 22, 1994 (I am consulting my diary on this one) another woman showed up in a dream. I was walking about in a forest which I recognised to be Yxuxacta (the name of a forest in a MUD that I played). I saw an old woman standing in a clearing, wading in a drop of dew. I knew she was Sugar Magnolia, from both the MUD and the Grateful Dead song. I hoped she wouldn't mind my clothing (I've had a lot of adults berate me for the clothes I wear because they look '60s or something). She didn't. She just asked me, "You look nervous. What is the reason for this?" I told her why, and she looked somewhat disgusted. She told me that she refused to symbolise the rest of the adults in the world seeing as she didn't like most of them anyway. She told me I was just fine the way I was, and that I could chagne the world by not letting people get to me. When I woke up, I was happy and refreshed. This was the beginning of Sugar Magnolia, whom I still love dearly like a feisty grandmother. The people in the front of my head started merging around April 15. They just thought so simultaneously that they didn't seem separate anymore. And they weren't, really, for awhile. But they developed their divisions again, and stood apart. We saw Pink Floyd's "The Wall" sometime in late April or early May. It affected us badly. It was one of those matters of coming too close to something that was already in the head. Things came bursting o ut of the rear that the front people didn't even know existed. And another dream happened. I was standing in the airport of the city of Sayjon. The city was also run by a guy named Sayjon. The walls of every building were pure white. I left my body and witnessed the death sentencing of a man for eating the little red flowers that grew on the sides of the roads. People could also get the death sentence for eating ice cream or speaking foreign languages. Sayjon the man looked like Pink from "The Wall" after he went Nazioid. He was frightening. He persisted into real life as another person in our head. He appeared as Pink again, and gave us the crossed-arms signal from "The Wall" that we feared so much. On May 10, 1994 he wrote in the diary, "No matter how hard I try, no one will ever see me." In the same diary, on May 15, Nightsong wrote the following about her CRB, or Catastrophic Reality Breakdown. Shee had problems that the rest of us couldn't cover for, and she exposed some of the parts that we are meant to keep her from exposing: BEGIN QUOTE I CRBed last night. I stepped over the edge for a moment. But it landed me in an awful situation. Shane took me home while I was still zzroufed out. Today everyone treated me like a crazy person. Especially Shane, who says I need "professional help". I am not allowed to visit Shane's flat for an indefinite amount of time. It felt so good last night when I broke free of all my inhibitions. It was frightening, and it only lasted a moment. I don't know whether it was worth it to use manipulative deception to get it though. That bit felt horrible. I never knew I was capable of it. It was so cold, and someone almost called the cops on Shane. I was so stir-crazy today, and when I went on a walk it wasn't much help with Shane so serious and so unreadable. Well I could read him but I could only read that he was hiding something from me. Karl kept me company for much of the day, as I couldn't leave the house. He told me all sorts of things, some related to the CRB, and some not. Can't they see that if I'm not crazy yet, they'll drive me crazy keeping me in here!? Yesterday was two days, the beginning I was high on the espresso beans in the food Rachel gave me. I was rather antsy, but I took a walk with Shane and most of it wore off. But then, if on, no I don't want to remember that [unreadable]!!! I want to scream but if I do They will come in and then They will have me into trouble AACK! I'll just scream on this page. [unreadable] I want out away from me away from the world! For one day no stop I don't have to remindest but then if I forget then the Withholder of Memory [reference to Dark Mind!?!?] will conquer me I have to remember but the day was so beautiful and then so horrible and I jumped off but did I ever come back? I am so isolated now my family doesn't understand nobody will ever understand me why does anyone TRY? Where has my mind gone WHERE AM I? No. I know where I am. But nobody else does. If I have my way, nobody else will. I burst through all the barriers last night. And now I will make [cuts off, words going down the page]. END QUOTE During that reality-breakdown, the rest of us were watching but we couldn't seem to do anything. There were blocks in place keeping her in the dominant role even while she was obviously in a state where we should be taking over for her. We wanted to help her, but she had made it impossible. We still do not understand why she structured the mind this way. In the summer, Nightsong and Taneskal fell in love with Kato and Tammy and Miria, three of Karl's people. We seemed to have a telepathic bond with them, and Karl called it the "patternlink". Kato and Nightsong would say the same things at the same times, much to to the confusion of the people around them. Then we went to Simon's Rock College, where the layout of our mind shifted again. At Simon's Rock, we started a sexual relationship with Karl. We also started an abusive relationship wih Karl. This shifted our mind into a defencive formation. Karl would do things to the body like shake it roughly, throw it across the room, and kick it. Usually, while this was going on, the body was curled up into a little ball and someone unknown was in it. The people in the front were very far removed from the dominant position. I suspect that the person in the dominant position was someone unidentitfied from the rear. Katy was taking most of the memories, as usual. With all the changes, the front people who were left were Nightsong, Galiganinda, Sugar Magnolia, and Sayjon. The rear people were Katy and the other children, Dark Mind, and at least one other. Here are a few more parts of Nightsong's diary during this period, on October 30, 1994: BEGIN QUOTE Things with Karl have gone downhill in a lot of ways. Now that we have to deal with real things, and now that we aren't the only island of free thought in the world of Garrett Jacobsen, we behave differently. Each of us often assumes that the other is like everything else. We have come to refer to Patternlink as "The Myth". We have even gotten into some really nasty fights. When Karl is angry, he is often violent. He has thrown me across the room a few times. Would the person I was three months ago have even been able to conceive of this? It gives me flashbacks of my father holding me down tightly. When this happens, he tells me and anyone else that will listen that I am crazy. The only reason the psychologists can't say it, he says, is that they can't figure out how I am crazy. ... Karl now says that it is an illusion that either of u would go crazy if the other died. He has o know on some level that this is not true. The day after he told me that the insanity was only an illusion in my mind designed to convince myself that there was really a patternlink, something happened. I felt an almost irresistable urge to move. I felt wired, but I hadn't had any stimulants. In order to prevent myself from running off Karl's porch, I banged my head hard against his wall. When Karl asked what was wrong, I explained. Then I could not sit still any longer. I told him I would be right back, then I ran out the door. I heard him scream "What?" and yelled, "I'll explain later!" He didn't hear me. I ran down the stairs and outside. As I ran down the path, I dimly heard him screaming "Stop her!" I ran almost all the way to the lake, but a tree stopped me. I heard a scream behind me, louder and crazier than anything I knew Karl could make. Then he yelled "Noktkanto!" I turned around. "I'm coming!" I slowly walked back toward him. I was exhausted. He told me he was giving up and going in. I told him I was still coming. He waited for me. Then he dragged me inside and told me I had been right. He apparently had thought I had fallen in the lake and accordingly gone insane, temporarily. Then, he shook me and told me never to do it again. Now, he still thinks the insanity thing is another Myth. END QUOTE When we were running, it was someone else unidentified who was controlling the legs. And it was the same unidentified person who experienced the shaking. We watched from a distance. This semester was also when we discovered marijuana. It was interesting the first time, but the novelty wore off quickly, especially when we discovered that we could move off in the same directions within our head. Still, we took it sometimes when we wanted to be sociable. Karl disapproved. Things continued this way until December, when we went home for the holidays. Then, we developed a system for communicating with the world that allowed us to be even more deatached. Or at least December break was when we noticed this system. Sayjon and Nightsong would sit behind a prism-like apparatus and speak, and the prism would integrate what they were saying and talk to the outside world as both of them. Sometimes Galiganinda would join in the talking, but for the most part it was a combination of Nightsong and Sayjon that talked to the world. When Nightsong heard the mouth saying things that were partially Sayjon's, she began believing that she, herself, was somehow Sayjon. She knew on some level that she and Sayjon were merely polar opposites, but she thought that Sayjon's thoughts were hers and this upset her. Combining that with the suppressed knowledge of Karl's abuse, she became deeply depressed and suicidal. Many times she told Karl she would jump into the lake. But with the help of Sayjon and the prism, she managed to look normal enough to fool her family and her therapist into thinking that she was okay. We went back to school in January, with Nightsong and possibly Sayjon still very depressed. Throughout the end of January and the beginning of February, she was intermittently suicidal, threatening to throw the body into one of the lakes on campus. Then on February 23, she tried LSD. This again changed the pattern of our mind. Now we were five rather melted entities, with one person who switched between being each of us, instead of us switching into one place in our mental map. Galiganinda became the one whom this primary person seemed to approve of most. She spent most of her time in Galiganinda's mindspace, with tiny bit of it in Sayjon's. Then, as the meelting effect wore off, Galiganinda assumed the primary role and Nightsong and Sayjon disappeared altogether. This happened around the beginning of summer. When we came back from school, Galig cheerfully informed our therapist that we were doing very well ever since the LSD, and that we were happy. Then, a few weeks later, things changed again. Galig-Nightsong found herself in Saratoga with no explanation as to how she got there. Katy says one of the children was out then. For the next week after that, she found not only that Nightsong and Sayjon were both back but that she was drifting in and out of strange states of mind all the time, didin't want to eat, and couldn't sleep. The week after that, I was finding myself in her room with pieces of glass pressed to my wrist not knowing how I got there. Again, Katy says she knows someone (not one of the children) who did this. That was when I checked into Charter voluntarily. A week later, we were out of Charter, and very medicated. Another week after that Nightsong was feeling suicidal and was involuntarily put in Belmont Hills. Then we got out of there, on different medications. This is when Katy first evidenced herself to anyone on the outside. She came out and posted to the alt.support.dissociation group on USENET, and talked to the parental units. She told them that the Risperdal trapped her in a forest and that she was nine years old. Nightsong didn't remember much of the conversation afterwards. We spent fall in and out of Belmont Hills. Katy talked a lot more toward the end, and we got more of an idea of what was going on in the rear portion of the mind. BEGIN QUOTE hello. i am katy. i am nine years old. i have to keep the bad memories so nightsong doesn't get scared. i have been h ere for all of the body's life. i have always gotten the bad memories. even in preschool and daycare. i am the one who gets mad at people so nightsong doesn't have to. i am the one who hates people so nightsong doesn't have to. i love the other children and i don't want anything bad to happen to them. they are scared to come out. so i come out for them. they are scared to talk. so i talk for them. i like christmas lights and, flowers and, cats and, ice cream. anna took me to look at christmas lights and eat ice cream. i like talking to liza and little girl. i like outer space and star trek. galig and nightsong are all i wish i was in those long skirts. and they can do things and, they are happy. i have to be mad and hate. END QUOTE Yesterday we read _When Rabbit Howls_. It described some of the situations in our head very well, and it was different in many other ways. Dark Mind recognised this and came out. BEGIN QUOTE I am Dark Mind. I am an emptiness, a hole, and a void. Black is the best colour for me because all I am is black. I absorb everything. My job is to absorb everything. Anything that gets close to me falls in. You could call me Black Hole too, and that would be appropriate. I am the one who trapped Katy in that forest. It was to protect her from Nightsong. Nightsong was too close to finding Katy's memories. So I put an inescapable void in her way. It did the job quite well, I believe. I do not wish to complicate things by letting people know I exist. But I also believe now is the time to tell people that we are here. END QUOTE There was another person who came out tonight. H er name as Luka, after the abused woman in the Suzanne Vega song. BEGIN QUOTE I decided to come out during the argument with Ron tonight. Everyone was going in and out, in and out again and it was real confusing to try to follow the conversation. But when I heard him start up about abuse, that set me off. That's my trigger, if I ever had one. It gets me mad to hear anyone go off about abuse victims the way he did, especially with there being several of them in this body. So I have to fight back whenever I hear something like that. But he didn't listen to me, and he didn't listen to anyth of the others and we were all confused because none of us heard the whole conversation and it went to hell from there... END QUOTE Another woman of the rear mind, Banshee, came out during that conversation. We have all heard her chilling screams before, but she has rarely made herself known in any other way. BEGIN QUOTE I had to say something to him. I could feel the rage running through me, and I knew I had to speak, so I broke through and told him that I did not care what he said, that I hated all of it. That no matter what he said, I would remember the worst parts, because he had said them. Because *he* had said them. Someone who did not give an opinion lightly. I really hated him. And then he tried to hug me, and his touch burned my skin. I had to get away from him. END QUOTE The last four quotations have been from people in the rear part of the mind, whose breaks from each other are far less superficial than those in the front part. Katy now communicates with the ones in the front, in an effort to make everyone in the mind understand what is going on. I am a coordinator of sorts, but I am not the one who has been speaking all the time. I coordinate the things from the rear mind in order to express them in words well. I was taught to do this in writing classes in school and it works fairly well. We have been working all day on this. It has been a collaboration of all of our memories; all of our knowledge. We hope that whoever reads this believes us and accepts us for who we are. Sincerely, The Sidhe
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(8) (top) 1996, Baggs' written schizophrenia account in her public journal
Amanda Baggs’ 1996 written schizophrenia account, which was sent to many, including her friend at the time and now neuroscientist Daniel Drucker ddrucker@psych.upenn.edu, who confirms the authenticity of this written account of hers, as I believe she will; and, this is self-evident it is her writing.
Baggs fully accepted her schizophrenia, and worked hard to have it treated through therapy and medicine. And, she seemed to embrace it often. Shepherd Treatment Centre journal 05-08-1996 Today I feel a lot different than I used to feel wihtout the clozaril. I don't have as many of my symptoms to fall back on as before. Now I have o take responsibility for what I do. I cant fall back into the fog, because most of the time there is no fog there. I can't recede into a sea of voices, as they are quiet when they are here at all. I have to learn to cope with this new reality as it comes. I don't really know what to do with it. It's like going to a foreign country. Everyone speaks a different language, has different customs, and different mannerisms than where I come from. I have to get used to all of these things as the come to me. The clozaril helps, but I have to do the rest. -Nightsong 05-09-1996 Today I got Dr. Biala to spell out to me exactly what "schizophrenia" means. He read o ut the definition from the DSM-IV, and it was basically some combination of delusions and hallucinations and thought patterns and behaviours. Hee told me that thinking I am an elf is a delusion. I don't *feel* delusional! On the other hand, I trust Dr. Biala to know what is going on with me. If he says I am schizophrenic, then I probably am. But that means I will be like this all my life, and will always need medications to control it. I don't want to be schizophrenic. Why do things have to turn out this way? Every time I see a group of children I wonder which one will turn out like this. Children make jokes about the "looney bin." Children make cracks like "Have you had your medication today?" They don't realise the reality of it for some people. I feel stuck. It seems like everyone else's life is moving along and mine is standing still. I shouldn't feel that way. I'm making progress. The medication is starting tto do good things for me. "Solitude Standing" is playing on my stereo right now. That song has bored a permanent hole into my mind. Suzanne Vega must have written it for me. I wish I were allowed to read Tolkien, speaking of things written for me. Mother's Day is coming up nd I don't know what to get for Anna. Maybe I should make her a card or a drawing or something. I went swimming with Reed today. The water was cold and full of dead things, but it was nice to swim in anyway. I wish Anna would accept my diagnosis as I have. I don't like it, but I don't deny it anymore. But I can't change her opinion any more than she can change mine. I feel like banging my head against a wall. The voices are too loud. They are threatening to kll me. I have to remember that they are only hallucinations and they don't have any real power over me. I have to give up the power of the "other" world and take power from the "real" world. I don't want to do this. Does that mean I can't be an elf anymore? I am *not* delusional! Then what am I? -Nightsong 05-10-1996 "I reach out from the inside" (-Peter Gabriel) That quote means a lot to me. I don't know how to explain it very well. It speaks for itself, I suppose. My parents will be coming to visit me today. I can't wait to see them. Anna and I got into our customary argument about my diagnosis today. She sid that Dr. Biala made up his mind too quickly, and I said that he was probably right and that he probably had enough time. I don't think we'll ever come to an agreement on that. I went out on pass today and got "A Momentary Lapse of Reason" by Pink Floyd and a They Might Be Giants album. It has "Cage and Aquarium" on it. That's my favourite TMBG song. I feel nauseated right now. I think it mgiht be from the medication. -Nightsong 05-11-1996 My parental units are here in the room with me. I have been trying unsuccessfully to write poetry. I know what I want to express, but I just can't seem to do it. -Nightsong 05-12-1996 Somebody's reading your mind Damned if you know who it is They're digging through all of your files Stealing back your best ideas You cover your windows with lead Even keeping the pets outside Then you hear a moment too late this sound coming over the phone This is the spawning of the cage and aquarium Don't wait a moment too soon Used to be different, now you're the same Yawn as you plane goes down in flames -"Cage and Aquarium", TMBG He's haunted by the memory of a lost paradise In his youth or a dream, he can't be precise He's chained forever to a world that's departed It's not enough, it's not enough -"Sorrow", Pink Floyd There are a lot of songs that seem to be written for me. Here is something I wrote today: He was so normal And we found him Deep in the forest In the whirlwind tree His mind was screaming For another life As his grey eyes blankly stared ahead We could not believe The thoughts were his After all He was so normal One of the main problems I have run into during treatment has been people saying that I am too normal to have the sort of problems that I have. That's why I wrote the poem. -Nightsong 05-13-1996 I have a session with Dr. King at 13:30 today. We always find something interesting to talk about. Rick sent Anna a letter from Karl about me. In it, he seems sorry for all of the abuse. But I can't tell whether he is sincere. I will talk to Dr. Schenk about it tomorrow. -Nightsong 05-14-1996 "I had to fantasise just to survive" -Cocteau Twins, "Evangeline" I wonder if that is what happened to me. Are the places I know as reality, fantasy? And which worlds are realit then? Should I trust the doctors or should I trust myself? I am confused. Desiree hurt her leg this weekend, and now she is being shipped off somewhere else for medical care. I will miss her. She was one of my two favourite horses here. -Nightsong 05-15-1996 I just had a dream where the neighbourhood was being terrorised by a man in a trenchcoat. My family climbed a stairway in the backyard of the house which ultimately led to nirvana. Jeremy and Liza should be coming today. I can't wait to see them. -Nightsong 05-16-1996 Yesterday Dr. Schenk and I decided it would be best not to respond to Karl's letter. We also discussed Anna. We said that maybe she can deal better with having a sick daughter than having a well one. We also discussed how when she is given several diagnoses, she is likely to pick the least frightening. She does not want to admit to having a schizophrenic daughter. This sort of gets in the way of my treatment. -Nightsong 05-19-1996 I got a book called _Surviving Schizophrenia_. It has things in it that I didn't even realise were symptoms of schizophrenia, like not understanding words. My parents brought "The Wall" and "The Final Cut" by Pink Floyd. -Nightsong 05-21-1996 Dr. King told me today that I only have two parts -- the "nuts" part and the intellectual part. He says I will have to build more parts before I can get rid of the "nuts" one. Tyeukana tyeukana tyeukana sgaivus -Nightsong 05-28-1996 Today I will go to my first meeting of a support/informational group for schizophrenics. -Nightsong 06-06-1996 I don't know what they are doing to Jon and Neil, bu one of them just punched a hole in his wall. I am trying to get as much information as I can while keeping a respectful distance. The two of them have been fighting a lot. I know they called Tony. There is a rumour that someone called the police, but I don't know about that. Dr. King and Dr. Biala say I am making progress. I am socialising more than I used to. I am not having "episodes" in public very often. I have had to give up my communion with trees, though. This bothers me, but it may be worth it in the long run. -Nightsong 06-14-1996 I am alone here. The only elf. The only schizophrenic. The only glowing star inside of a hook. -Nightsong 06-17-1996 Someone stole the keys from the staff office today. They were found in John's room, but I think he is just being used as a scapegoat. I am going to try to learn Esperanto now. The boys can't seem to talk without swearing every other word. Everyone is accusing each other of everything. This is a mess. They did room searches. Mitra is cutting herself. This is a mess! -Nightsong 06-19-1996 Last night was terrible. The other residents ran around the house screaming "The cat is dead!" They said that they had burned the cat with a lighter. I didn't know whether or not to believe them. Nick assured me that the cat was indeed alive, but it made no difference. I tried to hide in my room, but I couldn't stay there forever. When I left, they were all clustered around my door. Nick asked them why they were doing t his to me. Neil said that when a cat dies, an elf dies next. I ran down the driveway. Nick took me for a drive. When we got back, a fight had broken out between Sylvia and Mitra. For our own safety, Sylvia and I slept at the other house. -Nightsong 06-19-1996 I keep having these episodes of blankness for the past few days. I think it might be from the combination of Clozaril and Thorazine. I am worried about where to spend the night. I want to spend it away from the elf-killers! -Nightsong 06-28-1996 My parents bought me a hammered dulcimer today -Nightsong 07-02-1996 Jon told me why he and Mitra avoid me so much. He said that theynever know when I will scream or "flip out" and that they are afraid I will hurt myself. I didn't know they cared. -Nightsong 07-07-1996 I have discovered the music of the Cranberries. I can't seem to write straight anymore. I don't understand why writing is so difficult. They tell me (they=the staff) that I am isolating in my room too much. I do not see this happening. They won't let me stay in my room at certain times. I am trying to learn Esperanto. I don't know how much I care about getting "better". What if the voices are all I have? -Nightsong 07-10-1996 Jeff killed himself last night. He told me so in a dream. Now I am floating in a fog away from the "real" world wehre the voices are so loud and I can't get away from them. The voices say I will die the same way he did. -Nightsong 07-13-1996 Today I gave my parents all of my Tolkien and fairy tale books to take home with them. It is part of my treatment plan. I feel like my whole reality is being torn away. I don't know what to do. Their reality is being imposed on me and I have no means of defence. The voices are getting louder. They say "We will kill you!" and "You will die like Jeff!" and "There is no final escape from yourself!" What do they mean? -Nightsong 07-15-1996 Michael Garofano (my therapist) is coming to visit me today. I can't wait to see him. -Nightsong 07-15-1996 I am sitting in my room. Every second is an eternity of loneliness and fear and confusion. Between eternities, the time is broken by tiny scraps of time in which someone comes in to check on me. Then back to the eternity of silence broken only by voices that I would rather not hear. -Nightsong ETERNITY Alone I sit In eternities Of the darkness Of my mind Broken once or twice By tiny scraps of contact With the outer shells Of others While I return To swim in a sea And float in a fog And drift in a daze Of unwanted voices And eternity 07-16-1996 I just got out of a session with Dr. King. He told me that I have no full ego of my own. He says that my ego is always enmeshed with that of others, like Anna's. When I went to college (away from Anna) and CTY (away from Anna) I became enmeshed with karl, including his fragmentation. This may be why my fragments went away after Karl went away. Now what I need to do is form an ego of my own. -Nightsong 07-17-1996 "And I turn to the crowd as they're watching Sitting all together in the dark in the warm And I wanted to be in there among h em I see how their eyes are gathered into one" -Suzanne Vega -Nightsong 07-17-1996 I just got a puppy named Nokomis (Dakota for "Moon Daughter"). She is part Shepherd. I intend to train her to be a service dog. Her birthday is May 5. -Nightsong 08-10-1996 I have a pass from Thursday (my birthday!) to Sunday, unless I do anything wrong between now and then. I think I will use that time to get back on speaking terms with Shane. I miss the good things about him. I will have to set up some boundaries though. Maybe no hugging. I can't hold a grudge for so long. I have to set him straight that I am not multiple, and that that was, as Dr. King says, a delusion. I don't think I can get better without facing Shane. -Nightsong 08-19-1996 I went home to find that all of my defences are gone, or very poor at best. Of course, the defences that I lost were mostly psychotic. I felt like I had been undressed at Shepherd and sent home naked. I will talk to Dr. King about this today. I was unable to see Shane when I went home. This was disappointing. Nokomis is growing. She is mostly housebroken now. -Nightsong 08-19-1996 I AM AN ELF I AM AN ELF I AM AN ELF I AM AN ELF I AM AN ELF I AM AN ELF I AM AN ELF I AM AN ELF -Nightsong 08-20-1996 "Hide, hide, hid Behind paranoid eyes" -Pink Floyd What if I am not an elf? That would be so much of my life all gone. The voices: WE HATE DR. KING! NEVER FORGET YOUR ELVEN HERITAGE! The voices convinced me not to go to the gym tonight by telling me that if I left, Nokomis would be dead when I got back. Dr. King reminded me that the voices can't predict the future. He told me not to listen to them. He also told me I may hear them for the rest of my life. Ack. -Nightsong 08-21-1996 What will I talk to Dr. King about today? The voices? My elf? Why would I have to hear the voices for the rest of my life. I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. -Nightsong 08-22-1996 I read a part of _The Quiet Room_ that showed a part of the author's memory. The even that she remembered never actually occurred. I guess the same is true for me and my elven memories. I must be human after all. I am disappointed. I want so much to be an elf. O Elbereth! Everyone else seems glad that I am human. I have despised humaanity for so long. Why do I have to be human? Humans are oppressors to elves. Why? Why? -Nightsong 08-23-1996 Maybe being human isn't so bad after all. It makes me closer to my parents and my friends. Dr. King saw the painting I made of the elf forest when I was 13. He said it was "psychotic". Why do I bother showing people these things? I wonder what life will be like as a human. -Nightsong 08-24-1996 I am very grateful to the doctors and staff at Shepherd for making me better. I no longer think that my parents are trying to poison me with my medications. I no longer think that my father is involved in a government conspiracy to take over my mind. I no longer think the Belmont Hills staff are trying to poison my food. I no longer think that I am an elf and that the voices are the thoughts of the other elves that Imust obey. I no longer think that there are lizards all over my body. I no longer think I have tentacles that can reach out and grab people. I no longer wander around in a constant haze of voices. I no longer see ghostlike people in my room and glowing red eyes at my window. I no longer pace aimlessly around the hallways of Belmont Hills. I no longer think of medication as evil mind control. I no longer wander off at the whim of the voices. I no longer believe that an organisation called the Banshees will rescue me from the hospital or treatment centre. I no longer think that the Shephred staff cook and eat elves. I no longer think that the voices have the power to hurt or kill me or anyone else. I no longer think that the voices can predict the future. I no longer think that my thoughts are being controlled by a transmitter buried at Harker Academy. -Nightsong 08-26-1996 I am working on writing my life story on the computer. It is helping me sort out "fact" and "fantasy". So is writing in this book. It is what Anna would call a "grounding" experience. I am listening to David Bowie. It is interesting music. I love the world and I know it loves me back. I am so happy. I am well, so why do they keep me here? I am so happy. -Nightsong 08-26-1996 Dr. King gave me a list of target behaviours: - not isolate so much - engage others in meaningful interactions - reality-test well - self-soothe - increase general awareness (identify & respond to others' feelings) * develop a sense of self - decrease acting out in response to delusions and hallucinations - general sense of availability to othrs - good presentation (hair, dress, walk, hygiene) - identify & express emotional states - break enmeshment -Nightsong 08-26-1996 I feel terrible. I want to run. The voices are quoting Yeats: "Come away O human child To the woods and waters wild With a fairy hand in hand For the world's more full of weeping Than you can understand" I want to run away with the voices. They are all I have left. I am scared. I took an Ativan, at Dr. King's suggestion, but it hasn't started working yet. I am definitely not calm. Somebody help me! -Nightsong 08-29-1996 Nokomis is sick. I am scared. There is death in this room. I can feel it. i hope it doesn't touch her! The voices scream, "Death! Death! Death!" And I can feel it in the walls. Somebody help my poor puppy! I have a pass for this weekend. Maybe she will get better at home... -Nightsong 09-02-1996 I got back from my pass today. The voices say I can never go back to normality. Dr. King says that is my own resistance to becoming normal, and that it shows the ease of slipping into psychosis. Do I want to go back? I don't know anymore. -Nightsong 09-04-1996 "Come on you miner for truth and delusion and shine" -Pink Floyd -Nightsong 09-05-1996 "This world is not my home; I'm just passing through" -His Name Is Alive -Nightsong 09-07-1996 I am still an elf, and I know it. They don't know that I know it though. They think I think I'm human. But it is necessary to hide it from them, or they would try to kill me and replace me with a human. I'm terrified. Should I let on that I know by showing them the poem? Or should I let them believe I have already been replaced and get discharged? I t doesn't matter. They will find out sooner or later. -Nightsong 09-08-1996 Why do they hate me so much? They all want to kill mee. The only one one on my side is my puppy, Nokomis. Somebody get me out of this world! -Nightsong 09-08-1996 I need to tell someone but who ca I trust???? -Nightsong 09-09-1996 I admitted to Dr. Schenk last night that I knew their plot. She acted as if she was not part of it. Clever woman. -Nightsong 09-11-1996 I love Nokomis more than anyone else in the world. She is always there for me. I love her. -Nightsong 09-22-1996 I'm moving into a duplex Friday. Then I'm starting day treatment 3 times a week (living in the duplex) and living in Campbell for the other 4 days. I can't wait. Dr. King tells me I am too enmeshed with my parents, particularly my mother. I moved a bunch of stuff into my duplex today -- bookshelf, desk, computer, and posters, not to mention kitchenware and a bunch of other stuff. The manager is cool. She calls herself a "computer weirdo". I want to show her my fractal software. I think she will find it interesting. I think that if I move into the real world with normal people my chance of recovery will be greater. I will not even mention to these people that I am schizophrenic. I will learn to control my psychotic episodes so they don't happen in public. It will be a tough job, but worth it if I want to get well. Dr. King will still see me 3 times a wee, and his therapy is always very intesne. Between Dr. King's therapy, my own efforts, and the Clozaril, I will arrive at something approaching normality. I can't expect total normality, but who can? Look at my writing -- it flows the way a normal person's thoughts would. Then there is the elf issue. I don't know whether I am an elf or not anymore. I feel exactly like an elf, but I can remember being equally convinced that I was human. I walk into a session with Dr. King believing with all of my heart that I am an elf. Then he gradually chips away at this belief until I start a tentative belief that I am human. Then the session ends and I slide back into believing that I am an elf. I can see this process from the outside, but it doesn't keep those beliefs from occurring. Dr. King tells me that in order to get better I have to accept his reality as the Ultimate Reality. Does he think he is God? What if my reality is correct and his is wrong? It is all so confusing. Welcome to the machine. I'm scared. Do all the doctors want me to think their way because elves are a threat to their reality? Or is their reality a threat to my reality? Or both? Dr. King once told me that if I ever met another elf, she would either be lying to me or delusional. Should I believe him? Should I believe that I have been wrong for all these years, that my memory is false, that *I* am delusional?!? I don't know or understand. Somebody please come in and help me out. I am torn between my own reality, my parents' reality, and my doctors' reality. I was born in a doorway. I have lived in the doorway ever since. I look at myself in the mirror and my face keeps changing. An elf is in that mirror! An elf is in my hands. Now there is no doubt that I am an elf. And I am so alone without the voices of the other elves ringing through my mind. No, wait, those weren't truly the other elves. But I miss the voiceless thoughts of the other elves as we danced through the forest and sang, all in harmony. I miss the forest. It had to be real. Dr. King would read this and laugh. He doesn't like me to be an elf. He wants me to think I'm human, like him. Maybe I should just tell him that I can never hold onto the belief that I'm human for more than a couple of hours, whereas I can believe I am an elf for days, weeks, months, years. Dr. Napolitano says there is to be no magic in my life until I am better. I am not sure I can get better without magic. I thrive on magic. I need it in order to survive. No one can take it away from me. "Nothing's gonna change my world." These doctors think they know what's best for me. But do they really? Aaaack! -Nightsong (Galiganinda Duli
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(9) (top) 1997, further of Baggs' Schizophrenia Group and Dissociation Group writing
Baggs' 1997 discussion of the elves she used to live with, and how she used to be an elf, and "The Others" that are in her. I was sent this by neuroscientist and former close friend of Baggs, "Daniel Drucker" <ddrucker@psych.upenn.edu>. http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/msg/4b34b391447f121d Subject: amazing stuff happening to me Date: 1997/12/07 Newsgroups: alt.support.schizophrenia First I'm going to say that I -know- what this sounds like. Then I'm going to say that it's not like that, this time. Yesterday I was on a long car ride, staring out the window. The Others suddenly told me that they would be relaying messages from the elves I used to live with (and be one of). I knew they couldn't lie, but I thought they might be being deceived themselves. But then again, they know everything. In this universe. Maybe the elves were in another universe. All sorts of thoughts were flying through my head. But I said, okay, what do they want to tell me? They said that I had indeed lived with them. But I knew that. Then they said that in this life when I took acid they were able to get through to me because it changed my... and they said something that I couldn't figure out at all, but it had to do with sensitivity to different realms of reality (I think). Then they said that, like certain forms of magic, acid takes its toll on the user. They said that I was wise to give it up. They said that now that I had discovered the Others I would be able to talk to them, sometimes. I said something like, "Okay, but I have to know you're really real. Do something to prove that you're real." They didn't answer, but immediately a song that I had never heard came on the radio. It had to do with travel between different universes. So I believed them. Then they sort of misquoted Yeats: Come away, O elven child To the woods and waters wild Reunited with your band For the world's more full of weeping Than you can understand I got excited, but said, "Okay, that first thing might have been a coincidence. Give me another sign." I didn't really expect them to do it. Then the driver turned the car on again and the first words out of the radio are, "Trust I seek and I find in you." Now I really believed them. "Are there any other elves in this world?" "We can't tell you that." "Why not?" "Because it would disturb what is going to happen. We can't interfere." "Well take me to your world now then!" "We can't do that." "Why not?" "It's not time yet." "But..." "We'll give you one glimpse of our world. You will see trees as we see trees." Well now every time I look at a tree, there is a new, but very old in my mind, quality to it. I can't really describe it. I tried to stick my hand in one, but that didn't work (I was able to do that in the elf world). Anyway, I'm really excited and happy to be given this chance to see part of that world again. -- -- "My God!--it's full of stars!" Galig Dulin (Dave Bowman) (Arthur C. Clarke's _2001_) night...@netcom.com "It could have been me/Yes it could have been me Why didn't I say?/Why didn't I say?" ________________________ (David Bowie) "Folk takes their peril with them into Lorien, and finds it there because they've brought it" (Samwise Gamgee) "How did this one life fall so far and fast?" (Suzanne Vega)
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(10) (top) Baggs’ 12/7/1997 written account in the Schizophrenia Group of LSD use and psilocybin use, voices, medicine treatment, etc.
In the following 12/7/1997 post by Amanda Baggs, she states that she had been hearing voices for 3+ years before using LSD: "I had been hearing voices for three years or more before I tried LSD." "I think that LSD actually postponed my problem (which had been getting worse). When I stopped taking LSD, the problems took up where they left off." "I've had other sensory disturbances all my life (too many to write here). Especially sensory overload (which, like the voices, is under control with medications)." Side note: She doesn't state what these "other sensory disturbances are", and while there are sensory disturbances in Aspergers and autism, she at that in 1997 did not report being autistic, and had no diagnosis of autism/Aspergers. And, regarding where she states that the "sensory overload" "is under control with medications"...however, there are no medicines now, and never have been, that control the "sensory overload" of autism/Aspergers.
I had previously thought that the LSD caused the schizophrenia in 1995, though now it appears, per Baggs' testimony in Dec 1997, that she had schizophrenia starting in 1995, which is actually consistent with the observations of the various people from Simon's Rock College. But, inconsistent with her report that she had DID in 1995 (per her mid-1997 written apology to the DID community; linked in earlier emails of mine to you). Same link as below: http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/msg/c9128c5244ecd565 "I think LSD, psilocybin, etc can cause things that are like schizophrenia. But that isn't how I got schizophrenic. I had been hearing voices for three years or more before I tried LSD." She also appears to be stating that the LSD caused things to actually get better: "I think that LSD actually postponed my problem (which had been getting worse). When I stopped taking LSD, the problems took up where they left off." A crucial point, indicating Factitious Disorder: She cannot keep track of when she claimed which disorder, and keeps changing her story, and keeps changing her explanations for why she has various disorders, and which disorders are true and which not. Also, the Simon's Rock College people first observed her LSD use, and then observed her schizophrenia. So it appears that the LSD was the cause of her schizophrenia. Here, again, she may not be recounting things accurately. http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/msg/c9128c5244ecd565
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From: night...@netcom.com (Galiganinda Dulin)
Date: 1997/12/07
Subject: Re: amazing stuff happening to me
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I think LSD, psilocybin, etc can cause things that are like schizophrenia. But that isn't how I got schizophrenic. I had been hearing voices for three years or more before I tried LSD. I've had other sensory disturbances all my life (too many to write here). Especially sensory overload (which, like the voices, is under control with medications). I think that LSD actually postponed my problem (which had been getting worse). When I stopped taking LSD, the problems took up where they left off. I can't say it helped but... anyway, my shrink did a lot of work with people with LSD-induced psychosis, and he knows me very well by now, and says I am nothing like them. (And, I found out about my elfhood before I took it.) The main reason I took LSD is that people had been telling me for years that I acted like I was on it, so I wanted to see what it was all about (mistake!) :) -- -- "My God!--it's full of stars!" Galig Dulin (Dave Bowman) (Arthur C. Clarke's _2001_) night...@netcom.com "It could have been me/Yes it could have been me Why didn't I say?/Why didn't I say?" ________________________ (David Bowie) "Folk takes their peril with them into Lorien, and finds it there because they've brought it" (Samwise Gamgee) "How did this one life fall so far and fast?" (Suzanne Vega)
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(11) (top) Stanford University Hospital diagnoses Factitious Disorder, Indications of Factitious Disorder, Baggs’ historical group posts from 1994 onward; Baggs’ rejection of Stanford University; Baggs’ view on which doctors are good and which bad, and her view on which of her diagnoses are right and which wrong.
If you don't mind my suggesting, I would strongly recommend that you also present this matter to medical professionals that are experts in Factious Disorder, and malingering. It is often extraordinarily difficult to prove that someone is fictitiously emulating a disorder, especially a mental health disorder, because there are no objective biological tests to measure illnesses like autism, schizophrenia, etc. (I comment more about this below the next paragraph). I sent each of you a fairly extensive list of Amanda Baggs various group posts, and a fairly extensive calendar chronology that recorded all her posts with one of her primary usernames 'Galiganinda Dulin'. It is rather clear that she has been emulating various disorders since 1995. Recall that in mid-1997 she apologized for her "2.5 years ago" deceptive (her term) representation of herself as having DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder; multiple personality disorder), again:
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.dissociation/msg/7d5e909b8c10c9ba
This would have been in early 1995. With the posts I sent you, you can track the evolution of her various claims to various mental illnesses.
It is clearly shown, through her writing, that Amanda, starting in 1995, and continuing to 1998, at least, was involved in emulating several major mental illnesses, usually one at a time, and moving from one to the other. The evolution appears to be first Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personality Disorder), then schizophrenia, then profound autism. Also, throughout this evolution, as found in most of the posts I linked for you, there were other claims of PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), Manic Depression, Bipolar Disorder, Schizoaffective Disorder, and possibly others. Regarding Factitious Disorder (also called Munchausen Syndrome), http://www.psychnet-uk.com/dsm_iv/factitious_disorder.htm, http://www.emedicine.com/MED/topic3125.htm, this is a very complicated disorder, and I think an expert in this could possibly be useful to make an assessment of this case.
Of particular interest in trying to ascertain whether a persons pattern of involvement in medicine might reveal this, and a classic indication is the (1) self-claims to having various illnesses, (2) contrived and prepared presentations to mental health professionals that the person has a particular illness: the vivid demonstration of symptoms, and, especially, the use of medical language to describe their symptoms, as they believe they will more effectively persuade a medical professional they have a particular disorder if they use medical language, (3) the patient will not provide 3rd parties to verify that the person's in-office presentation is the same as the person's out-of-office presentation. As an aside, before I return to the main issue just discussed: A more typical instance of Factitious Disorder is the emulating of various physical illnesses. http://www.psychnet-uk.com/dsm_iv/factitious_disorder.htm "They usually prefer the sick role and may move from hospital to hospital in order to receive care. They are usually loners with an early childhood background of trauma and deprivation. Unlike many malingerers, they follow through with medical procedures and are at risk for drug addiction and for the complications of multiple operations." Their main goal is to elicit attention and sympathy from medical professionals, friends, family, and others. Many individuals will also cause themselves to have medical problems, such as by overeating, overdrinking, or undereating, underdrinking, malnourishment, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, etc. This brings me to the following about something I've noticed during my research over the last 4 months, namely Amanda's frequent public reports of various physical illnesses. I have researched this only briefly, but have the following to contribute: At this blog entry of hers from 1/30/08, http://ballastexistenz.autistics.org/?p=493, she reports: "I just got home from the hospital. I had impacted bowels, completely obstructed bladder, as well as mild liver problems and dehydration. I was there for about five days while they catheterized me and gave me more laxatives and enemas than I care to think about (and paid more attention to my shit than anyone's paid since I had a similar problem 10 years ago)." And another blog entry from 7/28/2007: http://ballastexistenz.autistics.org/?p=427 "I was in a lot of pain. By a lot of pain, I mean I was crying and periodically screaming. I don't cry from pain usually. I didn't cry when my gallbladder was well into emergency stage, I just went really quiet. If I'm crying from pain, it's serious. And this pain (and related movement restrictions) was serious enough that a spinal tap was done when I finally did get to the emergency room, because it sounded to them a lot like meningitis. (Fortunately it wasn't.)" Notice that invasive procedures were done in both instances, with the second not revealing anything. It would be unclear whether the first instance of diagnostic claims are accurate. (Recall that people with Factitious Disorder often seek medical procedures, including invasive procedures, the use of medicine, and even operations, and that, usually, there are no objective findings, and if there are objective findings, they are usually caused by the person themselves through various self-harm measures). Related, autistic author Donna Williams interviewed Amanda on 1/3/2007, http://blog.donnawilliams.net/2007/07/03/putting-autism-on-trial-an-interview-with-amanda-baggs, and I extracted from this interview the following reports from Baggs of various ailments and illnesses and complaints, totaling 31. Since this 7/2007 interview, I believe the list has increased. Irlen syndrome Synaesthesia Sequencing issues Proprioceptive problems meaning-blindness meaning-deafness movement disorder Eye-tracking issues Trouble walking Hypermobility Lost speech in infancy Echolalia Receptive language problems oral problems. Reflux. Constipation, trouble nursing. Neuropathic pain of some kind. Milk allergy, as well as standard allergies to some animals and pollens. Circadian rhythm issues. OCD Tourette's happened age 6 or 7 Signs of PTSD starting around that age too depression (the depression only ended in the past few years). Head banging started at age 6 or 7 Complex-partial seizure disorder sexually abused starting at this age by two adult male relatives Parkinsons-like movement disorder began starting at this same age being sexually abused in adolescence. Complex PTSD in reaction to institutional settings in adolescence. migraine headaches asthma trouble in adulthood TMJ trouble in adulthood (from "defects" in my jaw/skull present at birth along with other mouth anomalies). Malingering is not a mental illness, http://www.psychnet-uk.com/dsm_iv/malingering.htm, but rather "is a deliberate behavior for a known external purpose", such as "financial gain", and avoiding responsibility (such as familial, social, legal, and civil responsibility), and obtaining media coverage, etc. Malingering can occur with Factitious Disorder, but not necessarily so, as discussed in the above links. Lastly, it is clear to me that Amanda's history is more consistent with Factitious Disorder, and more recently malingering, than autism, (due to her aggressively seeking and obtaining 2007-2008 widespread media coverage, her aggressive public self-promotion, financial gain, reputational gain, etc. While it is plausible that Amanda may have had high functioning Aspergers from her childhood onward, this is irrelevant to her current state (and her state since 20 years old, I believe) of profound autism, as these two levels of Autism Spectrum Disorder are extremely different, and a person doesn't evolve into a more profound level of dysfunction from a long history (20 years) of high functioning, especially high intellectual functioning (Simon's Rock College at 14 years old, and John's Hopkins University CTY (Center for Talented Youth) before Simon's Rock College), and accelerating through K-12th grade rapidly, and being verbally fluent, having extensive social relationships, having relatively normal eye contact, and non-autistic behavior, etc. Returning to the main issue. I found a more recent group username 'sggaB' for Amanda; it’s use begins in 2002; her profile is http://groups.google.com/groups/profile?enc_user=zlsmERQAAAAuTyeTtEznhsJ1EvX_4Y8kqErCXa-CIiqlccej3woxEQ, and at this profile you will see her email address amanda@autistics.org (which is based from one of her sites http://www.autistics.org/) and the calender chronology of thousands of posts. I think you might find this important. Here are some 2002 posts by her that discuss her diagnoses and doctors. She takes it upon herself to decide who is good at diagnosing, she comments on how Stanford University was concerned with the legitimacy of her claims and history, and she takes it upon herself to decide when a doctor was right. I believe this is a clear and classic demonstration of an aspect of Factitious Disorder, and would contribute to a basis for an inquiry into this matter.
October 9, 2002
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.autism/msg/65e922d2cd6045c5 "I've found Stanford University's medical place to be usually pretty bad at diagnosis. They're one of the people who have either disbelieved me because of my psych record or (when I was there as a psych patient) declared me to be making stuff up in order to become a psych patient. (I didn't *want* to be a psych patient, and they'd barely observed me. I think they made this judgment based on the fact that behavior modification -- of a kind that involved withholding my phone and visitor "privileges" -- made me less likely to try to run out the door of their children's hospital.)" "The only time they got anything right was when they saw me for something completely unrelated and declared that I must have "some kind of pervasive developmental disorder" in my report." The following post concerns her autism diagnosis problem, and her comments that "bad" doctors are those that don't diagnose her as autistic, and good doctors are those that do. http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.autism/msg/9af126580207b14a
Amanda writes that Stanford University "declared I was faking psychiatric symptoms for the sole purpose of being a patient...there's a diagnosis called factitious disorder..." http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.autism/msg/4e13bd713a260ae0 "I was a forced inpatient at their children's hospital (being held while others were deciding whether to send me to a group home or a state hospital) and they declared that I was faking psychiatric symptoms for the sole purpose of being a patient (there's a diagnosis called factitious disorder that means that -- if they thought I was making it up and had *any* other reason, they would have diagnosed malingering). This declaration was made by a student doctor I barely talked to." I've spent only one hour looking into Baggs’ writing with this 2002 and onward username. I’ll continue later.
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(12) (top) 1/18/2007, Baggs’ self-taken video of herself with a song recording playing, and written admittance by Baggs it is her voice in the song recording
I would like to provide the following Livevideo.com video made by Amanda Baggs on January 18, 2007, which was done 4 days after she made her YouTube video on January 14, 2007, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnylM1hI2jc, (which was the source, as stated by CNN's Dr. Gupta, for CNN's interest in her: third sentence at http://www.cnn.com/HEALTH/blogs/paging.dr.gupta/2007/02/behind-veil-of-autism.html). The Livevideo.com video: http://www.livevideo.com/video/4C44ABC5473B49E7B12799FFDEA99807/because-you-are-not-one-of-us.aspx
As seen in the information under the video, it was made by the user ‘silentmiaow’, which is a name that links to Amanda Baggs webpage at livevideo: http://www.livevideo.com/silentmiaow Under the video, is the section called 'Comments & Responses'. Scroll down to the 5th comment, which is by Amanda (there is her picture, username, and link to her livevideo webpage (again http://www.livevideo.com/silentmiaow), and her comment about her video): Posted Jan 23, 07 by silentmiaow "...I do have a bit of a sarcastic way of presenting it in this song (which is my own voice, not a computer one)..." Here she states that the voice in the singing video is "my own voice, not a computer one" Furthermore, in the 6th comment under the 'Comments & Responses' section, a user named 'periurban' from the UK (http://www.livevideo.com/periurban) asks Amanda the following: Posted Jan 21, 07 by periurban "...Who was singing?" And she replies in the 9th comment: Posted Jan 22, 07 by silentmiaow I was. (Recorded three tracks over each other.) Here is her second statement that it was she who was singing, and that she apparently recorded three tracks of herself singing over one another. Of course, in the video itself, as the video is being taken, she is not singing; rather, she is writing, and holding her hand over her face most of the time. The singing voice was recorded previously, and is being played through speakers. It is a recording of her voice, as she states in two of her comments under the 'Comments & Responses' section. At this time, there are 11 comments, the last one on Jan 29, 07. However, in her YouTube video, made 4 days before (and linked above), she claims and displays that a part of her profound autism is not being able to speak, in particular, speak fluently, intelligently, and for communicative purposes. And in the CNN coverage which began in mid-February 2008, she represented herself as lacking the capacity to speak in this manner. She reported to CNN that she “lost her speech” many years before (I believe in 2001, but am not sure of the exact or general date or time period.
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New Video about Amanda Baggs

2008-04-18T04:07:00.000-07:00

When The Music's Over, Amanda Baggs and Neurodiversity

2008-03-08T13:13:00.000-08:00

Here's an interesting discussion about Amanda Baggs. I confirmed the following comment:
"I got a nice phone call from Nightsong's lawyer a few weeks ago where she said "Look, you and I both know Amanda's not autistic, but that's the life she wants, and you have no right to take it from her."" (Nightsong is Amanda Baggs.)

That quote is attributed to a lawyer representing Amanda Baggs. I confirmed that the conversation did take place and that the caller had information that should have only been known by the lawyer. I also confirmed that the person who posted this information had the lawyer's office phone number on his caller ID. You can click on the link above to read the denials that began a short time after this comment showed up on the Live Journal page. The people who tried to deny this identified themselves as Anne Bevington and Dave Seidel.

Let's look at Anne Bevington's motivation to assist Amanda Baggs. We can see that she is hooked up with Kathleen Seidel. Together with other bloggers from the Autism Hub, these people have made it their mission to assault an organization that does nothing more than attempt to cure children with autism. The key here is that Bevington, Seidel and the rest have used Baggs to give themselves some legitimacy. They support Baggs and her claims that she does not want to be cured. The whole time, we now find out for certain that they knew Baggs was not autistic.

This establishes the fact that Neurodiversity and the Autism Hub of bloggers have engaged in a conspiracy to defraud the public as to the truth about autism. Their lawyer thinks we have no right to take the life Amanda Baggs has chosen for herself from her. How quaint. It is not just about Amanda Baggs.

Amanda Baggs has been the publicity vehicle by which Neurodiversity has been able to make themselves heard. They have used her acting to convince the general public that nobody should try to cure autism.

In all of Kathleen Seidel's attacks on Mark Geier, Richard Deth, Rick Rollens, Generation Rescue and others, she has had Amanda Baggs as her Ace in the Hole to press the point that autistic people do not want to be cured, can not be cured and should not be cured. If Baggs' lawyer knows she is not autistic, certainly Seidel must know this. This establishes what I have said all along, that everything to do with Neurodiversity is a fraud.

Is there an Attorney General someplace who can prosecute these people for publicizing knowingly false information about autism?

NY Times Falls for Hoax, Amanda Baggs

2008-03-01T05:37:00.000-08:00

Amanda Baggs has found another victim to help her spread misinformation about autism. I wrote to the author of this nonsense, Tara Parker-Pope but she has not replied. I also commented on the NY Times site but they did not decide to publish the truth, that Amanda Baggs is not, and has never been autistic.

At the end of this piece, the Times links to an article they published in 2004 about not curing autism. This bit of misdirection says nothing at all about autism but discusses a kid with Asperger's. It's impossible to tell if the author is simply ignorant since she won't reply to my information letting her know that she was conned or if she is an active participant in the sham being perpetrated by Neuroinsanity.com.

To fully understand Amanda Baggs' fraud, one also has to understand the fraud coming from Neuroinsanity. Neuroinsanity exists for the sole purpose of bashing anyone who has anything to do with curing autism. The preferred method of attack by this band of psychopaths is character assassination. Neuroinsanity links back and forth to Quackbusters which is a Pharma financed group that exists to try to discredit all forms of alternative medicine.

In the case of curing autism, Neuroinsanity and Quackbusters would have us believe that chelation to remove mercury from poisoned children is some form of quackery practiced by witch doctors. The fact of the matter is that chelation has been used since the 1940's and is standard practice in mainstream medicine for cases of mercury poisoning. What Neuroinsanity and Quackbusters are really up to is an attempt to prevent people from curing autistic children because those cured children are evidence against Pharma for poisoning babies into autism with thimerosal in vaccines.

If this bunch of sadists can use Amanda Baggs to spread their deranged message, they can influence parents to forego treatments that will help their children. They can make naive people think that there is actually something good about having autism. They can also influence the general public through the NY Times and CNN into believing that autism is no big deal, that people like Amanda Baggs, who acts like a low functioning autistic person can get along in life with a minimum of support.

The truth of the matter is that children who act like Amanda Baggs will never improve without intense medical intervention. They will remain unable to communicate for the rest of their lives, will never be able to care for themselves and will require 24 hour a day care in an institution once they become too large for their parents to handle. By confusing the distinction between Asperger's and autism, Neuroinsanity and Amanda Baggs can deflect blame from the Pharmaceutical industry. They have a willing cult of adults with Asperger's who also spread this message that they do not want to be cured. The fact of that matter is that many of these cult members diagnosed themselves with Asperger's yet, they advertise themselves as autistic.

Ask yourself if you'd label yourself as a severely disabled person who can't even wipe your butt versus a college educated professional if you were applying for a job. That's what these adults, who claim to have Asperger's do when they refer to themselves as autistic. It just does not make sense. One would think they'd want to make sure they marked themselves with a wide distinction from the horrible nightmare that autism is. Who would ever consider hiring an autistic person for any job when they would have to have at least two other employees to care for them and, of course, the autistic person could never accomplish one single task in any form of employment?

That's what autism is, a condition in which no person will ever accomplish anything and will never be able to communicate anything but the most basic of needs, if that. With rare exceptions, it would be absolutely impossible to teach an autistic child to type coherent thoughts without treating the cause of the condition so their brain could function at something approaching normalcy.

The only reason Amanda Baggs can type coherent thoughts at 120 words per minute and make her own Youtube videos is beacuse she is a phoney. Amanda Baggs entered Simon's Rock College at age 13. She left her home in California, unaccompanied, and travelled to Massachusetts where she lived in a dormitory and took care of herself. While attending college, she used magic mushrooms and lots of LSD. She soon found herself out of college and in an asylum after threatening suicide. Later, in her delusional state which was diagnosed as schizophrenia, she decided she was an elf. Then, at age 19 or 20, she managed to find a doctor who gave her an autism diagnosis.

She became friends with a lesbian in Vermont and moved across the country again to live in her own apartment. At some point, she became involved with Neuroinsanity. The owner of that site visits her and has driven her places from her home in New Hampshire. When I discuss Amanda Baggs on certain forums, the husband of Neuroinsanity's owner shows up to try to defend Baggs. Of course, his only defense of her involves trying to assassinate my character, a trick I'm sure he learned from his wife. Baggs has also had a lawyer following discussions about her. This lawyer makes legal sounding threats, has comments about Baggs deleted and even went so far as to try to hold another autistic woman responsible for anonymous comments made on this blog that were uncomplimentary towards Baggs.

Tara Parker-Pope needs to meet a real autistic person some day. I'd love her to spend a day with my son so she could appreciate the full horror that autism is. Perhaps then, she could stop being conned by the likes of Amanda Baggs and write a piece that describes the nightmare that our Vaccine industry has perpetrated by negligently poisoning our babies.

This whole circus of Baggs, Neuroinsanity and lawyers is a disgrace. These people belong in prison for the scam they have engineered to obfuscate the truth about autism.

A Letter About Amanda Baggs' Fraud

2008-02-11T06:10:00.000-08:00

Hey,

So I've known Amanda since 1994. I went to Simon's Rock College with
her. I have the year book to prove it. I also dated her brother Jeremy
from early 1996 until mid 1998. So to say I've got a good history here
is an understatement.

Amanda went to Simon's Rock at 14. She was very bright. And normal.
She lived in a dorm, like everyone else. She had a boyfriend named
Karl, who she was sexually active with. Folks walked in on her. Karl &
she both told me themselves in various contexts. She went to classes,
wrote papers, ate in the cafeteria, talked, danced, shat in the
toilet, etc.

Then she took an assload of hallucinogens. Repeatedly. During spring
break of 1995 she n-talked me (remember n-talk?) and was concerned
because she couldn't come down (stop hallucinating) from a large
amount of mushrooms. Her solution was to take some LSD to
counterbalance it. She claimed this worked.

Soon after she declared herself an elf.

Then the voices started, and the odd clothes, and the rest of the
schizophrenia stuff. She believed she was an elf, mind control, that
people poisoned her food, etc. She was involved with the cops several
times, once when she was found digging in the back field of her former
middle school, looking for a mind control device. She tried to jump
out of the car I was in with her brother a few times, requiring
restraint.

She left school. In and out of institutions for awhile, initially
declared multiple personality, later paranoid schizophrenic. She was
in a place in Fresno for almost a year. She walked and talked and did
all sorts of normal stuff. She was psychotic though.

Her mother bought into things hook, line, and sinker. Believed she was
MPD. Refused, REFUSED to believe schizophrenia. Amanda was trotted to
every doctor you can imagine. Perhaps it was atypical epilepsy (it
wasn't). Multiple personality (nope). Sensory issues (WTF?). For a
long time they believed it was trauma, since Amanda claimed her
brother SHane sexually abused her, and told me, somewhat graphically,
about being anally raped by him. Now Shane seems to be in her good
graces again. I wonder where Jeremy went, and why she never talks
about him?

This is most of a letter written by a friend of Amanda Baggs who knew her at Simon's Rock College.

Anyway, she's not autistic. She is manipulative. She is schizophrenic.
She is likely malingering. Payoff is big- no school, no work,
attention constantly. Amanda is terminally special. Always has been.

As for me, I have spoken to Jeremy since 09/2001. I saw Amanda on CNN
and nearly crapped myself. I have worked with folks with developmental
disorders for years. Her faking is offensive.

Anyway, if you want more info, let me know.

Autism Fraud Goes On

2008-02-02T08:01:00.000-08:00

I hate to disappoint the Neuronitwits who tried to have this blog deleted. I took care of it with Blogger and this blog will remain in operation. Good effort though, misfits!

Unbelievable, Amanda Baggs and other Wackos

2007-12-11T20:47:00.000-08:00

While this person fits into the autism as a nightmare category very well, she doesn't remind me of any person I've ever seen with autism. I like how she complains about somebody not accepting her answers.

Does anyone have an autistic child who has anything in common with this sorry excuse for a human being?

Amanda Baggs, Simon's Rock College, Johns Hopkins TCY

2007-12-11T18:31:00.000-08:00

The video is one of Amanda Baggs trying to look retarded. She claims this is her natural way of behaving. I'd like to hear from anyone that knew her before she started using LSD to learn if she acted like this when she was attending these prestigious schools.

Proof of the Neurodiversity Fraud, Amanda Baggs

2007-12-10T09:06:00.000-08:00

I recently came across this letter written by Amanda Baggs over 9 years ago when she was a teenager.

"In reality, many properly medicated people with mental illness (including myself, diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic) are gentle people who have to go through torture from their own minds. I wish you would not make this torture any worse by printing only negative articles about mentally ill people. Maybe you could print articles about the good things that mentally ill people do.I personally plan to work with autistic children and become a psychologist. Some mentally ill people are already psychologists and psychiatrists, using their own experiences to help others. Please show the good accomplishments of mentally ill people, not just the bad ones." Amanda Baggs

It seems that Amanda was a paranoid schizophrenic back in 1997. Lately though, she has decided to be autistic. Did Amanda decide to become autistic so she could land the starring role in "Getting the Truth Out"? Some actresses get their start with pornography. Others get their foot in the door in Hollywood by impersonating autistic people. This would be understandable if Amanda was simply an actress. But, she's much more than that. She's one of the models for Neurodiversity, the strange cult of lunatics who insist that curing autism is killing the autistic person.

Amanda now plays the role of an autistic woman who does not want to be cured. She's very friendly with Kathleen Seidel who visits her and drives her places. Amanda makes Youtube videos where she plays the flute, waves her hands around and uses a machine to talk for herself. I wondered how she could make the machine talk while she was doing all of that hand waving. I must surmise that she had some help. I wonder if it was K Seidel who helped with this? It would certainly serve Seidel's purpose well to have this allegedly autistic woman yakking about respect for autistics and howling that she did not want to be cured. Amanda even claims she wouldn't want to be able to talk if she could. Now, I have heard from several sources that Amanda can, in fact, speak. So, I guess it was one of those little white lies when she said whe didn't want the ability to talk. She already had it.

So, Amanda, now that we know you're a total fraud, will you tell us who hired you to try to make the general public think that severely disabled children would want to remain in that nightmarish state? Can you produce one cured child who asked to be reinjected with thimerosal so their brain could be rescrewed up? We know that Kathleen is much more concerned with discrediting the scientists who help children than with actually helping the kids. Did she put you up to this? Were you hired by a drug company? They would love to have real autistic people running around telling the world that autism was something to be celebrated. Unfortunately for them, they can't find any who have their act together enough to do that. So you took on that role.

I always thought you were a fraud. Now we know. It's time for Seidel and all the other creeps from Neurodiversity to close up shop. You've been proven to be nothing but frauds with this letter. It's time to stop harming children with your deranged philosophy. As if anyone whose behavior was truly so bizarre that they had to be institutionalized could do all of these things for themselves. My claim that Neurodiversity was a sham cult was always based on simple logic. Now we have the proof. Your days of imitating severely disabled children and trying to make the world think it's not so bad are over. I hope someone looks into pressing charges against all of you.

Amanda Baggs, LSD Psychosis or Autism?

2007-12-09T10:02:00.001-08:00

Having watched a person who is really autistic every day for the last 11 years, I can state that this knucklehead has nothing in common with autistic people. When autistic children want something to eat or drink, they know which cabinet to go to and they grab what they want without getting lost in the process.

This video has nothing in common with autism.

What Does Neurodiversity Say About Amanda Baggs?

2007-12-07T08:42:00.000-08:00

It looks like Neurodiversity doesn't want to say anything about Amanda Baggs. They must be afraid to defend a fraud. With all the evidence that has been published here, one would think that the leaders of the neuroinsane would come to the defense of their allegedly autistic spokesmodel.

Nope, the nitwits are silent. As viciously as the Neuronitwits attacked Droopy for her exposition of Baggs by sicking a lawyer on an actual autistic woman, one would think they would try the same tactic here. But, no threatening letters from Neuronitwit lawyers have arrived. I don't think you can sue someone for publishing factual statements. If you could sue someone for quote mining, Kathleen Seidel and Kevin Leitch would be broke.

Perhaps the ND's are hoping I'll shut up and go away if they don't respond. Haha, not likely. It's kind of nice to be able to criticize this pack of wacked out weirdos without any of them bothering me.

Neurodiversity claims to seek respect for autistic people. Yet, here they are putting up a new age LSD using hippy who thinks she's an elf as their most visible spokesperson. Is that the image they wish to convey for themselves? I don't think they'll gain much respect from anyone when their mouthpiece is having hallucinations about conversations with elves.

http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/browse_thread/thread/e0ab3c21962eda6e/c9128c5244ecd565?lnk=st&q=LSD&rnum=6&hl=en#c9128c5244ecd565

Dec 7 1997,

Galiganinda Dulin First I'm going to say that I -know- what this sounds like. Then I'm going to say that it's not like that, this time. Yesterday I was on a long car ride, staring out the window. The Others suddenly told me that they would be relaying messages from the elves I used to live with (and be one of). I knew they couldn't lie, but I thought they might be being deceived themselves. But then again, they know everything. In this universe. Maybe the elves were in another universe. All sorts of thoughts were flying through my head. But I said, okay, what do they want to tell me? They said that I had indeed lived with them. But I knew that. Then they said that in this life when I took acid they were able to get through to me because it changed my... and they said something that I couldn't figure out at all, but it had to do with sensitivity to different realms of reality (I think). Then they said that, like certain forms of magic, acid takes its toll on the user. They said that I was wise to give it up. They said that now that I had discovered the Others I would be able to talk to them, sometimes. I said something like, "Okay, but I have to know you're really real. Do something to prove that you're real." They didn't answer, but immediately a song that I had never heard came on the radio. It had to do with travel between different universes. So I believed them. Then they sort of misquoted Yeats: Come away, O elven child To the woods and waters wild Reunited with your band For the world's more full of weeping Than you can understand I got excited, but said, "Okay, that first thing might have been a coincidence. Give me another sign." I didn't really expect them to do it. Then the driver turned the car on again and the first words out of the radio are, "Trust I seek and I find in you." Now I really believed them. "Are there any other elves in this world?" "We can't tell you that." "Why not?" "Because it would disturb what is going to happen. We can't interfere." "Well take me to your world now then!" "We can't do that." "Why not?" "It's not time yet." "But..." "We'll give you one glimpse of our world. You will see trees as we see trees." Well now every time I look at a tree, there is a new, but very old in my mind, quality to it. I can't really describe it. I tried to stick my hand in one, but that didn't work (I was able to do that in the elf world). Anyway, I'm really excited and happy to be given this chance to see part of that world again.

Anna Salamon Defends Amanda Baggs, Weakly

2007-12-07T08:40:00.000-08:00

Someone claiming to be Anna Salamon, an old friend of Amanda Baggs, showed up here to defend Baggs' questionable autism diagnosis. So far, Salamon has not responded to Watson's challenge which follows.

watson said...
Anna, Thank you for responding.

Let's be clear. 'Past, Present and Future' was written by Amanda to give an adult face to low-functioning autism, and to speak vociferously against any intervention and treatment for autism - on behalf of all low-functioning children with autism.

In this piece Amanda gives the impression that she was at one time a low-functioning child with autism. That her speech didn't make a lot of sense, that she was not toilet-trained, that she banged her head on walls and ripped her hair out in clumps.

That is not true, is it, Anna?

I mean, presumably, at age 12, when you were discussing conformity vs non-conformity, it wasn't one-sided, with you doing all the talking and Amanda sitting in the corner, virtually bald, banging her head on the wall, and talking nonsense.

Presumably she had actually read the Tao Te Ching that she lent you - and she hadn't just sniffed and rubbed the pages against her face.

Amanda gives the impression that she had ABA and that although at times she was rewarded, she was more often than not, tortured, beaten, punished, and in this horrific way she was taught to speak. "Non-communicative echolalia".

That is not true. Is it, Anna?

That even though they tried to teach her to use the toilet they failed, and at the time of writing the article at the age of 24, she "STILL" soiled her clothes.

That also is not true. Is it, Anna?

She was using the toilet appropriately at 12, wasn't she? According to Amanda, she had been fully toilet-trained before she was three years old.

Perhaps you can tell me why after being brutally treated, and having watched other children with autism "thrown on the ground, stripped, and tied up with their own clothing... and having "heard them screaming and crying when they were thrown in the closet", she, your friend, Amanda Baggs, wrote in Dec 1997:

"Many children (mostly autistic) at my school use those picture card things. Everything in the room is labeled with them, and they have schedule boards with velcro on them to attach the pictures. When they want to do something, they point to the picture (often with a lot of coaxing).

My school's pretty neat actually.

It's special-ed for ages 7?-22. There are maybe forty students, of all kinds of problems (I'm in the high-functioning class, recovering from schizophrenia). I get to work with one of the autistic girls once a week, and I really enjoy it.

I want to do things like that professionally, eventually. Once I get out of this school and back to college... "
This paints an entirely different picture, doesn't it?

Now, Amanda might think that she "had autism" when she was a child, and it wouldn't surprise me in the least if she had what are now called "autistic traits", after all they are not that unusual even in the 'normal population' but can you honestly say that Amanda's first 12 years were anything like this in this article by Scot Sea.

Be honest. They weren't, were they?

And that is what's wrong with what you are doing coming to Amanda's rescue, just like the cavalry, when any discussion is raised about her past - on AFF, on Metafilter, on here.

Why?

Because neither Amanda nor you have lived with Autism. Neither of you have cared for a loved one with Autism 24/7, 365 days a year. Year, after year, after year.

Scott Sea's daughter has low-functioning autism. Amanda has taken it upon herself to speak for this child and for tens of thousands like her.

What do you think will happen to this young girl when her parents are gone? Who will take care of her? Not you in your Maths Department at UCSD. And certainly not Amanda.

Amanda's interests center around Amanda and Amanda's wants and needs. Her interest in autism is primarily an intellectual one. And she loves being consulted and giving advice. After all, she has been doing it for years on various support forums: schizophrenia, PTSD, DID, Bi-Polar,..

She has lived most of her life inside her head and her experience of LIFE has come from the numerous books she has read.

Parents of children with autism, on the other hand, are living day after day with stark reality, in the blood and guts of it all. Our lives revolve every day around someone else, not ourselves. That's the difference.

What you may not know is that since 1999 there has been an active campaign to paint a rosy picture of autism, and, from reading some of the posts at AFF, it is obviously working extremely well.

Stimming has become foot jiggling, stroking one's beard, biting one's bottom lip, or tapping a pencil. Echolalia has become BSing your way through school and getting straight As by storing large sentences and sentence-pieces and recombining them to look like you know what you're saying. Perseverances have become special interests or collections. Having sensory problems is having to remove tabs on clothing because they feel scratchy. Social difficulties have become shyness or not being able to do 'small talk'.

Today "having autism" or "being autistic" means being a geek or a nerd, or getting a certain score in an online Aspie quiz. It means being special and superior to Neurotypicals.

Before this bullshit started, no parent wanted to hear that their child had autism. Since it was suggested in 1999 that Einstein might have had it, pseudo-intellectuals think they have it - or their quirky children might have it.

Only problem is: they don't.

I am not at all surprised that you are supporting Amanda now because you have apparently been a steadfast friend who has stood by her for many years throughout her schizophrenic illness. Not many friends would do that.

But please consider that by supporting Amanda in this fiction that she had full-blown autism as a child and, as such, that she should be free to speak against treatment for children with autism, you are also agreeing with what she says:

"Autism is fundamentally beautiful."

Do you believe that? Now read Scott Sea's article again, and tell me it is.

Sat Jul 28, 09:31:00 PM PDT

Amanda Baggs, Prelude to Becoming Autistic

2007-12-07T08:38:00.000-08:00

What Amanda said in the interview and what she was saying 8,9 and 10 years ago...

"Also deliberate retreat into fantasy — not a “disorder” driving me to do this but a choice to avoid reality if I could. "

Oct 24 1998

"Toward the end of sixth grade I started thinking I was receiving telepathic messages from someone, possibly someone who lost a sister... that summer I started hearing voices"

Oct 1998

"I had really lost touch with reality, and was constantly hearing audible voices at that point. "

April 7 1998

"Schizophrenia is not necessarily a complete mental dysfunction. But it -is- a mental dysfunction, most of the time. For a long time, schizophrenia kept me on the sidelines of things. I watched, but there was no way I could join in. The voices were, most of the time, not saying anything "religious" in nature. They were threatening me with permanent insanity if I didn't do what they said when they said it. I do think some of my "visions" (read "hallucinations") may have meant
something. The black spiny fractallene hole I saw on people, I'm sure had some significance. As did the viewing of a city as a circuitboard.
But for the vast majority of the time, I was just outright psychotic.

"I began being sexually abused in adolescence."

Apr 13 1997

"First, I was sexually abused by one of my brothers for a few years.... I was also sexually abused by my grandfather in one instance...."

"Went away to college (yes, at 14, early, all that) which removed the sexual abuse from the immediate picture. (Apr 1998)"

"Then, when I was thirteen, I started dating a boy I met at a summer programme. We went to the same college the next year, and I was excited at living close to him. That was when the physical abuse started. "

"Like right now people often consider me “low functioning” for not speaking because speech is really important to them, I guess then I would have been “high functioning” when I did speak even though my actual amount of communication (even as measured on tests it turns out) was lower."

People think when you lose things it means you were always “normal” and this wasn’t the case with me. I lost whatever speech I had somewhere between 12 and 15 months. When I regained it, it was echolalic. One of my earliest language memories is of hearing my mouth say the words “Saint Bernard” without knowing what words were, that they had meaning, or even that it was my mouth the sounds were coming out. Even when my speech sounded more normal, I had trouble with receptive language, and didn’t always understand what I was saying.

Apr 26 1999

"I was a very well-behaved child who only had to be told once not to do something"

Dec 8 1998

"(She's principal of a different school now) and she said, "You were such a delight in the classroom." and that that's what other teachers remember
about me."

Sept 15 1999

"I was tested 'gifted' in school".

Oct 24 1998

"I started taking classes at a community college... went to CTY for the second summer (a summer programme that does intensive school work but the social stuff is intense too in a good way... lots of unconventional people there) and then to an "early-entry" college..."

CTY = The Johns Hopkins University Center for Talented Youth:

http://www.jhu.edu/news_info/news/home06/jan06/ctyalum.html
About The Johns Hopkins University Center for Talented Youth (CTY)

"CTY conducts the nation's oldest and most extensive academic talent search and offers educational programming for students with exceptionally high academic ability.

For 26 years, CTY has identified America's top academic students in grades two through eight and provided challenging educational programs through their 10th grade year. Students who score at or above the 95th percentile on standardized tests normally taken in school are invited to participate in CTY's Talent Search, during which they take an additional set of standardized tests used to measure mathematical and verbal reasoning."

June 6 2007

"I'm brain-damaged, and I have a significantly lower IQ than I used to."

"Complex PTSD in reaction to institutional settings in adolescence."

Dec 11 1997

"I know that two months in the hospital was enough to drain just about everything out of me. After those two months, they were going to put me in an institution, but when my parents visited it they said that I absolutely couldn't go there. Fortunately, they sent me to a residential treatment centre instead and the staff and doctors there dragged me kicking and screaming out of my little psychotic hole into reality again. But even now, I am haunted by that other possible future. In another universe, I am probably in the institution now and will die there. I always wonder, why was I lucky? How did I get out of it? I don't think I'll ever know... "

"Went away to college (yes, at 14, early, all that) which removed the sexual abuse from the immediate picture (though I was having physical flashbacks at the time and didn't know what they were). But then I started dating a guy older but close to my age who was at first very compassionate about my problems. Then he got sick of watching my "episodes" and having a "crazy girlfriend" and started using a -lot- of physical force to get me back. Didn't work, but it etched into my brain. (some of the "episodes" were flashbacks from previous stuff)."

Apr 10 1997

"When I was in the hospital, and refusing medication, my mother had them inject me with medication until my paranoia had gone away to a point
where I could take them on my own....It seems cruel but I am grateful for what it did for me, and accept the few minutes of terror that the injections produced. At first, I thought they were trying to poison me, and I would freak out. But after a few weeks (I think) I was clear enough to see that they were helping me."

"Typing was more reliable. I was starting to be exposed to people whose experiences of the world were closer to mine, and their use of words helped me to learn which words to use myself."

May 14 1999

"I hated writing. It made me frustrated and it hurt my hand both from holding the pencil and scraping across the paper....When I learned to type, I started liking "writing"-type assignments as long as I could type them". "Some of this might be due to being left-handed and not having a proper pencil grip..."

I’ve walked into traffic without meaning to.

Aug 1997

Ophelia wrote:

" you ran into the road repeatedly. "

"I “regressed” in infancy. "

Dec 1998

"I did most things early (including talk) by my parents say they were told I took slightly longer than normal with the toilet training (not as long as your daughter)." (i.e. Before the age of three).

"The first book I ever read, quite young, was a field guide to birds rather than an easy reader book."

Sept 15 1999

"I think I was reading around age 9 months, although not diagramming sentences until junior high) It is a part of my reality, because that's what I did."

"I have so much imagination that my pretend play as an adolescent was detailed and full-immersion enough to be part of what got me labeled psychotic."

5 Apr 1998

"I would have hallucinations that I didn't know were related to any of this, like seeing spiders and/or butterflies literally covering the floor, crunching under my feet. I didn't like seeing flower petals and would go to great lengths to avoid them, thinking they were dead butterflies. I also had dreams I thought were real, and every time an object from those dreams appeared in real life...I knew enough to keep this fairly secret (and it was all the sort of stuff an imaginative kid would come up with, right?) "

May 1999

"I remember requesting to go into a psych hospital because something in me was trying to die and something in me didn't want to. I remember being told it was abuse, or previous drug use, or being away from home or various other things, that caused my problems and that I was 'just fine' before I left. "

Aug 1997

Ophelia wrote:

"you tried and did hurt yourself and others. you refused to eat. you went a digging in a school yard and tried to throw a chair through a window there. you ran into the road repeatedly. there aren't a hell of lot of options when some starts doing that stuff. "

"I went to college *and then* special ed in that order."

Apr 5 1998,

"I'm also going to a special-ed school mainly for therapeutic stuff."

"I was in ballet because the alternative given by my doctor was a leg brace. My mother helped move my body through all the positions."

Sep 9 1998

"I learned left from right when I was probably two or three and had been enrolled in ballet to correct a foot that turned in... they drilled it into my head... when I was facing east anyway. Meaning I had to face east to know which side was which for awhile."

"Later on I was forced to play certain kinds of ‘crazy’ by various psychiatric professionals. I gave them what I thought they wanted out of me. To make matters more confusing, sometimes their drugs caused delirium, mania, or hallucinations, convincing me that maybe these people were right about me."

Apr 12 1997

"I'm not hearing voices anymore. I am, however, receiving messages from other beings which use thought in words to communicate... They call themselves the Others, and say that they came from the sky. They say they are like me. They say I will meet them someday, but that now is not the time. They say I won't hear voices ever again if I work at it."

"There is a group of beings that created the universe, but they only watch over it; they don't "run" it. And I should know -- I am one of them, and I am in contact with several of them. We do not demand belief."

"i have thought for years that i was an elf until the past few weeks when my therapists are starting to convince me it is a delusion. "

May 5 1997

"The Lithium helped curb my mania, where sometimes I would think I was God, I'm 16 years old."

May 29 1997

"I attacked someone last night. I didn't want to, and the Others were screaming for me not to, but I did anyway....Does anyone else feel like they are
being used by an outside force to explore, like a probe sort of?... I've realised that I'm an elven anthropologist of sorts. I look human, interact with humans, and study humans. But sometimes I study things that I don't particularly want to because I'm being guided by the Others and the collective elf-mind. "

Dec 16 1997

"Basically, immediately after I (deliberately) broke off contact with her, I realised I was an elf... There is nothing wrong with not being human mind you (-I'm- not!), but there was definitely something wrong with her. And I know very clearly that I need to find out what it is to protect myself and the rest of the world. I really think given the right knowledge and opportunity she could destroy many humans if not the whole world. I think I'm the only elf that knows about her... I'm getting really scared... I suspect that if I find that out, I can use my own knowledge combined with the Others and the Elves to figure out what to do... "

"The randomly-assigned doctor in a psychiatric facility when I was 14 got an overriding impression of autism and ‘idiot savant’ from an interview with my mother (who also knew little about autism), and then met and tested me, still playing ‘crazy’, and continued to believe I was autistic."

Mar 16 1999

"I thought that when I first read about autism, too. It explained everything, but it also seemed 'pretentious' as you said, to believe that I was autistic in any way. Now I have an official diagnosis (which doesn't necessarily mean much) of atypical autism (pdd-nos) "

"When I finally learned that I did not have to ‘play crazy’ anymore, I did go through a period when learning about autism where I tried to force-fit myself into a lot of autism stereotypes I heard."

"In reality I have had two so-called regressions, one in infancy (before which I was also not “normal”) and one in adolescence. "

Dec 26 1998, 9:00 pm

"I can count myself in as a lefty with a high-functioning form of atypical autism."

Dec 7 1997

"Many children (mostly autistic) at my school use those picture card things. Everything in the room is labeled with them, and they have schedule boards with velcro on them to attach the pictures. When they want to do something, they point to the picture (often with a lot of coaxing). My school's pretty neat actually. It's special-ed for ages 7?-22. There are maybe forty students, of all kinds of problems (I'm in the high-functioning class, recovering from schizophrenia). I get to
work with one of the autistic girls once a week, and I really enjoy it.

I want to do things like that professionally, eventually. Once I get out of this school and back to college... "

May 13 1998

"I think I combined the two and thought that the government, who was
out to get me, working through my father....was also exerting mind
control. Yes, I also thought that my food was being tampered with
(but mainly hospital food, where you never know), that a transmitter
aimed at me was causing the voices (the voices told me so, after
all), the TV/radio talking to me, and on and on with the stereotypical stuff."

Mar 1 1999

"I developed schizophrenia at 11."

Amanda Baggs, Article on Fraud

2007-12-07T08:37:00.001-08:00

I've been contacted by a journalist who wants to do an article on the fraud that it appears is being perpetrated by Amanda Baggs. There is a fair ammount of information indifferent places on this blog that, when put together, certainly indicates that fraud is a distinct possibility. I also have personal emails that different people have sent me with evidence that I have not put on the blog.

I'm not going to mention this journalists name or where his article might appear for now since Neuroinsane lunatics would be sure to contact him to try to deny the fraud.

I would like to ask that if anyone has more information showing evidence of fraud that they either put it in a comment here or email me at bettwice33@juno.com so I can forward it to this journalist. If the article comes together for him, he has promised to let me see it before publication and I will let everyone know where and when to find it.

Will Amanda Baggs Have A Baby?

2007-12-07T08:35:00.000-08:00

It has come to my attention that Amanda Baggs is considering having a baby. This presents an interesting scenario. Baggs has claimed to be a lesbian so becoming pregnant presents a problem. She could go to a sperm bank and buy some semen but, they might not want to sell it to her. I have no knowledge of sperm banks but one would think these places would hesitate to cause pregnancy in a woman who can't care for herself.

One commenter has suggested that Amanda has been acting more high functioning lately. Could that be an alteration in her act so she can seem normal enough to buy some sperm? She'd probably want to make a Youtube video of the impregnation process, typing away at 120 words per minute to describe it. I expect she'd have her partner with her for the procedure.

Her other option could be to run an ad in the Personals if the sperm bank turns her down. How's this sound: Rubenesque, autistic lesbian seeks autistic male for impregnation. No commitment. That should get lots of replies although some guys might show up who are only pretending to be autistic. She'll have to be careful if she goes that route. The guys will also have to be careful as this method could be a ploy to extract child support. I'd make her sign a waiver if I volunteered to impregnate her.

I haven't been reading Amanda's blog so I don't know anything about this higher functioning act. Maybe the person who told me about this can ask if Amanda wants a baby so she can get a bigger social security check? That would be a good deal, especially if she gets another staff person to care for the kid. Would she also be getting married so the kid would have two legal mothers? Or would they be better off living together so her partner's income won't count against her? I wonder if she'd feed the kid some LSD so it could be just like her?

I'm betting the sperm bank turns her down. I'll watch for the Personals ad. Maybe we can help here. Anyone want to sign up to be the father?

Amanda Baggs Lawyers Up

2007-12-07T08:33:00.001-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgmP0Z1PC74

Above is the link to a letter from Neurodiverse nitwit lawyer, Anne Bevington to the autistic woman known as Droopy. It seems that Bevington thinks she can order Droopy to stop defending herself from Amanda Baggs' impersonation of her.

Bevington has gone as far as demanding that Droopy remove all anonymous comments from this blog that she thinks were put there by Droopy. I hope Droopy won't get in trouble with Bevington because anonymous comments can not be removed by the author. They can only be removed by the blog owner.

The problem here is, how is the blog owner supposed to know who put the anonymous comments here. Will I be reprimanded by this neurodiverse nitwit because I can't identify who posted certain coments? What if I believe Droopy and not Amanda (sham) Baggs? Can this lawyer force me to delete comments? That sounds like a free speech matter. I don't think lawyers have the authority to force anyone to do anything. Can she sue me for refusing to infringe on Droopy's right to free speech? I don't think so.

We have Amanda Baggs masquerading as a low functioning autistic person. If Amanda wants to take legal action based on that, it seems she would have to prove that she is, in fact, a low functioning autistic person. A low functioning autistic person might try to eat the keyboard upon which Baggs types 120 words per minute. I wonder if Baggs can work that into her role. Can she type and eat the keyboard simultaneously?

If low functioning autistic people knew how to call lawyers for help, they'd all be getting themselves off of Seroquel, Clonidine and other wonderful, mind-numbing drugs in favor of some DMSA and ALA, and getting themselves out of institutions. Does anyone think this nitwit, Bevington will help autistic kids with that? I doubt it. However, it's interesting that this associate of Kathleen Seidel's will initiate legal action against a true autistic woman. This is just more proof that Neurodiversity exists to harm autistic people.

That's my opinion of the whole thing, MS Bevington. Do you think silencing Droopy will stop anyone else from giving their opinion that Amanda Baggs is a sham?

Droopy, you're welcome to say whatever you want about Baggs here. That is, of course, unless MS Bevington can deny you you're free speech on a blog. This blog is written for an autistic person and, as such, will expose any scumbag who tries to harm any autistic person with blatant lies as Amanda Baggs chooses to do.

Amanda Baggs, MS Bevington, is harmful to all truly low functioning autistic people because she makes the general public think that autism is not nearly as horrible as it is. That lie that sways public opinion helps to prevent a majority of the public from becoming outraged at the atrocity that has been perpetrated on our babies. The fact that the general public is not outraged about this crime of negligence prevents people like my son from receiving all of the medical care that he needs to reverse the effect of that negligent poisoning. For assisting with this sham MS Bevington, I hope you die a slow, painful death and rot in Hell.

I also hope some decent lawyer who reads this will advise Droopy how to get this Neurodiverse nitwit, lawyer off her ass.

ADDENDUM: It looks like the nitwit lawyer has scared Droopy. All of her videos concerning Amanda (sham) Baggs are gone from Youtube. The nitwit can't erase our memories. We know what we saw and we know who is telling the truth. The scumbags at Neuroinsanity may have won a battle by intimidating an autistic woman. Their actions can't alter the truth.

Here's another video that the nitwits at Neuroinsanity will not like. http://www.tacanow.org/video/hope-video.htm
I wonder if a nitwit lawyer will demand that this be removed because it shows them for the idiots that they are with their deranged philosophy of wanting children to suffer for a lifetime instead of being helped.

Comments About Amanda (Sham) Baggs

2007-12-07T08:31:00.001-08:00

At 15 March, 2007, Anonymous said...
An interesting little 'audio/visual rendition' of Amanda's 'group of beings' statement can be found here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88ahwuKabxU

Here's Amanda's immediate (damage control) response:

http://ballastexistenz.autistics.org/?p=333

At least this time it wasn't "my psychiatrist brainwashed and made me do it."
To her credit, she does keep it 'fresh' by periodically swapping the excuses around.

No, this time no conspiratorial mothers, no evil brainwashing shrinks;
this time it was merely the drugs, one little anti-depressant to be exact
-- one taken in 1999, a full two years after she posted this in 1997 -- that's a really amazing drug!

Amanda has a long list, advising of which things she's said that you can believe and which ones you can't.
"This was real, no that part wasn't, okay THIS was real, that part wasn't.."

Just how many of these selective instructions are people willing to take anyway?
When does not only the very existance of these instructions, but so many of them finally begin to raise its very own set of questions and doubts in people's minds?

At 20 March, 2007, Watson said...
I see the video has been removed.

"This video is no longer available due to a copyright claim by a third party."

I wonder who the third party is....

At 20 March, 2007, Anonymous said...
The sly minx.
Oh what a tangled web she weaves!

At 20 March, 2007, Anonymous said...
I didn't get to see Amanda on CNN. Does anyone know if it's on you tube or anywhere else?

At 20 March, 2007, Watson said...
I don't think so, but the transcript is here:

http://transcripts.cnn.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0702/21/acd.01.html

Oh what a tangled web she weaves!

That's EXACTLY what I thought.

At 20 March, 2007, Watson said...
Amanda has a long list, advising of which things she's said that you can believe and which ones you can't. "This was real, no that part wasn't, okay THIS was real, that part wasn't.."

Yes. Reading through her posts on various forums, on her own blog and elsewhere, it's very difficult to know what's true and what's not. Although what she wrote before she found out about atypical autism is probably more accurate.

I wonder how she explains away earlier hallucinations, delusions and voices which definitely pre-date the anti-depressant....

"I have seen things all my life that weren't there, but I only started hearing voices regularly when I was eleven."
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/browse_thread/thread/c712bdb543fb0f16/bb73479c04694fc0?lnk=st&q=eleven&rnum=3&hl=en#bb73479c04694fc0

"As soon as I stopped speaking to her I started having memories from the elf-forest. And those memories guarded me against her continued (psychological) attacks on me." "Is it also coincidence that soon after I broke off contact with her I started showing signs of schizophrenia?"
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/browse_thread/thread/62dab6bf34e3391/1bf028da398e92d2?lnk=st&q=Abby&rnum=4&hl=en#1bf028da398e92d2

"I would have hallucinations that I didn't know were related to any of this, like seeing spiders and/or butterflies literally covering the floor, crunching under my feet. I didn't like seeing flower petals and would go to great lengths to avoid them, thinking they were dead butterflies. " (Click on quoted text in first post):
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.trauma-ptsd/browse_thread/thread/4360e1b8d7daa26f/d494dbb6f8b6e185?lnk=st&q=&rnum=69&hl=en#d494dbb6f8b6e185

This, after Clorazil which she took at 15-16:

"Elves, while on Clozaril. I was forced not to believe in them, and not to connect with trees in the way I had before them. I was especially not
allowed to believe that I was not human (which I'm not, for what it's worth)... those medications can take a lot out of you. I had never believed in things like demons, but I don't think it's a coincidence that it was /after/ these medications when I stopped looking to the trees and the stars and the elves and started looking to the glowing red eyes in the window... "

"They said I was "depressed" at that point, but it was a direct result of taking things out of me. There was a "hallucination" they couldn't seem to get rid of (well, they couldn't get rid of the voices most of the time either but they got rid of good things) which involved a large, spiny, fractallene, black, sometimes flashing hole."
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/browse_thread/thread/9e999a9424875de/c33adaad3cb8a902?lnk=st&q=Wellbutrin&rnum=35&hl=en#c33adaad3cb8a902

This is what Amanda said about the anti-depressant:

"the Wellbutrin keeps me awake I think... I'm on Seroquel/Wellbutrin/Lithium now... it doesn't make me psychotic particularly..."
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/browse_thread/thread/456e1a991b21d0a1/39dc0c0ce356d2db?lnk=st&q=Seroquel%2C+Lithium+and+Wellbutrin&rnum=9&hl=en#39dc0c0ce356d2db

I found this exchange from December 1998, before her PDD-NOS/atypical autism diagnosis, very interesting:

"The Others are still up there, I'm still an elf (despite other people's beliefs on that one :)) and as far as I know the "place" I came from still exists, complete with intact elves (not stuck in a human body) and whatever their kind of humans are there... and trees. And I have "thought as one" with the Others, while on medication... since this medication tends to take away that which is psychotic in me, I don't think this other stuff would be possible now if it weren't real. ":
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.schizophrenia/browse_thread/thread/9e999a9424875de/c33adaad3cb8a902?lnk=st&q=Wellbutrin&rnum=35&hl=en#c33adaad3cb8a902

After reading that, it occurred to me that despite her new diagnosis, Amanda might still believe she is an elf, sent by the Others to study humans.

Then I came across this:

http://www.autistics.org/library/conversation.html
Conversation on Institutions

Amanda: Like in my case I'm supposedly out because I'm not schizophrenic, which in part is not diagnosed simply because I stay away from the sorts of people and saying the sorts of things that worry people.

Laura: Yes. Yeah. Well in a purely practical sense, I think anybody who can get any loophole to get out of that system, can and should use any loopholes they have. Because they have no right to keep anyone, so therefore anything and everything that will keep someone out of there, including if necessary lies, it's perfectly fine with me."

So what if by not talking about delusions and hallucinations, schizophrenics can have their diagnosis changed to "resolved schizophrenia", or, like Amanda, "single episode, full remission", and then, given the 'right' background, they could fit the criteria for atypical autism - and be free to call themselves autistic?

Perhaps adults who claim to be autistic or say they have autistic traits in the family are confusing mental illness and eccentricity with autism.

For instance, Amanda wrote in 1998:

"Genetically, I have a family history on both sides of schizophrenia and on one side of perceptual disorders sometimes like autism..."
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.autism/browse_thread/thread/86be5a79713db563/b8503c223bc3d350?lnk=st&q=Wellbutrin&rnum=29&hl=en#b8503c223bc3d350

But today, she talks about her successful brother who was once a low-functioning autistic who smeared, and Gupta says in the CNN transcript:

"There is a belief, though, a strong belief, Kiran, that it is genetic. Even in the case of Amanda, her brother and her father had autism as well. "

I guess he got that from Amanda, but that's not what she would have told him in 1998:

"Genetically, I have a family history on both sides of schizophrenia and on one side of perceptual disorders sometimes like autism..."
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.support.autism/browse_thread/thread/86be5a79713db563/b8503c223bc3d350?lnk=st&q=Wellbutrin&rnum=29&hl=en#b8503c223bc3d350

I guess "autism" is currently a far more socially acceptable diagnosis - and suits the agenda.

At 20 March, 2007, Anonymous said...
Thanks Watson,

"I guess "autism" is currently a far more socially acceptable diagnosis - and suits the agenda."

I totally agree.
I think that everyone who has contributed to this thread with information and links etc, have proven without a doubt and exposed Amanda Baggs for what she really is - a lying manipulative schizophrenic, pretending to be autistic.

BTW anti psychotic drugs do not cause auditory or visual hallucinations, but LSD does...

You can fool some of the people, some of the time...

The games up Amanda.

Amanda Baggs Snows CNN

2007-12-07T08:29:00.001-08:00

What I just watched on CNN with Amanda Baggs playing the role of a low functioning autistic was a disgrace. Low functioning autistics can't type anything. They can barely pay attention to anything, nevermind keep up a conversation by typing 120 words a minute. Cute little girls don't usually turn into fat ugly monsters either.

Did anyone else notice the little blond girl who turned into this beastly brunette? That little girl's eye contact with the camera looked normal to me. Perhaps her whole face changed when she was smitten with schizophrenia. Maybe she's not even the same girl.

How come Amanda can focus long enough to type without stopping to twiddle her fingers? One who deals with autism every day knows that expecting a low functioning person to pay attention to any task for long is expecting a lot. This overacting is a dead giveaway that Baggs functions much too well to be considered autistic. Why didn't she space out in the middle of answering a question and go finger twiddling for awhile? Bullshit, this imposter can focus long enough to make her point for CNN without having any autistic "moments".

She wears a buttoned up coat to go outside in Vermont. That makes sense. Too bad autistic kids don't happen to do that. They'll run outside naked and not be bothered by the cold one bit. With Amanda's layers of blubber, I'm sure the cold wouldn't faze her at all if she really was autistic.

I'm also trying to figure out this loss of speech and eye contact. My son makes great eye contact, doesn't bother him at all anymore but he still can't talk. Should I expect that if he learns to talk, the eye contact will disappear? What if he learns to type? Will that mean he won't be able to make eye contact while he's typing? What if Amanda learns to make eye contact? Will she then be unable to type? Can she type while she's singing or would that be too much sensory overload?

Sorry Amanda and the other jerks at Neuronitwitland. You're trying to pawn off autism as something that can be fixed with a couple of grand for a talking typewriter along with a personal servant. It doesn't work that way for truly low functioning autistics. If they could learn how to talk, they wouldn't forget. Such bullshit.

Addendum: I just watched this again and picked up a couple more questions. Could that facial hair be attributed to too much testosterone? Does that explain her attraction to women? Did the extra testosterone interacting with mercury cause her autism? Did that make the schizophrenia go away or does she still have that too?

She makes comments that she thought were humorous but she never cracks a smile. Did someone tell her that autistics don't smile? Did she get that from Rainman, I don't think he smiled much. My low functioning kid smiles all the time. When something's funny, he laughs. I think whoever prepped Amanda for this role has a poor idea of what low functioning autism is. Even the best comics can't help but grin when they come out with a good joke. Amanda remaining stone-faced looks like overacting to me. Yes Amanda, real autistic people smile a lot. You should incorporate that into your next performance. It will make you more credible.

An Autistic Woman Celebrates Brain Damage

2007-12-07T08:23:00.001-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnylM1hI2jc

This is supposedly the way one autistic person interacts with the world. Evidently, this is normal for her. Well, certainly nobody can understand her moaning and finger squirming. It reminds me of someone on LSD.

The problem here is that this autistic person doesn't want to talk. It seems the Acid trip is permanent. Unlike LSD users who come down to normalcy when the trip is over, this person wants to stay in her world, far away from normalcy.

I have never tried LSD so I can't comment on the effects but it must produce something that people enjoy because many LSD users will take it more than once. I'd love to hear from anyone who has used LSD to see if they agree with my assessment.

There has to be a way to get inside the heads of people who want to exist in this altered state of consciousness. They have to learn what life can be like when they are not off on an Acid trip. Sure, everything isn't beautiful and normal people don't think of washing their hands as interacting with the water. In normal parlance, many would refer to those on LSD as vegetables. That's why some of them decide they can fly and jump off roofs. They have lost their connection with reality.

Society does not recognize using Acid as a good way to go through life. I can understand the perspective of someone who enjoys this escape from reality and wishes to embrace it once in a while. It's not much different from the alcoholic who chooses to stay drunk all the time though, if one opts for using Acid every day.

Amanda Baggs is off in her own little world where she takes some joy in interacting with the water and playing with her fingers. If she is permanently disabled by having her brain trapped in this different reality, society must accomodate her. Society does not however, have a responsibility to accept this condition without trying to ameliorate it. That's why we have places for drunks to dry out and drug users to kick their habits. We recognize that people who are all screwed up from using these drugs have ruined their lives. We do not encourage people to turn themselves into vegetables.

Amanda and other strange people from the world of neurodiversity think we should leave people alone who are off in this other world and just let them vegetate. I suppose they think it would be a good idea to provide free booze and drugs for those people who would like to escape reality permanently too.

I disagree. I think people who are all screwed up on drugs or booze deserve a chance to regain their lives. I think children whose brains are a mess thanks to mercury should have that mercury removed so they can think straight. Being on a permanent Acid trip like Miss Baggs is no way to go through life if it can be avoided. It is not a complicated thing to understand that there is a different language going on in her head. The solution is not to accept her brain damage. The solution is to fix that brain damage if possible so people can exist in reality, not off in the clouds, set aside from the rest of humanity.